Tuesday, September 21, 2004

A request...

Please please....anybody...
If you have read any of my blog or just visit the site to find out about my updates...please let me know your presence by dropping some comments...because I need to know if anybody is actually reading them.....
Or else, I feel like I am taking to nobody...

Sob...


Ok...I know I am pathetic...

I am.

21/09/04

Words from the wicked unbeliever....

CAUTION!
The following are not suitable for people who call themselves christian.
If you are and still wants to continue to read the following, please that note that I am not trying to be offensive, and forgive me for being truthful but I just can;t help it...

Bottom Line is....





READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!





At this point, I have made yet another realisation.
Yes, I am beginning to suspect that God may have exist.
However, this suspicion makes no difference to the fact that I

DO NOT believe in him/her or it.

I find it ridiculous when people wants to convince me into converting by trying to prove the existence of God....especially when I was always told “The fact that you dun see a moon does not mean that it dun exist.”..yeah right.....so.?...We dun prove the existence of something by proving the existence of something that we can’t see exist. Because eventually, we will see the moon shining happily in the sky looking differently almost every night.
Moreover, so what if (assuming God is a male) he does/do/did exist...
We dun believe in something with it existence.
We believe in something we believe.

There is one thing that have always bother me a bit.
That is the reading of bible.
Since I am a non-believer, I choose not to read it, in case I “get tempted”, judging from the responses from all the believer I have seen so far, I have to admit the bible might be in some way “attractive”.
However, I have change me mind recently.
I have decided to read it.
Simply becos, you have to know what something is before deciding to oppose it.
Or else I will be in no position to reject it if I dun even know what it preach.

So first thing first, I read a bible.
This can happen becos of a coincidence, my neighbour is leaving and she happen to leave me a book which titled “Holy Bible New Testament”. And so even if I dun believe in God, I believe in fate, so I decide to read it.

And I am so glad with my decision becos the first thing I flip upon in the book is...
“Do not be yoked with Unbeliever”
I shall copy the whole paragragh I read in order to illustrate my point later for those who are not familiar with the bible...

“ Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? What harmony is there between Christ and Belial? What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever?...blah blah blah...”

Clearly, the person who wrote the bible is not sensitive enough to realise that the world do not exist only in black and white. There are apart from various tones of grey other colours like red, blue, yellow, green, pink...and so many so many others which I can’t even name. What rights did he have to dismiss unbeliever to be wicked?
I love peace. I dun like to differentiate people by their believe, afterall we are all sharing the same air on earth. why must there be such a differentiation and alienation in which to separate people into believer and non-believer...I think it is sad....If God really exist,..he should do something about his bible and his believer as to how they preach....this is so wrong...at least to me.

And yes, I can see that this person who wrote the bible(apparently under the influnce of God)is clearly unfamiliar with Albert Einstein’s theory of relativity, which is such a shame that I shall do him a favour of enlightening him with the following understanding

Light do not exist without Darkeness.

This is a simple way of life and you have to live it to know it. Apparently, this person havent learn enough in life to make such realisation...


I can feel my blood pressure heighten a bit as I was writing it...while I tell myself...I shall forgive all this...because I love peace...whahahaha....Meanwhile...yah...

WORLD PEACE.......

With this, I shall end my blog for the time being and continue my quest to read the bible. Though I can anticipate a few blood boiling moments that might be unpleasant, I look forward to the potential entertainment I can get from this book while criticising it....


20/09/04

Monday, September 13, 2004

The UltimATe TraSh!

Yes. The ultimate trash. I am refering to myself for the past two days. I sleep and eat and sleep and oh...watch TV and sleep and yah listen to music and sleep and eat and sleep....the only point where I am slightly humane is where I start to feel guilty about not writing my essay...for 10 seconds...and that's it....and so...my beautiful weekend is spent on breathing in oxygen in the air to produce carbon dioxide.....and whatever....I am guilty of cos...but I'm LOVING IT!

The fear...

I guess the most scary thing that could happen to a blogger...is not that someone is peeping into her secret or exposing her true identity...but the fact that no one reads it...*shiver*...

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Life is beautiful....

Ah...life is beautiful when you can sleep without having to set your alarm for the next morning....and it happen to me yesterday...breath in...and breath out...I like the air today as well...keeps me alive...as if it din yesterday...
Ah...can't help feeling happy...lalala..lalala

090904

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Toothache...

