I will always try to analyse myself from data figures I produce.
Such as..does the rate of blogging reflects my mood?
Or rate of blogging AFFECT my Mood....
The more accessible I am to blog...the more happy?
or the more blog I have means I am happy at that time...?
Blah blah....
And so far...from the below figures...2005 is my happiest days...
which is correct.
2006 is my worst life...
which is correct too.
That is becos...I was in love in 2005...and had more internet access.
2006 is the time of my life when I am down with serious depression...no mood to blog.
2007 is while i am recovering from depression with limited internet access...
and This year....is my happy and carefree year...and this week...
I had the time of my life to have full internet access!
Which explain my explosive entry figures.....
This year...I suspect I might break my yearly blog figure...but...
It only means I have more internet access, better mood and better computer to blog.
Unfortunately NOT becos I am in love.
And so...it means...I am a happier person when I am expressing.
Which explain why I want to be an artist.
I have to be
...in order to be happy.
Friday, October 03, 2008
At the corner of his eye...
He was playing his toy car as the plane took off...
While I am amused by how self entertained he was...
So i secretly aim my camera at him...
And he caught me....
At the corner of his eye...
To many things too little time...
Too many things I want to do ever since my new laptop arrived.
My timezone is completely messed up now..as i sleep when the sun rises...
and wake up when it sets.
I am so geared up to work in the night and enjoy the absolute peace of mind in the middle of the night.
I would work and work or even to watch videos...until i am so tired...and go to sleep.
Then I will sleep and sleep until I had enough.
It may seem that i am really slacking away my life...BUT NO.
I AM BUSY.
I am BUSY living my life.
And adjusting to a work mode which i can practice my art.
And I hate it when people think i am FREE just becos I am not doing my part time.
Nobody register the fact that when i am NOT working for my paid part time...
I AM AN UNPAID FULL TIME ARTIST.
After living my life as a normal person and slacking...
I will also give time to my art.
Out of the 16 hours when I am awake...At least 8 hours is given to my art practice.
Trying to get used to my work station on my MAC...
And also improving myself with new skills online.
Reading to widen my knowledge and also search for new inspiration.
Etc...
And so...even though I may not appear to be efficient.
I am trying very hard to.
If you can see.
Why am I sitting here blogging...because this is the cheapest way to express NOW.
That is the least thing I can do now to keep my art going.
If you haven't realise that.
But I am realy lucky already.
Because I can still afford to CHOOSE.
There will be a time when I will NO LONGER HAVE A CHOICE..
Until then...I shall enjoy my life NOW.
Wish me luck.
My timezone is completely messed up now..as i sleep when the sun rises...
and wake up when it sets.
I am so geared up to work in the night and enjoy the absolute peace of mind in the middle of the night.
I would work and work or even to watch videos...until i am so tired...and go to sleep.
Then I will sleep and sleep until I had enough.
It may seem that i am really slacking away my life...BUT NO.
I AM BUSY.
I am BUSY living my life.
And adjusting to a work mode which i can practice my art.
And I hate it when people think i am FREE just becos I am not doing my part time.
Nobody register the fact that when i am NOT working for my paid part time...
I AM AN UNPAID FULL TIME ARTIST.
After living my life as a normal person and slacking...
I will also give time to my art.
Out of the 16 hours when I am awake...At least 8 hours is given to my art practice.
Trying to get used to my work station on my MAC...
And also improving myself with new skills online.
Reading to widen my knowledge and also search for new inspiration.
Etc...
And so...even though I may not appear to be efficient.
I am trying very hard to.
If you can see.
Why am I sitting here blogging...because this is the cheapest way to express NOW.
That is the least thing I can do now to keep my art going.
If you haven't realise that.
But I am realy lucky already.
Because I can still afford to CHOOSE.
There will be a time when I will NO LONGER HAVE A CHOICE..
Until then...I shall enjoy my life NOW.
Wish me luck.
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