Tuesday, November 16, 2004

The saddest...

I just check my online stats...to show that I only have 9 views...to my blog today...and that nine views...were done by only ONE unique vistors...who is..actually...MYSELF!...becos I have posted 9 posting...and each time I post...I view my blog...what an irony...that all this time...I am the only person reading and writing my own blog...maybe I should just go back to my pen and paper and write my good old papered..diary.....maybe...

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Analytical review of the Power struggle

I can feel the POWER STRUGGLE in the restaurant....since this Monday...everybody want to be somebody...and me...still me. It’s like I can feel thr rush...like I previously mentioned...but this rush has become nasty...at first...it was just the flow of nature...then it proceed to become the evil forces of power and strength...altogether..they are 5 full time staff on the floor now. Ah Lan, Ah Qing, Ah Yan, Ah May and Xiao Mei....names according to their status... me the part-time staff who ironically is the IN-Charge when the boss is not around.

My job, is to stand at the front line to whoever comes in the restaurant and bring them or allocates sittings....take drink orders....be responsible of all money transaction at the cashier. To be the bartender occasionally, clear plates, fold napkins....Plus doing PR with customers dealing with customers complains and request...taking phone calls for reservations and make stock orders for the chef....

Ah Lan being the longest staying staff after me is made the next potential successor of being the IN-CHARGE in the restaurant...however, that will not be possible becos she dun speak English and cannot communicate well with customers...however...she is smart and willing to learn and hardworking...and the boss like her...she is now in charge of the bar and all the stock ordering for drinks....and she will look out also for the girls in charge of the buffet food...as she is previously in charge of that....if Ah Lan can speak English well....she would be the best person to be the restaurant manager...even better than me....

Ah Qing, very capable as well in terms of running the floor as servers and plate-clearing is able to run the floor without problem taking drinks order and allocate seats( which Ah Lan is also capable of)....often can clear an average of more than 10 plates per round....is as willing to learn as Ah Lan though not as smart...she is hardworking as well...unfortunately like Ah LAn...Ah Qing dun speak English....and she is not as familiar with the bar...but learning to work the tile....

Ah Yan...very sweet girl...hardworking as well and very helpful....also equally eager to learn like the rest of the girls...however she is in charge of the buffet station and sometimes the floor to help clear plate and take drink orders....so not speak English like the rest of the girls....

Ah May...the black horse. That might change the whole situation in the restaurant...becos she speak a little English , from Malaysia. Although she is a new comer and her main job are all side jobs such as polishing cutleries and fold napkins and refill salt and pepper...and also to help take drinks clear plates...becos she is new...she is suppose to know how to do everything before she cam learn other staff...but she skip the part where she have to undergo bar training and she is doing some of the tile....becos she speaks English. And that is HER ASSET!...so in the end...she might be the best candidates in the boss eye to be the NEXT successor of being the manager after Nicole and Daisy left...as for me...the part time...I AM FOREVER ONLY A PART-TIME...so whoever can be in charge is a good news to me...and I can do less things....

Xiao mei, who used to be kitchen staff...doing the dishes is PROMOTED to be incharge of the buffet.....with Ah Yan and mentor..Ah Lan and Ah Qing used to run the buffet but now get promoted to run the floor....

And so...everybody seem to be in the right place at a glance but with the empty post of “person-in-charge” still empty....all the position become sensitive and atmosphere changing......

The only thing that is still constant...is ME.

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( Just a few days after this blog was writen...I was told that Xiao-mei resign and left...sigh...I am not surprise.)

Over-prescribe?

A few weeks ago...i went for an eye test...my optician told me my spec was over-prescribe. And so...I have been looking with an over-prescibe lenses...which means I have been looking more clearly?...or seeing things clearer than I should?....lol...my optician say..it is forcing my eye to work harder....then it should..straining it....in actual fact, I believe there is only one point where it was the clearest...and any other points will be blur...But why is my over-prescribe lens VERY Clear to me...my optician’s reply was becos ...my eye had get used to the over-prescribe condition....which means...my eyesight has become well adapt and worse becos of my over-prescribe spec...and how would he know?.. .if my eye-sight has become worse..that would mean my spec is just right for me and would not be over-prescribe....ahh...all too confusing....but one definitely conclusion from him...is to get a new spec...whahaha.....must be one of his marketing skill to make people make new specs...but I would say...his eye test is really professional....according to him...he needs to get a degree to be a professional optician.....ok...ok...I get that....and I feel it myself...I need a new spec...which I cannot afford...so forget it...I shall live with my over-prescribe spec as long as my eye can take it.


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Shut up!...and go write your essay...!

10 days to deadlines...which I actually have less than 10 days...becos out of that 10 days...I had to go to school...go to work...attend a seminar in edinburgh and start to be a tour guide from the 20th onwards...which means...I have 6 or less day...or...5 days...or 4 days...or 3....or...NONE!.....WHAT THE F**K!..I am scaring myself....shut up and go back to the essay...you a**hole!

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(Notice that all my blogs are written on the 141104...which means I am writing so much of something...but not what I am supposed to be writing...)

