Love not in the way I love...
This is my dilemma recently.
My nanny is my second mum.
But we have heaven and earth kind of living habits, as in...very different lifestyle.
What I ask for now is just A PRIVATE SPACE, which is my room.
Yet, even if I lock up my room, my nanny will open my room with HER KEY.
EVen if I was only lying on the bed day dreaming, I really hope this moment is solely private.
I told her, there is a reason why I lock my door, it means I do not want to be interrupted.
I hope she understand. So far, she do not.
It pissed me off, even when I know she loved me and meant well when she open my door.
Mostly because it is time to eat dinner. And that will be another issue. I am NOT HUNGRY YET.
Ok...I sound like a spoilt child who doesn't know how to aprreciated the blissful life I am in....
Most of my friend envies my serviced apartment kind of lifestyle living with my nanny with laundries done, cleaning up and meals prepared occassionally...
But honestly, I miss my slump life in Glasgow, messy, hungry at times, BUT WITH ABSOLUTE FREEDOM.
My nanny loves me, and I love my nanny too...
And well...
That is the dilemma.
Thursday, July 05, 2007
What I want...
Not many friends of mine would ask me in the face...
"WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT IN LIFE?"
But there are at least 2.
This is a question I start to ask myself since I was 17 years old.
Exactly 10 years ago, I start to ask myself what I want in life...
On and off, I though I found somthing...vaguely...
And while searchin for the answer, I learn more about what I want...
Like trial and error, I did some, hate some, love some....
And now, I still do not really know what I WANT EXActly.
But...I did draw some conclusion as to what I want in a fragmented way...
I want a space of my own which is my HOME.
I want to MAKE THINGS.
I want to share my musing in LIFE...in words and art.
I want to travel and see the world and share what I see.
I want to love and be loved.
And finally hope that i can do all the above mentioned as a way to EARN A LIVING.
Yah...that's about it...at the moment...that is all.
"WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT IN LIFE?"
But there are at least 2.
This is a question I start to ask myself since I was 17 years old.
Exactly 10 years ago, I start to ask myself what I want in life...
On and off, I though I found somthing...vaguely...
And while searchin for the answer, I learn more about what I want...
Like trial and error, I did some, hate some, love some....
And now, I still do not really know what I WANT EXActly.
But...I did draw some conclusion as to what I want in a fragmented way...
I want a space of my own which is my HOME.
I want to MAKE THINGS.
I want to share my musing in LIFE...in words and art.
I want to travel and see the world and share what I see.
I want to love and be loved.
And finally hope that i can do all the above mentioned as a way to EARN A LIVING.
Yah...that's about it...at the moment...that is all.
Things I learn this week...
1. Bus 111 is a loop service and will pass by the whole stretch of Tanglin Road. (Thanks to my student SB...she moves to a new apartment and i need to find my way there)
2. One end of Tanglin Road leads to Queenstown...the other end is orchard road.
3. Bus 111 will also stop by Marina Square.
4. Hugh Grant actually can sing. (YH is the one who told me about this and ask N to play the song for me)
5. The term "entropy", " is the measurement of the disorder or randomness of a system ."
Such an interesting term....makes me wonder.... (Introduce to me by KY during an interesting conversation one fine afternoon)
6. According to Moore's Law, it takes about every 18 months for the computer to become 2 times faster by halving the size of wire and logic gates from which they are constructed. Every time the size of the components of a computer goes down by a factor of two, twice as many will fit the same size chip.
7. How to count in binary. ( From the book I am currently read, "Programming the Universe"
8. The idea of "ZERO" , "0" means " empty thing"....a powerful abstract idea of nothingness yet so concretely exist. ( From the same book.)
9. Four ways to go up Fort Canning Hill. 1, From behind Substation. 2, From Park Mall near Douby Ghuat MRT. 3, Beside MICA building. 4, From Clark Quay.
10. There is a Kinokuniya in Liang Court. And Meidiya which sells Jap stuffs in Liang court is interesting. You can walk tO Liang Court from Clark Quay. And to ZOuk from Clark Quay.
2. One end of Tanglin Road leads to Queenstown...the other end is orchard road.
3. Bus 111 will also stop by Marina Square.
4. Hugh Grant actually can sing. (YH is the one who told me about this and ask N to play the song for me)
5. The term "entropy", " is the measurement of the disorder or randomness of a system ."
Such an interesting term....makes me wonder.... (Introduce to me by KY during an interesting conversation one fine afternoon)
6. According to Moore's Law, it takes about every 18 months for the computer to become 2 times faster by halving the size of wire and logic gates from which they are constructed. Every time the size of the components of a computer goes down by a factor of two, twice as many will fit the same size chip.
7. How to count in binary. ( From the book I am currently read, "Programming the Universe"
8. The idea of "ZERO" , "0" means " empty thing"....a powerful abstract idea of nothingness yet so concretely exist. ( From the same book.)
9. Four ways to go up Fort Canning Hill. 1, From behind Substation. 2, From Park Mall near Douby Ghuat MRT. 3, Beside MICA building. 4, From Clark Quay.
10. There is a Kinokuniya in Liang Court. And Meidiya which sells Jap stuffs in Liang court is interesting. You can walk tO Liang Court from Clark Quay. And to ZOuk from Clark Quay.
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