To die a broken heart...

Yes...I am broken hearted.
And the worst thing is...I cannt bring myself blame him or hate him...because I can understand why...
There are too many obstacle...too many questions all along as to how this can continue...
maybe i should thank him.....that it is over now...and I am set free again....into the open water...as a fish....
However...i cannot see him again...
i suspect I will just cry and cry...even by starting to think about how i should even reply his email...
Hence i cannot see him anymore...
Though he did say that he hope to see me again...and we can still be friends....
I guess it is no harm still having a friend....but i just cannot see him anymore...
Not that I am angry or cannot forgive him.
Just that It is too painful....
We can still be friends...but things will never be the same again...
will never be like what our friendship had started to be...
and at this moment at least...
I think I just need to run away from him...and never speak to him again...
until I can get over him...
which will probably take a long long long time.....

Now...i am just broken hearted.
Now...I just want to cry and cry...until I am too tired...and fall asleep.

Hopefully the next morning...the sun will shine again...but ohh...I love the rain...
what a mix feeling...

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