A taste of heaven....

The blueberry muffin I ate this morning is sooo nice...I simply love it...

To live with someone....

Recently I have a visitor from home...my friend Liwei....stayed with me for a a couple of days....it was a funny feeling to live with someone...but I wont say it is bad....imagine the idea that someone cooks breakfast for you in the morning...and you just have to lie on the bed to wait for food to be serve...ahhh...so nice....and lazy...

And we meet again...

Nowadays, thing like to happen in trilogy...
like LOTR...

3 days ago...we meet again...
Yah..this Daniel guy...third time...I meet him on Sauchiehall street...
I am beginning to feel that we are too fated...or maybe
Glasgow city is just too small and thus everybody
keep meeting everybody...

But then again...
Nothing really happens actually...

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LoNG LoNg StoRy

Written on 20th July 2004

One minute past yesterday.
Yesterday was Bank Holiday.
Monday.
Was a beautiful day full of sunshine!(which summer should be)
Bloody good Day!

Anyway, so much about the weather reports...
yah...to tell my story about yesterday,
I need to tell another story that happened 3 days ago on Saturday...

Saturday, I went to watch Spider Man 2 with Bax ( a colleague)
and we meet Daniel(another colleague) along Buchanan street...
and so it happens...Daniel join us for the movie...

After the show...sorry side-track a bit..Spidey 2 is DAmN GoOd!!!..
er where was I..ok ok..after the show yah...we went on seperate ways to go home...
Bax was first to leave ...he run to catch a bus...
left me and Daniel...becos we sort of head for the same direction home...

So let me cut short my story and go straight to wat i want to say...
we walked pass a park and passed by a bush of white flowers...
He suddenly stop and asked me to wait...
he walked towards one flower and sniffed hard at it...
He smiled and ask me to smell it as well...
I did what I was told and...
ah...vaguely sweet...
which I suspect part of the actual fragrance was gone
becos he sniffed it before me...
anyway....
we continues to walk and he commented...
that he had a very sensitive sense of smell
(at that moment a dog comes to my mind and
 i dun dare to mention in case he blows fire at me)
and would smell the flowers to see if they are growing well...
WOW!...I was ImPreeessssed!..managed to tilt my eyebrows and say...
"hmmm...."
To think that such a statement comes from a guy...
*a round of applause please*
The reason why i am impressed is really becos
I though he is a very insensitive person in the first place...

And so..end of my background story of Saturday...

Back to yesterday...

I was actually really wanting to write about something that happened yesterday ..
I walked past that park again...and past by that bush of white flowers again...
and I stopped.
I was going to do something I thought was silly 3 days ago...
But before anything really happened...
I saw someone walking towards me at the corner of my eye...
It was HIM!!!
I mean...coincidence happen but this is too much of it...
we exchange some silly hi-bye conversation and he left...
I walk on...approaching the next bush of white flowers...
and look back to make sure he is no longer there....
and sniffed hard at one of the white flower which is blooming exarrgerately...

 
ahh...vaguely sweet...
I hope this flower is growing well ..but seriously..
I really can't tell by smelling it...

End Notes...

I was really amused by the fact that we meet again ...
And i thought this kind of things only happen in drama series...
but then drama is never too drama because things really do
happen dramatically in real life...
And so...this story adds a little spice to my boring life...
even though I dun have any special feelings for this Daniel guy...

I thought it brighten up my life a bit...

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MatTer of LiFe aND DeAth...

Yesterday...there was this moment
where I had to make life and death a decision
which everything happened in split second...
it was that decision which determine my existence today...
and whether this blog will be published....
It only shows that...
I made the decision that keeps me alive until today...

Anyway, the story goes like this...

I was walking along Sauchiehall Street( pronounced as ‘saw-kee-hor’ in case
 people from Singapore dun noe... is somewhere like Orchard Rd in Singapore..,),
Where I approach a traffic crossing....instead of stopping to wait for the “Green Man” to flash which I usually would...I simply walk across the road carelessly...

After exactly 3 steps onto the road...6 things happened in split second.

One,  I notice a bus approaching on my left...about 3 metres away

Two, I spot a car coming from my right...about 3 metres as well..

