Mood...

Yesterday was hectic....and I would rate yesterday as...
Mood : 6

Today...only 4.8...
i was fine while shopping and weeding the garden...
a bit of mood swing...
and cried while writing my postcard and blog...
overall is 4.8

My table!

Finally, I am entitled to my very own space at home...

This little white top table is SO IDEAL that I could help but keep telling evrybody in the family that THAT IS MY TABLE!...

Tomolo...I am going to bring all my stuff downstairs and start working...

and start to take pictures...

Really look forward to my new space....

To you...

I was writing a postcard for you today while...
I was at the backseat of my father's car...
Halfway through writing... i just cry...
I am quite angry with myself that
I cannot just get over you and move on...

I really did try...and is still trying very hard now...
everyday...I try to do something...make myself busy...
give myself task...
make plans...
But when it comes to writing you a postcard...
I cannot lie to myself...

Yesterday...I dreamt of you...
I found you with another girl..
and you became very mean to me...
I was really sad in my dream....
of course...that is only a dream...silly dream...

we still chat online ocassionally for a while...
I was happy enough


At least...you will remember me as a friend at some point in your life...
that you accidentally spend a few weeks of your life with..and have some happy memories...

Only happy memories....you always says..."only keep the good bits in life"

I dun think i can do it...but I respect your choice...
That is why i never will let you know this blogsite...
Despite the fact that you did know the existence of my blog...
and ask for the address...I always jokingly rejected your request...

I dun want you to know I am such a weakling,
I know you dun like it...
Dun want you to know that I did not
manage to only keep the good bits...

Sorry dear...I have tried...
I really can't do it...


With all the love that I intended to bury in my heart
with all my might...

Yun.