I got this toothache on the top left row of my inner teeth so bad that I need a dentist...but that was one week ago...it miraculously recover on it's own 2 days ago...so ...end of story.

The thing about beauty...or being beautiful...whatever

I won’t say it is unfair....after all I am not the one who is being at a disadvantage. This doesn’t mean I am beautiful, instead the following scenario clearly illustrate that I am being discriminated against becos I am not as 'beautiful'...what an irony...however this discrimination only means I get to SKIVE at work...and work less compared to my fellow colleagues...where both of them happen to be very pretty....double irony?.. The story starts 2 weeks ago where I register to a new agency for a special event job where typing skill is required...I work for the agency in a very large conference held in the SECC(something like SunTec or EXPO in Singapore)...as a registration lady..where my main job is to register new participant for the events that is available for the whole 5 days conference.....and make them pay...blah blah blah...so it happens...I was registration lady number 12...sandwiched between lady 11 and 13...where lady 11 is a very pretty Indian girl...with bushy eye lashes and very exotic make up...very pretty...and lady 13..was a Scottish Chinese...VERY PRETTY as well...BIG EYED...sweet smile , good complexion ,simple make up and all...then me...small eyed NO make up..frizzy hair...pimpled face.......the 3 of us doing On-site registration for doctors and researchers from all over the world......

At first, everything is under control and I felt very bored...then I was still very bored...and again very bored... slowly I realise desk 11 and desk 13 is always occupied....by enquiries...and registration...becos it is an open area...people just walk up to the desk themselves...so they have a choice who they want to be served...while I serve only 6 participant in 3 hours....my next door neighbour...lady 13 served 10......plus a lot of lost participant seeking help from her...while my desk is “patronless”....and she had to refer them to me...whom I happily take over.....nothing really struck my mind until when both my desk...(desk 12) and desk 13 is free...and a handsome Spainish doctor...walk towards the desk....lady 13 was not paying attention to him...while I smile at him...and was about to offer some help... he just walk pass me and register with lady 13....at this point...I understand the whole situation and what is actually going on for the whole day....people just walk towards these 2 ladies out of instinct and I am sadly...(in terms of personal pride) being ignored in a sense becos I DUN ATTRACT THEM...however is secretly happy and have nothing to complain about (in terms of personal advantage) becos in this way...I work less, get the same pay...and make less mistakes.....and frankly speaking I wont blame that spainish doctor...becos I will also choose to register with Karen (lady 13) instead of myself if I were him becos..she really is so pretty that even I will steal glance at her occasionally...and on top of that..very sweet and friendly...the prefect image of a customer service rep...

So...life is fair and square...like what my friend ah guan have said before...for my case today...even though my pride was a little hurt for the fact that the handsome doctor did not register with me eventually...I shouldn’t mind at all becos if this kind of scenario keep happening for the rest of the days....I am more than glad.. as long as I get paid!

030904

Friday, September 03, 2004

I am so impressed and yet so not.

I am so impressed by the fact that I can churn out 500 words in less than 5 minutes to write a blog entry...but couldn't get myself to write a 4000 words essay in 3 weeks...of cos I have a lot of excuses and I think they are very valid but still I am so not impressed by this fact. By the way....I WANT INTERNET ACCESS!!!!!!

I am such a fake!

This is something I can't stand myself lately...I am such a fake!..to my landlord...while usually I am a VERY SINCERE person to everybody.This is what happened...2 weeks ago I call up the broadband company to install broadband in my room...I told my landlord about it and he say "NO PROBLEM!"...but then in the end...he chase the technicians away and scold them for drailing holes in his flat...I won't blame him..becos is his property and he is right to protect it...few days later....he told my neighbours that he feels bad about it and ask them to tell me to go ahead and call up the company to do the installation again....but now the problem is...the NTL company has already CANCELLED my name and BLACKLISTED me for broadband installation...and....I am soooo busy now I dun have time slots to wait for installation....and the MOST FUSTRATING thing is...my essay is due this sunday..I NEED THE INTERNET FOR MY RESEARCH AND WRITE UP...but couldn't continue in the middle of my writing becos my offline links is cut off without internet accesss....I really BLOW UP!...Thanks to my landlord who chase the technicians away that morning....I am now stuck with an unfinish essay and a VERY TIGHT WORK SCHEDULE!.....and ON TOP OF THIS....he comes to knock on my door and ask me if I am OK....welll...I really wanted to tell him I am NOT!....thanks to him...i have to carry my 3kg laptop and walks to school....resulting in SEVERE backaches shoulder aches as well as thigh muscle cramp from walking with heavy object...especially when the laptop bag is actually not very carrier friendly when you have to sling it across your shoulders....that is when I finally have an off day from work and I had to go to school for the internet access...with the rest of days...trying to work offline at home...and get stuck in all the links I tried to bookmark but can't access becos I dun have connections at home!!!!...I am sooo FED UP!...and then....comes the FAKE part....I smile at my landlord and say I am ok, I just dun want people to feel bad about things...besides WHAt else can I say...ask him to F**K OFF?.....i really hates it when he knocks on my door on my precious off days...just to ask me if I am "happy"and won't go off and keep talking...I tried to be polite but sometimes i am soo sick of entertaining him..I told him I am busy...I am happier if he gives me a break and leave me alone!.....and finally...I am determined to MOVE as soon as I can find a cheaper flat or somewhere as cheap....I SWEAR!

