Weeping Willow...

I am in tears again....this time while chatting with my brothers.....knowing the condition of my family is getting from bad to worse only means I have to work harder. But somehow...I realise when times are too good...I am rather unproductive in my artwork...maybe the bad times is a good thing....which also means I might go home sooner than expected....becos i dun want to travel with the money any more how can I when my whole family is in such heavy debts....good and bad...Hopefully....someone will buy our house and solve everything!
But that would mean....I will have no "home" to go back to by the time I graduate....they are going to live in Thailand after selling the house...with my brother in ChiengMai...
what am I supose to wish for now....to strike the lottery?

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Aging...

I feel old lately...flabby arms....sagging thigh muscles...wrinkling face...droopy breast ....everything seems old in me....weakening heart...what an old lady.