Poor Artist...

The word "poor" is somehow always used to describe artist...
If not..."struggling" is equally popular.

WHY?

I was once again being reminded why today.

I went into an art shop to grab some materials today...

And the bill is $130.

While i try so DAMN hard to scrimp here and there to save a few cents and dollars in my everyday life...here I am...in 2 hours...spend over a hundred.

And the breakdown...

$32 for a canvas---> equals to approx. 6 days meals
$5 per acrylic tube x 10 tube ---> 10 days meals
$5 per 1kg clay x 6 pack ----> 6 days meals
$20 acrylic gel medium ----> 4 days meals

Equals to 26 days meals.

Meanwhile...I still have a whole chunk of material list....I guess I will have to spend another hundred over dollars before i am done...

I hope my investment is worthwhile...at least win a prize or two for my competition.
To convince me that all my effort is not a waste of time.

The Plan.

The Plan...is my plan.

The deadline is 35 years old.

I will finish my MFA by then.

HAve my own home...and had set up or start to set up my studio and is an active artist.

Able to support myself and my family financially with an art related job hopefully.

MArry myself off...to someone I love and love me.

hmm...I am dreaming again...

And the winning number is....

5...24....29...40...41...43......

special number....26

Most importantly....

I DID NOT win...

Time to wake up...and move on with reality.

Life is back to normal...