Thursday, August 26, 2004

About my scholarship...

This scholarship that I got...came as a weird surprise and accident.
I was told that I will know the results in July. And so...since I never hear from the school I already forget about it long ago...then...one day, I receive a letter telling me..."Thank you for applying....blah blah blah....sorry to inform you that your application is UNSUCCESSFUL..."...but 2 days later i receive another letter to say that the previous is an ERROR...and congrats me for getting the scholarship....

Back 2 mth ago when i hand in my application, I was told i can send in application for 2 scheme....one of the scheme i choose was actually outdated...it was on last year but this year that one is no longer offering a scholarship...so the welfare guy help me browse thru the info and search for another scholarship which is eligle for oversea student....and we just tigum and choose another one...

And so...the scholarship I got in the end...is that one he tigum...and we choose last minute....

So...I concluded...I have to thank him!

I have been thinking....

Maybe i think too much. But I can't help thinking.

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Drama addict

Recently, I have a strange habit to go home and watch 2 episode of korean drama on my laptops before i go to sleep...it's like my life is not drama enuff and I had to live in other dramas to make my life more dramatic.....well...maybe I am just bored.....something should happen...i tell myself...like some kind of romance or drama.....or else i will have to live in someone elses romance and drama......on my laptop....this is so unhealthy!!!

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Lastest update!

I was laughing on my way to work yesterday becos i receive a letter from my school to inform me of a scholarship I got!..YES! I got a scholarship AGAIN!...I always do....whahahahaha...I know i sound proud because I AM...maybe my results are not somethings to be proud of at the moment....but my will to continue this bizzare DREAM is going to go on....no matter how hard my life is......and finally...I am glad that the school sees an artist of me...more than a student by simply awarding me this scholarship based on my financial difficulty and not results......
And so...my struggle stops the moment i open the letter yesterday morning....however another struggle is about to come because i am suppose to hand in my essays next week...which i dun noe how i can do it because I am holding 3 jobs now...which i have promise to work last week without knowing i am going to be rich this week!


About the weather report....

Yahui says that rain, rain and rain....sounds so sad....indeed....however to me rain is more romantic than sad...or maybe the idea of being a litlle sad is quite romantic....ah watever...too confusing.....bottom line is....Glagsow is raining. That's a fact.
Perhaps a little sad...but so romantic.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Weather report...

Rain and rain and rain and rain.....

Monday, August 09, 2004

Mental Block

I have been having mental blocks for the past few days...trying to blog...not becos I have nothing to write but is having difficulties to express...it is either that my english has become worse or my thought has become too complex for my limited vocab and grammer to express...
I dun like this kind of feeling.

090804

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Dream a little dream...

I dream that my relative send me an air ticket to go home...on the 17th August....I wonder if this dream got any special meaning.....

050804

Lady's fingers....

Yesterday...I was sooo lazy to get up of my bed that...I actually start to chew my fingers becos I am hungry...

050804

Monday, August 02, 2004


My food supply cabinet... Posted by Hello

Ohh...baby hotdogs....yummy! Posted by Hello

OOOuchh..!

I am suffering from serious muscle ache from my bums right down to toes...so serious I walk like some old lady with rheumatism....simply becos I played badminton yesterday...
It only shows that I have not been excercising....since..I dun noe when.....I guess I really need more exercise...and..I really crave for a swim by the way..... as for the muscle ache...according to past experience, I suspect I just have to suffer a few more days....

