Helplessly patriotic...

I am.

Despite the fact that I have been contemplating to leave Singapore ALL THE TIME.

I really am.

How patriotic?

I cry each time i sing those national day songs...

Singapore is my home...

But...a home I had to leave.

I love Singapore...

I really do.

Count on me, Singapore...

This is one of my favourite National day song...
Love it...
And I mean every word I sang...everytime...

I wish Singapore will be proud of me as an artist...
But I am sad..

I wonder if i can survive here as an artist.

I love Singapore...

I really do...

But staying here is so hard to make the kind of art I love...

"There is something down the road that we can strive for...
We are told no dream's too bold that we can't try for..."

"Just believe...just believe..."


I really wish.

As an artist...

As an artist...

You should always be ready to learn that...
not even the people closest to you
can understand what your artwork is all about...

You should always be ready to accept that...
you might be the only person in the world
to understand your own work...

You should always be ready to realise that...
doing art is a very lonely activity...

Only to you...that you know...what your art really mean.

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I am prepared and I am ready for all these.

But still feels sad when I learn that my best friend
cannot understand the value behind my art making...

I am prepared and I am ready.

Or maybe...I am not.

But I have to be.

I have to be.

As an artist...