XX vs XY

Suddenly...i feel puzzled...by the obsession of women making themselves pretty. The roles change totally...between a male and female....while you thought dolling ourselves up is a female instinct...that is not the case for the animal kingdom...who are suppose to be more primitive than us...in another words....dressing up...should be a male instinct rather than a female. Look at David Beckham....the perfect male species with the right instinct. And what’s wrong with women?....do we have to dress ourselves up to attract males in the first place. I thought they are suppose to be attractive to attract our attention so that we will choose them as father of our child... Or rather...they should be attractive enough for us to choose them, to be exact their sperms for our eggs.....that is how nature function isn’t it? Look at the rooster and hen....Roosters had to do a lot of work to make themselves attractive apart from the crown on their heads...they had to be the ones to wake up before everybody....Look at the peacocks.....spread their tails and seduce the ladies....and so on and on.......
In genetic term....sorry to embarrass myself if my facts are not accurates....but according to what I know....the genes of a female is XX and male is XY...in another words to a simpler understanding....a female is double female...and a male is half female and half male......and on top of this bad news to all the males out there.... genetically YY is impossible...hence there is no such things as PURE MALE....which means...a women is PURE WOMEN...and MEN are impure women with Y deficiency......sorry guys out there if this spoils your mood...BUT IT IS A FACT!...before I stray away and lost my initial point of my amusement about why women are obsess about dolling themselves up becos it is not required in nature sense for us to do so....it is perfectly normal to occasionally dress up to assure ourselves of our own beings....just to make ourselves happy....and not for the guys benefit.....and for me... I hate to dress up.....I am too lazy....although I occasionally did.


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Deadlines...

I have a feeling I am going to be very happy by 24th Nov....that is the day where one of my biggest agony so far comes to an end....the deadline of my essay...good or bad...i have to hand in.

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LoVe-HaTe...RelAtiOnSHiP

There is always this love-heat relationship between me and winter. Although our relationship only started last year. Hate it for the simple reason of making me feeling cold. Feeling cold which associate with the fact that I am not well protected?...from the cold?....makes people feel lethargic and lazy...makes people hungry ...slows down everything......Love it....for the very same reason....and on top of it...it gives me the biggest excuse to eat as much as I like...and not feeling guilty...as I will tell myself...it is ok...becos I am feeling cold and my body need me to eat more so that it can burn more fats to keep myself warm...how can I not love winter for this very reason...even if that is the only reason which is not.

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Eat eat eat...

I have been fueling myself with food for the whole day...but it never seems to be enough...my body must be working very hard now....becos it is burning a lot of fat to keep myself warm...no wonder I keep feeling very tired.


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Deep in thoughts...of thinking

As usual, in the mids of urgent rush and deadlines...I write more junks than the actual essay....junks such as this. ...at 3.24am. This is not unusual...as I like to be distracted by my own thoughts. I like the idea that thoughts take over my rational. I like the way I think suddenly when I am suppose to be in deep concentration. This is me. Confusing...

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A book review...

Reading Sadie Plant’s Zero+Ones...I would say...I feel proud to be a women. This posting is intented to be a book review by the way. For ladies...please go and read this book...for ladies who are technophobic....please go and read this book...for ladies who are technogeek...please go and read this book...for ladies who hate computers...please go and read this book......as for the men...which I almost forget....PLEASE also go and read this book...to realise what is really going on.....And we women are THE ONES!.... bottom line......PLEASE GO AND READ IT!

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Yet another weather report...

It is strange that weather can change in a matter of seconds. But it is not suppose to be strange if it happens in Glagsow.

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Cold Toes...

My toes are feeling cold at this very instant....3.30am...14th Nov...2004...and by the way, my fingers too.



Me...A cyborg?

I was amused by myself just now while I was testing my typing skill...i suspect I can type my words without looking at the key board...or maybe not...but I can type without looking at half of my keyboard....and imagine the position of some letters without actually seeing it. This is what I call the fusion of mechanical tools with human intelligent...or maybe not so much of intelligence but adaptability. While I am getting used to this way of expressing....I need to further fuse the position of the letters in my visual memory like I know where I keep all my vocab in my brian ....although my typing speed is nothing to be proud of compare to many...but is already something proud enuff...compare to myself one year ago. Last year, I remember I can only type with 2 fingers one at a time....now...with both hands...ten fingers...this is what Donna Haraway meant by...being a cyborg. I can feel myself cybrogizing with my new ability to hypertexting my thoughts and express them in letters.... As if I am NEO...in Matrix...I am beginning to see it....the zeros and ones...the binaries among the flesh and skin. Suddenly it all become scary....


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Green Tea overdose

I have never heard of Green tea-overdose...but here I am...feeding myself cups and cups of green tea to let myself stay awake. It was suppose to be one of my secret weapons to stay awake at night to do overnight work....but nowadays...I am losing my grip...and I am suffering from green tea overdose symdrome of feeling sleepy despite after drinking many cups of it...but whenever I have decided to go to sleep and wave my white flag ...I cant sleep...what is this?....is this some kind of joke....what is preventing me from working?...I know what...It got to do with the deadline...it was still one week away...not close enough to drive me crazy....but that is not the point....I dun want to do it sooo rush that I dun have time to make admendment...I want it to be done before the deadline...and make changes....! I hate this...but I just have to live with it....this is me...

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