240704

ToP TeN WiSh LiSt...

ToP TeN WiSh LiSt...

Apart from the fact that a handsome rich boyfriend is always the number one choice in my wish list with a 10-star rating...there are actually a lot other things that my life is inadequate of at this moment...

* ---------------- Can survive without it..
** -------------- Think I Can survive without it...but not nice lor...
*** ----------- Better do something about it...
**** ---------Dun noe can tahan until when...
***** ------ Kill me please!

Black shoes...I have one which I bought 8 month ago...was so torn and tattered that my supervisor always take more than 2 glances at it...and the worse thing is...water gets into my left foot when it rains ...the right one is actually ok...
Rating : **

Waterproof windbreaker.....my orange windbreaker which is suppose to be waterproof ...prove me wrong by making me soak with rain one day when I wore it...I guess it is time this windbreaker retire and rest in peace....however no potential new jacket can replace it...
Rating : **½

Detergent...running out in 2 days time which I already have been imposing strict ration of using it in the most diluted version I can make it....have been living with oily cutleries, pots and glasses.....
Rating : **½

Shampoo...using up in one week time....this is really already a miracle...considering the length of my hair if you know me in person...however that big bottle of shampoo I brought with me from Singapore manage to last me until now...what can I say...
Rating : ***

Sugar...this might seem very unimportant...but it is running out in one week time...I actually need sugar in almost everything I eat....not those VERY SWEET type of sweetness...but that kind of vaguely sweet feeling in the food that keeps me going and feel happy...so yah...sugar please...
Rating : ***

Milk.....no amount of other things can replace the importance of drinking milk everyday...however...I have not been drinking milk since I quit my last job 3 weeks ago..that job allows me to drink milk for free...(not as a milkmaid in case you wonder....just a waitress)
Rating : ***½

Fruits...this is vital...becos I can feel my vitamin C draining off every second...and is tempted to chew on my Vitamin C pills to keep myself healthy since I cannot afford fruits in my shopping list....however...I shouldn’t becos those pills are really for my rainy days in case I fall sick...and ohh...those strawberry and apples in TESCO and Sainsbury....I really CRAVE for them...
Rating : ***½

One full time and one part time job...this one is just becos I need to pay rent and school fees...nothing interesting..I have already got a part time but it din manage to feed me becos it is low season and not job assignments to feed me...however my only dilemma is I am not available to work until August...although the fact that I am going to be broke in 2 weeks time makes this wish very important...however I am confident to find a job anytime....so that’s about it...
Rating : ****

Broadband Internet connection....One year ago I would laugh at this point because I dun used to think internet is essential...or maybe it is still not...but I simply need it because of the subject I am researching on for my essay as well as my project for my studio practice...Internet connectivity has somehow become a NEED!
Rating : ****½

TV....I still cannot get over the fact that my bed-sit doesn’t have a TV.....I really dun noe how I can survive until now though I manage to...Can you imagine I can watch TV 12 hours a day in Singapore...and now have to live with no TV in my room....KILL ME PLEASE!
Rating : *****

Nowadays, I dun believe in Fairy-God Mother (especially after watching Shrek2)...and this is not a posting for people to send me things please... ...I dun accept donations or sorts unless of course you are rich and handsome and want to offer yourself to me ....
I just want to share my sweet sour, bitter and spicy here.....other than that...I am just showing off that I am surviving!

250704
12.57am

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

A taste of heaven....

The blueberry muffin I ate this morning is sooo nice...I simply love it...

To live with someone....

Recently I have a visitor from home...my friend Liwei....stayed with me for a a couple of days....it was a funny feeling to live with someone...but I wont say it is bad....imagine the idea that someone cooks breakfast for you in the morning...and you just have to lie on the bed to wait for food to be serve...ahhh...so nice....and lazy...

Friday, July 23, 2004

And we meet again...

Nowadays, thing like to happen in trilogy...
like LOTR...

3 days ago...we meet again...
Yah..this Daniel guy...third time...I meet him on Sauchiehall street...
I am beginning to feel that we are too fated...or maybe
Glasgow city is just too small and thus everybody
keep meeting everybody...

But then again...
Nothing really happens actually...

230704

 

LoNG LoNg StoRy

Written on 20th July 2004

One minute past yesterday.
Yesterday was Bank Holiday.
Monday.
Was a beautiful day full of sunshine!(which summer should be)
Bloody good Day!

