23rd june 2005

today...it is now today...i am going to meet him later in the library...
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22nd june 2005

It was yesterday..
It was a boring day...things seems to be back to normal...
Normal in the sense...
Left with he and i again.
I am beginning to suspect Bill is correct.
Maybe it will take a longer time to get over him...
But it will take forever to forget this person.

It was a boring day as usual...
and i went to his studio...
he was there...as usual...and we just did nothing...hanging around together...
He asked me to come in his studio...
and he showed me a chocolate muffin...
like always...most peole will forget that i dun like chocolate...and he forgets despite the fact that i have told him more than twice...
but we share it...becos i am really hungry...

while we are looking at the picture he took yesterday...
it was disasterous...becos most of the pictures are blur...
his hands were shaking...becos he was drunk yesterday...
But there was a picture of me...looking at him...
That was a picture I knew he was taking a picture of me...

We went to the library together later in the day...and sit around his studio when the lubrary closes...
we are sitting in the space...I was busy playing my rubiks cube...while he pick up my hair....(my hair is very long and they are in plaits yesterday)..he was looking...one of the plaits were lose and he start to plait them for me...while i am solving my rubiks cube...
then i look at him...at the corner of my eye...he seems to be enjoying what he is doing...

The day past...and time to go home...
He went to my space and I showed him the poster of my korean idol...
then...we walked past the glasgow film theatre where there is another poster of my korean idol again...
i told him...that is the kind of guy i like...

we parted...and he cycle off to meet his parents for dinner...
I went home...

I did not miss him after that when i reach home
...becos i have enough of him for the day already.

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21st june 2005

The SEA departmental party in Partick hill bowling club...
I went to the party with Danny, David and Alec...we went to buy prawn crackers...
and sausages...
He was not around for the whole day becos he went to edinburgh with his parents...
His gf went back to london this afternoon...
I was in school walking around...

I made a few new friends yesterday..mathew from photography...who is quite a cute guy..and we kept seeing each other at the basement becos his studio is just next to me...
tris another guy fom photography...whose studio is across my studio...and i always when to his studio to steal teacakes which is suppose to be for his audience...he caught me a few times...
And another guy...who is a gradute lats year and i dun noe his name...he is a part time janitor for the degree show...and he spent quite some time in my space that afternoon...and he ask me if i really hate glasgow so much...haha...then we had a nice chat at the staircase for a while...and later outside my studo...and we talk about our work...

So...i am beginning to notice other people in my world...

and..the world is still beautiful...

meanwhile...back to the story about the party...it was a nice and friendly party..becos for me...at least this is a party where i know everybody....and i am still enjoying myself chatting with a classmate...
he was not around for the whole day...but it was fine..
then after like 2 hours later...i had a missed call...
it was him...he was back from edinburgh...
and i told him the location of the party and he found his way here...
i was still happy to see him...
definitely...
but not becos i have got anymore fantasy about him...
but we have become such good friends...
he gave me a wink...from another crowd where he is "socialising'
while i chat with lindsey...
then at some point...
he ask me to go over to his side...and we talk a bit...
he took some pictures of me making funny faces...and we took some picture together...
making funny faces...
then he took pictures of me with other friends...

I tried a sip of white wine from his glass...and we share a sausage...
I am not sure if that is too intimate for friends to do that...
but i think...we are just so "friend" that we dun really mind this kind of things...
not a boy-girl relationship...but a buddy one.
I realise...I no longer feel akward...
becos I am not hoping anything to happen anymore...
I just want to enjoy a pure reliance for each other...
Just that kind of friendship between he and me.

He was quite drunk at the end of the day...
and Danny my classmate was acting funny after a few pints...
Then something really amusing and flattered...
(Danny, a classmate of mine...who came to me a few times and told me I look lovely in my dress during the degree show..)
We were sitting inside the bowling club...
He was sitting beside me...and we are talking...
Danny was sitting right opposite him...
suddenly...danny was looking at him...with a stern look...
and told him...this is between the two of them....
the two man shake hands...among his slurring...i heard my name...
something like...it is about me...
then i felt a bit embarass...and told the rest of the people sitting around the table
"I dun noe these two guys'
Then...i gave him a pat on his back...and he gave Danny a cigarette...
so...it was resolved...but i still dun noe what they had just resolved..
something regarding me...

soon...it was 12am..
The party stopped...
and everybody pack up...

"Shall we go" he said...
and we are the first to go...
Two of us...we walked out...and head for his bicycle...
i asked him if he is sober enough to ride his bicycle...
he said...he will walk with me for a while...
so we walked together...

It was chilly...
it drizzled suddenly...
We both curse the glasgow weather at the same time...
but i enjoy this moment.
we walked past kelvingrove museum...and he took a couple of picture of it with the red sky...
he took a picture of me...holding his bicycle...

We walked past a slug...and i told him about the story of me killing a snail accidentalyy when i was a kid...and i told him... i suspect will become a snail in my next life...
he said...he will remember that and the next time he sees a snail...he will noe it is me...
we are at a Y junction...but both way will reach my home...
he said...we shall walked past the most beautiful road of glasgow...becos we dun have anymore time together in the future (becos he is going back to greece soon...)

It was a nice walk...
all the walk with him is always nice...

Then..i was near my flat...it was actually also somewhere he used to lived in last year...but we never met in the past...although we almost stay in the same street...mine was at a corner...his was on the main street...he told me about the story where he was being fine by the police for throwing his trash on the wrong day...i told him...i always put my trash in the lane...we had a good luagh...
and i told him to ride carefully home...becos i know he is drunk...
I ask if he is still sober...
he said he knows what he is doing...

Then he ride away...

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