Think of him...

I think of him again this morning....
That was when I told Yahui about him...

It was indeed sweet...
Bitter sweet...
And I smiled...

It is not tha bad when I only think of the happy times...

Something Missing...

I went back to read my life during my saddest....between 24th september till 12th October roughly....and realise I did not blog at all...

Not a bad thing...

Life...goes on...

Yes...I am still sad...
I know it is silly...but the sadness never left me...just that I am learning to get used to the pain....and cry lesser each day....

but I am glad that the frequency of sadness is falling as days went by....
at first...I was sooo sad...that i had to run to the toilet to cry every hour...while I was in the office working in the bank....
Then...slowly...it becomes everynight...while I walked home from work from the restaurant...in the cold...
time passes...it becomes once every two /three days....under my blanket in the middle of the night...
then a big cry once a week.....becomes...once every 2 weeks...
Everytime i cry...I told myself I will be ok and that it will be the last time i cry...but it was never the last...

Now...three and a half month passed....
I know I am so much stronger now...
Yet...
occassionally...
I will still cry when i am suddenly reminded of him...

like now...

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