Anyway, so much about the weather reports...
yah...to tell my story about yesterday,
I need to tell another story that happened 3 days ago on Saturday...

Saturday, I went to watch Spider Man 2 with Bax ( a colleague)
and we meet Daniel(another colleague) along Buchanan street...
and so it happens...Daniel join us for the movie...

After the show...sorry side-track a bit..Spidey 2 is DAmN GoOd!!!..
er where was I..ok ok..after the show yah...we went on seperate ways to go home...
Bax was first to leave ...he run to catch a bus...
left me and Daniel...becos we sort of head for the same direction home...

So let me cut short my story and go straight to wat i want to say...
we walked pass a park and passed by a bush of white flowers...
He suddenly stop and asked me to wait...
he walked towards one flower and sniffed hard at it...
He smiled and ask me to smell it as well...
I did what I was told and...
ah...vaguely sweet...
which I suspect part of the actual fragrance was gone
becos he sniffed it before me...
anyway....
we continues to walk and he commented...
that he had a very sensitive sense of smell
(at that moment a dog comes to my mind and
 i dun dare to mention in case he blows fire at me)
and would smell the flowers to see if they are growing well...
WOW!...I was ImPreeessssed!..managed to tilt my eyebrows and say...
"hmmm...."
To think that such a statement comes from a guy...
*a round of applause please*
The reason why i am impressed is really becos
I though he is a very insensitive person in the first place...

And so..end of my background story of Saturday...

Back to yesterday...

I was actually really wanting to write about something that happened yesterday ..
I walked past that park again...and past by that bush of white flowers again...
and I stopped.
I was going to do something I thought was silly 3 days ago...
But before anything really happened...
I saw someone walking towards me at the corner of my eye...
It was HIM!!!
I mean...coincidence happen but this is too much of it...
we exchange some silly hi-bye conversation and he left...
I walk on...approaching the next bush of white flowers...
and look back to make sure he is no longer there....
and sniffed hard at one of the white flower which is blooming exarrgerately...

 
ahh...vaguely sweet...
I hope this flower is growing well ..but seriously..
I really can't tell by smelling it...

End Notes...

I was really amused by the fact that we meet again ...
And i thought this kind of things only happen in drama series...
but then drama is never too drama because things really do
happen dramatically in real life...
And so...this story adds a little spice to my boring life...
even though I dun have any special feelings for this Daniel guy...

I thought it brighten up my life a bit...

200704

 

 

 


MatTer of LiFe aND DeAth...

Yesterday...there was this moment
where I had to make life and death a decision
which everything happened in split second...
it was that decision which determine my existence today...
and whether this blog will be published....
It only shows that...
I made the decision that keeps me alive until today...

Anyway, the story goes like this...

I was walking along Sauchiehall Street( pronounced as ‘saw-kee-hor’ in case
 people from Singapore dun noe... is somewhere like Orchard Rd in Singapore..,),
Where I approach a traffic crossing....instead of stopping to wait for the “Green Man” to flash which I usually would...I simply walk across the road carelessly...

After exactly 3 steps onto the road...6 things happened in split second.

One,  I notice a bus approaching on my left...about 3 metres away

Two, I spot a car coming from my right...about 3 metres as well..

Three,  I looked in front to determine how many steps I was away from my intended destination...which I estimated was 7 Big steps...considering I have short legs...

Four, I made a decision to walk back 3 steps.

Five, I walked 3 BIG steps back while the bus and car ZOOOM! pass side by side on the narrow 2 way road without signs of slowing down...

Six, Open my eyes real big to see the car and bus drove past while holding on to my breathe...

And yes, they all happened in spit second...

I froze at my safety zone after that and tell myself...
I am so glad that I’m still alive!


 
ThE EnD.

230704

Thursday, July 22, 2004


A sense of affinity...this boy and me... Posted by Hello

All wE Get fROm LovE is a lOVe SONg

Ah...recently have been listening to this song repeatly on my laptop...
Day and Night...
As soon as I reach home....
Because..It sound sooo painful and to a point...
tRue...

Like sailin' on a sailin' ship to nowhere,
Love took over my heart like an ocean breeze.
As season fly I knew that I was losing
Love was washed away with the driftin tide.


