Feeling blue...

I am feeling rather blue today.
Strangely.
I am not happy at all that I have 10 days of NO-Work.
I should be doing my art.
I have been complaining about not having enough time to do my work.
Yet, when I have time I don't know how to start.
I feel lost.
Out of these 10 days...
I used one day...to finish my proposal for esplanade.
I used one whole day to sleep.
I used another day to surf net watch online videos...
and one day to feel lost.
Today is my 5th day.
I suddenly feel BLUE.
I felt horrible.
I dig out my canvas and start to prime my old canvas.
And still feel blue.

How?