The truth...

Ah...i have doubts occassionally if I am a lesbian or not...although I am sure i like man...but this girl in my school always attracts my attention....she has very long hair...very very long...like me...and likes to wear checkered shirt like me...and wears dirty old jackets...like me....bun up her hair with a chopstick....like me.....and while I was suspecting my sexual preference...I realise it is not a girl-like-girl situation anymore....It is a plain..."I think I love myself too much" case...becos...she looks likes me...not the face of cos...but the dress sense...and hair....so...the only person i am in love with....is actually myself. This is so unhealthy.


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Decided....or maybe not.

Yes...I have made up my mind...for my final project..and the only problem left is whether it works...I hope it does...I really dun noe...and well I tot I may have decided about things...I always change my mind...and watever...i am just fickled minded...yah...that's it...what am i talking about....I clearly have not made up my mind..STUPID!

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Lazy morning..

Yeah...yesterday was a gloomy day....wet and gloomy...I woke up at at 7.45am before my alarm which will strike at 8am...and reset my alarm befores it starts to annoy me...i reset it to 8.15am...I tot..I really dun have to wake up that early since there is no lessons...anyway..yah..I went back to sleep....8.15am....I wake up again...to switch off that bastard...walk to the oven and preheat it...so that i can toast my bread....so..while it needs time to heat up...I go back to sleep...8.40am...I wake up again and my oven should be ready...i throw the bread in...close the oven door...and go back to sleep...8.42am...tot i smell the bread...ah...must be ready....I force myself to wake up , swtich on the TV.... boil water to make some tea.....check my toast...ok..can be better in a few seconds time...quickly brush my teeth...open the oven door...take out the bread...take out pate from the fridge....spread it...and eat it....one piece...two piece...drink some tea....three piece...four piece....open the oven door...let the heat out to enjoy some warmth....as it is cold....sitting near the window...then...switch off the oven....sweep the bread crumps away from my t-shirt.....stand up..look at my watch...9.20am...switch off the TV and...go back to sleep....10 am...wake up....look at the clock on my mobile...and go back to sleep....wake up again...look at window from my bed...and go back to sleep....wake up...and go back to sleep.....11.30am....Woke up...and finally decided that if i dun wake up and go to school by 12.30am...I will not be able to make it for my lecture....i woke up...finally...jump into my jeans....wrap myself up with scarf and jacket....11.45am.....end of my morning struggle...and back to reality.


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