Oh it's a dirty old shame
that all you get from love is a love song
It's gotcha layin up nights waiting for the music to start.
It's such a dirty old shame
when you got to take the blame for a love song.
Because the best love song is writing with a broken heart.
(chorus)

Now the tears in my eyes are ever blindin'
The future that lies before me I cannot see
(future I cannot see...)
Although tomorrow I know the sun is rising
Lightin' up the world for everyone, but not for me.

By Carpenters...

220704


Vaguely sweet... Posted by Hello

Food will keep me alive!!!

Recently, I am always feeling hungry...
Perhaps I have been too harsh on myself lately...
Tonight, I cook myself a bowl of sweet potatoes soup...
Like that day I bake that half piece of Bak Kwa...
It was in the middle of the night ...2am...I think
I stood by the cooker and stare at the soup to boil....
And I was actually excited by the thought of it...
I must be hungry...
Add a little sugar...as usual..
I like my food to be slightly sweet...
Just slightly...
The idea of something vaguely sweet is intriguing...
Anyway, I finish the soup in minutes...
DAMN satisfied!
ANd so I conclude for the night...
Food will Keep me alive!!!!

190704

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Regarding whether there is God....

Two days ago...after I made my confession...
I found an extra £10 in my cash box...
This extra is from nowhere
because I have just done my accounting very recently...
and have been keeping track of my money....
which in no way a £10 can creep into my cash box...
 
And so...
I have concluded that...
 
It was from GOD for my toilet rolls....
 
Maybe, there really is GOD...
 
 
160704

My confession...

I have been doing something lately 
That I thought would consider rather despicable
Which I see the need to make a serious confession...
 
That is,
 
I have been taking toilet papers home from the school library...
In another words...
I have been stealing toilet papers from the school library!
er well...maybe not steal...too harsh a word to use...
after all the toilet papers in the cubicles are free..
 
Well, I must say I am guilty, I really am.
But toilet rolls here are really too expensive...
Like £1.60 for 4 rolls...which is S$4.80 for 4 rolls...
This amount can buy me 2 dozens of toilet rolls in Singapore!!!!
I simply cannot allow myself to indulge in such a luxury
especially when £1.60 can buy me a lot of other things!!!!
 
However, I try to reduce my sin by not taking all the toilet rolls away...
but only a bit more everyday so that i have enough to use at home...
I will always make sure there are some left in the toilet so that other people can use...
 
If there really is GOD...
please dun send me to hell for stealing toilet papers,
as I really have my difficulties...
Best thing is...
If there really is GOD,
Send me some toilet rolls, please!
Thank You.
 
160704
 
 
 

Opps! I cut it again...

Yesterday, I dreamt that I cut my hair AGAIN!

YES! AGAIN!
Third time.

This time, I cut my hair shorter then shoulder length...
It felt so real that I really thought I cut it  but I couldn't remember when...
I am actually quite confuse with this recurring dream ...

Is it suppose to tell me...
It is time for me to cut my hair and has been mentally preparing me
to the emotion trauma that I am about to face...  
 
OR 
 
Is it balancing a mental state that
I actually wanted to cut my hair but couldn't bear to cut it in real life,
therefore have to cut it in my dream?

OR
 
Is it a warning to tell me..
"YOU BETTER DUN CUT UR HAIR OR YOU WILL BE SORRY!" 
you know...
something like showing me how devastated i will be if i really cut it!

So how now?
Wat's the verdict?
Jian hai shi bu Jian?
Somebody....vote please!
 
200704
 


Who should I marry?

Recently...I have a dilema....
I am stuck between the choice of marrying Spider man or wait for Harry Potter to grow up...
OHHH.....I must be dreaming....lol...
 
 

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Addicted

I am sure this is some kind of addiction....
To be online at this time of the day...whenever i can...
Or maybe i am just bored...
Becos life with no TV has made me rather handicapp....
NO NEWS....i hate it....
I just want to know what is going on in this world...
I just want to know something is happening....
Or Life will be too BORing!


Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Apples....

I have apple-craving recently...
I bought a bag of ten yesterday and ate 5 of them since....
now I have 5 left and i suspect i can finish them tomolo....
10 apples COST £1.48
which is S$ 4.50
I can't believe i am spending such amount on apples....
I shouldn't....becos i am suppose to be on tight budget...
But i dun care...I want to eat apples...
and that's it!

130704
4.41pm

I CUT MY HAIR!!!!!

