NOT CREATIVE!

Yes, I am NOT CREATIVE.
At all.

Because I am not...in terms of creating 2D image.

I realise that long ago.
I can't draw.
I can copy.
I can imitate.
I can observe and interpret.
But i can't draw or paint out of nothing...

I just cannot.


Luckily I am a 3D artist.
But then again...
What can I do in Singapore studying sculpture?

It is not difficult making art.

It is difficult to practice full time to make a living.
On top of the fact that I am not creative...

Plus..I am not a too ambitious person to be initiative.
Future has never been so bleak...

I NEED TO THINK.
I NEED TO WORK AROUND IT.

CREATE!

I need to create opportunity for myself to make art.
I need to create the environment.
I need to create the chance.

I need to make myself make art again.

Or else I will be a useless human being who reads, sleep and eat..and listen to music.

I love doing nothing...
But I also understand that doing nothing now...
will be disastrous for me in the near future...

I had to think ahead...

Life is precious...

And so...I remember...
Even at that moment of my life when I felt so painful...
I really almost believe pain can kill.

But never a moment...
I would want to end my own life.
Maybe I am too afraid to just die.
Maybe there are too much things that i want to do...

It is too easy to just die...
Because the dead is DEAD.
There will be no heaven or hell...
Only people who are still living...
are left to cry...