Three,  I looked in front to determine how many steps I was away from my intended destination...which I estimated was 7 Big steps...considering I have short legs...

Four, I made a decision to walk back 3 steps.

Five, I walked 3 BIG steps back while the bus and car ZOOOM! pass side by side on the narrow 2 way road without signs of slowing down...

Six, Open my eyes real big to see the car and bus drove past while holding on to my breathe...

And yes, they all happened in spit second...

I froze at my safety zone after that and tell myself...
I am so glad that I’m still alive!


 
ThE EnD.

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A sense of affinity...this boy and me... 

All wE Get fROm LovE is a lOVe SONg

Ah...recently have been listening to this song repeatly on my laptop...
Day and Night...
As soon as I reach home....
Because..It sound sooo painful and to a point...
tRue...

Like sailin' on a sailin' ship to nowhere,
Love took over my heart like an ocean breeze.
As season fly I knew that I was losing
Love was washed away with the driftin tide.


Oh it's a dirty old shame
that all you get from love is a love song
It's gotcha layin up nights waiting for the music to start.
It's such a dirty old shame
when you got to take the blame for a love song.
Because the best love song is writing with a broken heart.
(chorus)

Now the tears in my eyes are ever blindin'
The future that lies before me I cannot see
(future I cannot see...)
Although tomorrow I know the sun is rising
Lightin' up the world for everyone, but not for me.

By Carpenters...

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Vaguely sweet... 

Food will keep me alive!!!

Recently, I am always feeling hungry...
Perhaps I have been too harsh on myself lately...
Tonight, I cook myself a bowl of sweet potatoes soup...
Like that day I bake that half piece of Bak Kwa...
It was in the middle of the night ...2am...I think
I stood by the cooker and stare at the soup to boil....
And I was actually excited by the thought of it...
I must be hungry...
Add a little sugar...as usual..
I like my food to be slightly sweet...
Just slightly...
The idea of something vaguely sweet is intriguing...
Anyway, I finish the soup in minutes...
DAMN satisfied!
ANd so I conclude for the night...
Food will Keep me alive!!!!

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Regarding whether there is God....

Two days ago...after I made my confession...
I found an extra £10 in my cash box...
This extra is from nowhere
because I have just done my accounting very recently...
and have been keeping track of my money....
which in no way a £10 can creep into my cash box...
 
And so...
I have concluded that...
 
It was from GOD for my toilet rolls....
 
Maybe, there really is GOD...
 
 
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My confession...

I have been doing something lately 
That I thought would consider rather despicable
Which I see the need to make a serious confession...
 
That is,
 
I have been taking toilet papers home from the school library...
In another words...
I have been stealing toilet papers from the school library!
er well...maybe not steal...too harsh a word to use...
after all the toilet papers in the cubicles are free..
 
Well, I must say I am guilty, I really am.
But toilet rolls here are really too expensive...
Like £1.60 for 4 rolls...which is S$4.80 for 4 rolls...
This amount can buy me 2 dozens of toilet rolls in Singapore!!!!
I simply cannot allow myself to indulge in such a luxury
especially when £1.60 can buy me a lot of other things!!!!
 
However, I try to reduce my sin by not taking all the toilet rolls away...
but only a bit more everyday so that i have enough to use at home...
I will always make sure there are some left in the toilet so that other people can use...
 
If there really is GOD...
please dun send me to hell for stealing toilet papers,
as I really have my difficulties...
Best thing is...
If there really is GOD,
Send me some toilet rolls, please!
Thank You.
 
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Opps! I cut it again...

Yesterday, I dreamt that I cut my hair AGAIN!

YES! AGAIN!
Third time.

This time, I cut my hair shorter then shoulder length...
It felt so real that I really thought I cut it  but I couldn't remember when...
I am actually quite confuse with this recurring dream ...

Is it suppose to tell me...
It is time for me to cut my hair and has been mentally preparing me
to the emotion trauma that I am about to face...  
 
OR 
 
Is it balancing a mental state that
I actually wanted to cut my hair but couldn't bear to cut it in real life,
therefore have to cut it in my dream?