Yesterday, i dreamt that I cut my hair...just the fringe...
not much though...
but is enough for me to cry and cry in my dream....
so sad that i can feel the pain in my heart....
I guess that is a warning....
To warn me not to cut my hair....
I have plans to cut my hair 2 days ago....for a project call
"Rapunzel Complex" or "Rapunzel Revenge"
anyway...now with that dream....I am thinking of alternative.....

I promise I will NOT cut my hair for the time being....until I stop having this nightmare again...this is in fact the second time i had such dreams...the last time I dreamt that i cut my hair till shoulder length...and i cried and cried as well....until my heart aches

Guess i am not ready to cut my hair really....
Better keep it long for the time being....
For my heart sake....

130704
4.25pm

Bak kwa Sensation

I think i am crazy.
Sitting in front of the oven waiting.
Waiting for my bak kwa to heat up and ready.

I wake up in the middle of the night, which i suspect is 3am now
( I dun really noe the time, i am just guessing) to bake bak kwa....
In fact, i didn't wake up, because I couldn't sleep in the first place,
while i just lie on my bed thinking a about a lot of things....

Then I decided that I am going to eat Bak kwa.
I open the fridge and took out the Bak kwa that i kept in Ziploc bag...
2 pieces of them.
Took out one and tear it into half....not in equally half uncontrollably....
I stare at the 2 halves for more than 5 second and think very hard....
Deciding which piece i should put in the oven...
I decided to be generous with myself tonight and choose the bigger half...

So now..here I am waiting.
For me bak kwa to heat up and while waiting, I though I should write down this crazy act while waiting....

I suspect I must be crazy right now...or maybe i am just hungry.
But no. i am not.

Not hungry I am sure, but not sure if i am crazy.....

120704
I think is 3am but is actually 4am then.

Monday, July 12, 2004

I dun drink coffee...but oh i love tea...

i dun drink coffee...
but ohh i love tea...
The pale pale aroma...
and the bitterness within...

I love my tea with sugar...
and no milk please....
Just a little sugar....
Makes it bitter and yet a little sweet...

Just like my love when i was seventeen...
Just like tea with sugar added in...
a little bitter..
and yet a little sweet....

I dun drink coffee...
But ...ohh i Love tea..
with a little sugar...
Feel so bitter but a little sweetness within....

120704
4.41pm


It accumulates

When i sit on my bed and start to trim off split ends from my hair ...
I know i bored.....
I know i bored....
This kind of boredom may seem harmless ....
but they accumulates...

Please go away....
I hate to beg but no no...
Dun wanna stay this way.....

When i stare out my windows to wait ....
wait for the sun to rise and then it goes away...
Day by day...
This kind of boredom may seem harmless....
But they accumulates.....

Please go away...
oh...please please go away
I hate to beg but NO NO
Dun wanna stay this way...

One day I sit on my bed.....
stare at the ceiling and feeling dead...
as minutes past by I tell myself...
This kind of boredom may seems harmless
but they kills when they accumulates....

Please go away...
Oh...before it accumulates...
I hate to beg...but no no no no no...
Dun...wanna ...stay this way.....

120704
4.28pm


Thursday, January 01, 2004

DASHBOARD!

Yes. They dashed.
That is why they are called the DASHBOARD.

Yet another amazing features of MAC to help you organise you work station.
It allows you to place miscellaneous on the dashboard for quick access without opening the application itself, such as posting stickies, check dictionary and google online, check time and schedule ONTO a semi transparent layer work station, which you can call up in the middle of your work process and push away easily when done.

Go try it!

LOVE DA DOCK!

The DOCK is the number one thing apart from the appearance of you Mac that will drool you the moment you lay your hands on your newly activated MAC.

Why?

Because it is pretty, neat and COOL!
Not forgetting to mention, bouncy and animated.
Most importantly, it is helps you to keep your work station ORGANISED!

The dock of a MAC is something like the taskbar of a window PC.
Yet, it is also like an tray at the bottom of your desktop to organise your applications and folders.

Instead of putting shortcuts on the desktop...
you park applications and files that you frequently use at the DOCK so that you don't have to search for it at the FINDER.

Search things as you scroll over the icons ...bouncing as you scroll pass....

The visual thrill of it is enough to put a smile on your face everytime you work on it.

What can be more precious then enjoying the process space while you work.

I can only say...Whoever design the DOCK...

APPLE OWES YOU.