Thursday, December 16, 2004


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About honesty...

It "pays" to be honest.
This happen to me today. The school registra got mix up and send me a cheque for my scholarship and on top of it deduct my fees. Which means I am double paid....While I am delighted with their mixed up...I am guilty. So, I pop by the finance dept and told them about it. They were at a lost as to realise a discrepency of £2000 which is S$6000, and dun noe how to dealt with it immediately, they ask me to come back tomoro. I regretimmediately.I shouldn't have pop by...becos from the way they are flipping thru pages and searching for records...they clearly dun noe what is going on....and even if I eventually graduate....they might probably thought I have settle my fess and pay me extra for scholarship....and this is my lesson today. But then, It is not a too bad thing, becos I should feel proud to be honest though it "pays".

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This christmas...

I am going to work, work and work.

This friend again

A friend of mine and I have not seen him for more than a year. He always has been an enlightenment for me almost each time we talk and this is still the case when I met up with him today. He is always very positive and always remind me of something, a thought or things I wanted to and should do...but forget to do because of reality, the thing that makes people forget that they should be dreaming. I am happy simply because he wake me up from reality and bring me back to my dream. It is my dream that I wanted to live in, not reality. Today, he reminded me. 3 things that he said today wake me up. One, NEVER BE A COMPLAIN ARTIST. I never complain, but I know I am not happy with things and I JUST LEAVE THINGS AS IT IS, AND DID NOT EVEN ATTEMPT TO RESOLVE THEM, I just leave it. This is as bad as a complain artist even if I didn’t really complain. Two, JUST DO IT!....dun have to care what the others are doing or not doing, dun have to care about the environment and whatever shit is going on how bad the art has become....dun care, heck care just do what you want to do and that’s it, that simple....dun have to complicate things, and learn to be grateful to all the fundings that are still coming in. That should be the way, I used to be like that, and I absolutely forget about that. Three, a quote from Guo Bao Kun, 艺术仅次于生命. And that is it. That is the most important thing in my life which I sort of forget it along the way and he reminded me. Art comes after life. Life is the most important aspect and then my art. If I dun have a life, I won’t have art. And all this, he reminded me. Finally, my life, enough of reality, and it is time now to go back to my dreams.

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Go do something beautiful please...

Do something beautiful.
I like this expression...
Sleep is beautiful....eat is....love is......


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I lied

I lied.
I told everyone I am 25, which I am not.
I am going to be though in a few months time.
I did it unconsciously at first when people start asking me how old I am.
It was all about the “rounding-off” habit I have with time.
23, 24 or 25 all means 25.
Hopefully, strategically 26 and 27 is also 25.
But then...28, 29 and 30 would sadly means 30.
you know what I mean....
Then it was about getting use to time.
It all happens when I became 22.
My 22 was like in a trance.
Until now, I still couldn’t figure out how I spent it...but nevertheless it was spent.
Then 23...just come and go.
24.....I am actually 24 now...but I tell people I am 25 already.
Which means...my 24 is gone.
This is really an attempt to prepare myself for the fact that I am going to be 25 soon.
And...anyway, who cares if I am 24 or 25, I really see no difference.
Though I know there is.

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This friend

I thought I kind of like this friend of mine and I would still like to address why I like him. I like him because he is very DIFFERENT from me! A lot of things. In terms of believe, and way of seeing things....although there are things we have in common, we have a lot of conflicting thoughts. the fact that he is different show me what I am. So many things. And he is the only few guys I really felt comfortable walking side by side with. He is also the only few who will give me very harsh critic, and very frank ones becos he says he has got a very high expectation of me. He is inspiring at times and show me light occasionally. I like this friend of mine, though I wont say he is a soulmate. He is someone I can talk to frankly.