OR
 
Is it a warning to tell me..
"YOU BETTER DUN CUT UR HAIR OR YOU WILL BE SORRY!" 
you know...
something like showing me how devastated i will be if i really cut it!

So how now?
Wat's the verdict?
Jian hai shi bu Jian?
Somebody....vote please!
 
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Who should I marry?

Recently...I have a dilema....
I am stuck between the choice of marrying Spider man or wait for Harry Potter to grow up...
OHHH.....I must be dreaming....lol...
 
 

Addicted

I am sure this is some kind of addiction....
To be online at this time of the day...whenever i can...
Or maybe i am just bored...
Becos life with no TV has made me rather handicapp....
NO NEWS....i hate it....
I just want to know what is going on in this world...
I just want to know something is happening....
Or Life will be too BORing!

Apples....

I have apple-craving recently...
I bought a bag of ten yesterday and ate 5 of them since....
now I have 5 left and i suspect i can finish them tomolo....
10 apples COST £1.48
which is S$ 4.50
I can't believe i am spending such amount on apples....
I shouldn't....becos i am suppose to be on tight budget...
But i dun care...I want to eat apples...
and that's it!

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I CUT MY HAIR!!!!!

Yesterday, i dreamt that I cut my hair...just the fringe...
not much though...
but is enough for me to cry and cry in my dream....
so sad that i can feel the pain in my heart....
I guess that is a warning....
To warn me not to cut my hair....
I have plans to cut my hair 2 days ago....for a project call
"Rapunzel Complex" or "Rapunzel Revenge"
anyway...now with that dream....I am thinking of alternative.....

I promise I will NOT cut my hair for the time being....until I stop having this nightmare again...this is in fact the second time i had such dreams...the last time I dreamt that i cut my hair till shoulder length...and i cried and cried as well....until my heart aches

Guess i am not ready to cut my hair really....
Better keep it long for the time being....
For my heart sake....

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Bak kwa Sensation

I think i am crazy.
Sitting in front of the oven waiting.
Waiting for my bak kwa to heat up and ready.

I wake up in the middle of the night, which i suspect is 3am now
( I dun really noe the time, i am just guessing) to bake bak kwa....
In fact, i didn't wake up, because I couldn't sleep in the first place,
while i just lie on my bed thinking a about a lot of things....

Then I decided that I am going to eat Bak kwa.
I open the fridge and took out the Bak kwa that i kept in Ziploc bag...
2 pieces of them.
Took out one and tear it into half....not in equally half uncontrollably....
I stare at the 2 halves for more than 5 second and think very hard....
Deciding which piece i should put in the oven...
I decided to be generous with myself tonight and choose the bigger half...

So now..here I am waiting.
For me bak kwa to heat up and while waiting, I though I should write down this crazy act while waiting....

I suspect I must be crazy right now...or maybe i am just hungry.
But no. i am not.

Not hungry I am sure, but not sure if i am crazy.....

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I think is 3am but is actually 4am then.

I dun drink coffee...but oh i love tea...

i dun drink coffee...
but ohh i love tea...
The pale pale aroma...
and the bitterness within...

I love my tea with sugar...
and no milk please....
Just a little sugar....
Makes it bitter and yet a little sweet...

Just like my love when i was seventeen...
Just like tea with sugar added in...
a little bitter..
and yet a little sweet....

I dun drink coffee...
But ...ohh i Love tea..
with a little sugar...
Feel so bitter but a little sweetness within....

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It accumulates

When i sit on my bed and start to trim off split ends from my hair ...
I know i bored.....
I know i bored....
This kind of boredom may seem harmless ....
but they accumulates...

Please go away....
I hate to beg but no no...
Dun wanna stay this way.....

When i stare out my windows to wait ....
wait for the sun to rise and then it goes away...
Day by day...
This kind of boredom may seem harmless....
But they accumulates.....

Please go away...
oh...please please go away
I hate to beg but NO NO
Dun wanna stay this way...

One day I sit on my bed.....
stare at the ceiling and feeling dead...
as minutes past by I tell myself...
This kind of boredom may seems harmless
but they kills when they accumulates....

Please go away...
Oh...before it accumulates...
I hate to beg...but no no no no no...
Dun...wanna ...stay this way.....

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