Happy...really happy

I am really happy nowadays...becos i a finally doing something That i should be doing.....as an art student...to go to school and make art...and yes...I am happy with this fact now. And I am also happy becos I now have a nice classmate who went shopping with me last monday...finally...I have a classmate fren....becos I used to be so busy working that i dun noe most of my classmates names....and also...i am happy today...becos another classmate play a joke on me in the libray this morning....It only means...I am finally existing in this school properly....a carefree happy student.... And this is sooo not easy for me since i arrive..and only can enjoy this simple bliss when i am finaly graduating...which is quite a pity...nevertheless...i am really happy

So happy...very happy....Absolutely....magically happy!

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The danger and excitment of a fickled-minded person

Yes...I have finally realised that I am a fickled mined person....or i knew it all along but didn't really acknowlege the fact. Yes...and the reason is becos....it is always hard for me to made up my mind easily. I remember a few years ago...I was in this sand sculpting competition...and i have about 5 days to complete my project of a 5 metres high sand sculpture..together with my group of volunteer helpers....for the first 3 days....I manage to complete only one third of the whole thing...not becos i am slow...but becos i keep changing my mind....until the very last day.....i give a long half an hour break for everybody and sit under a coconut tree and think....and think....forcing myself to make the final decsion....and then....half an hour later....mind is set with a dratft in my hand.....and it only take the whole team to finish the rest of the half of the sculpture in less than 3 hours. That is the excitement. and i love it. Now...left with 37 days before my graduation deadline....I am face with the same struggle again. should i do this?...or that?...or maybe this with that?...or only that with this...and wat???....ahh...it is always hard...not the production but simply deciding....so far...as long as i have decided to do something....it shall be done...and the only problem is always...not been able to decide it....If only i can make a decision.....things can be done a lot faster definitely....but i know it is not possible..becos...the real reason is...I really enjoy all the excitement of doing all the things last minute and JUST IN TIME! And most importantly....becos it is last minute...i am not given the time to even hesitate and regret...hence...I simpy love it. And One last thing...even if i do start early and make up my mind early...I probably will change it last minute...that is how fickled-minded i can be...so not worth making up my mind too early...really.

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