I just don't know what to do with myself...

I think I am confused.
First of all...I am not so sure now if he really has a gf...
or maybe he did have one...

But...he never mention to me about the existence of a "her" at all...
all the while.

I presume...or maybe I hope...
I have made a mistake.
But...I have been thinking...
regardless...
he is leaving...
I am leaving...
nothing can happen...
how sad.

Just cherish the moment....
and remember...

That is all I can do...really.
Really.
I just don't know what to do with myself now...

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The sun...

Makes you feels lazy...and want to do nothing...
indeed...but the rain has the same effect...
In fact...everything...and anything makes me feel lazy nowadays...
Lazy...

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It doesn't matter anymore...

Yesterday...

we went to the westend accidentally together....
and he brought me to a tea house...
and we had tea...
and we chat...
and we stayed until the place closes...
and we went to have supper...
in the restaurant i used to worked in...
stayed until 2am...

woke up this morning...go to school...
realise that he din wake up again...and called hm...
meet him in school...
go to have tea in another teahouse...
and had lunch...
stay around the school all day doing nothing...
sitting under the sun...

I thought...
even if he do have a girlfriend...
I really dun care now...
if we are friends...
we are friends...
it doesn't matter if he has a girlfriend.

it doesn't matter anymore.

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he has got a girlfriend...

I am totally heartbroken to realise that...he might have a girlfriend...
That was a few days ago...

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