Where are my references?

My tutor pressed me about my references.....and her logic is I can't be making things out of vacumm...there must be something that makes me want to do something....some souce of inspiration...what makes me make a decision for making my art work in the way i make it....there must be a reference.....er...excuse me...i dun understand. I felt like crying when i wanted to tell her...the motivation behind why i want to make such works is really becos of my realisation in my life...and i want to express it....must there be a reference for my realisation...i mean...i dun realise what other is realsing...i realise things myself....becos no one shares my life except myself.... So she gave an example that it can be literature...or music...or art...I am confused...becos i dun see and link to what i read and like...to the work i do....seriously. Th reason why i choose to use text or installation...is becos I am aware that it is a recognise form of art...and how am I aware of that...since long long ago...i read a lot of magazine and know that installation is a form of art. Do I have to reference that and say why i choose to make installation...? Then does painters have to justify why they paint? Maybe I should have inform them I used to be a ballet dancer...e-hu performer, scriptwriter, actress...painter...sculptress....poet...writer....before i tell them I choose to use installation as an expression...than do i have to explain to them...i am also a very emotional person....so..it makes me see things like how i see them...then I told her about this website that i like a lot....obviously she dun noe about the website...and so...who shall i reference....from the first person that inflence me....i cannot imagine what she will thing if i tell her...i like paul klee....and then i like Mark Rothko...then i like Eva Hesse, and Nara Yoshitomo...then I will tell her...I like www.nobodyhere.com....and books written by Jimmy, a taiwan illustrator...then i like Wong Kar wai's movie...and The French Movie Amelie.....i wonder if that helps to shape things....but i suspect they know none of them...so why am I mentioning these?...and so....I dun noe if this is even logical in the first place to state them as my reference....and maybe....everything I see makes an impression...and they turn out to be what they are like today...do I have to include my diving experiences...as well as...my travelling....i really dun noe...the reasons for why i am doing what I am doing right now...is becos I thought that is the thing I want to do ...and that is it...if i am researching into things now...trying to back myself up for what i did...then that is not what influence me....but what I thought might have influence me...after my work is done and i go reserch for a reference...then in that case....that will not be my reference in the end...if you know what i mean...some of the work...which i tot is interetsting and i find similarity...are not the works that i actually refered to when i did my work...and how can i say they are my reference when i only know about them when i finish my work.....i really dun noe what to say....I just hate to address this issue...SERIOUSLY....I HATE IT!...and I am angry.