The EuroMillion Rollover AGAIN!...

YES YES YES!...I am that obsessed with the idea.
And I love it...always imagine myself to be a millionaire whenever there is a rollover...
And be happy for the week...
Even if I DIN WIN!
as long as the result is not out...
EVERYBODY IS THE WINNER!
The euphoric experience is so intense that it is more effective than eating a mountain of chocolate...
especially for my case...I HATE chocolate.

And so...I shall daydream...and..let's see what i wanna do if I win...

1. Pack a small bag and fly to meet him...
2. Or...pack my bags...go chiangmai...and meet my parents...
3. To singapore to meet my friend...
4. hmm...nothig else to do...

It only shows that I am actually quite contented in my life now...
I actually dun have anything urgent I wanna do...except for meeting people...
becos I am just too lonely here...

perhaps go for a shopping spree...
but there is nothing in particular i really need...probably a couple of pairs of shoes...
dresses...that won't cost much...but have got no occassion to wear becos i dun have much frens here...
and maybe go for a nice dinner....but dun noe who to go with...
eating alone is not a too interesting thing to do...
so if i win the rollover...
I want to see all my frens...
i miss them...

So that's all...

Hope I win...

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How deep is your love...or mine...?

Love da feeling that i am writing again..technically...typing to be precise.
The intense feeling of love fades away as time goes by...but that doesn't mean i dun love him anymore...
it only means I can see this relationship with a clearer mind...and calmer heart...

Too tired to ask how deep is his love for me...
Maybe for a girl...we always like to noe this...
But now...What i am trying to access is how deep is my love..for him...

First of all...most certainly... I know...I love him.
Then...the question is how much.
Love means a million things to me.
I love the view from my window...
i love the walkway along the end of Sauchiehall street...
I love the rain...when I am sleeping in my bed...
I love the sun occassionally...
I love eating pipping hot food...
I love muching cold salad...
I love to cook...
I love to voice my feelings...

So many love...no particular reasons most of the time...
So how deep is my love for him...
I cannot guage.

There is no way I can...
becos most of the time...I dun know why I love certain things...
perhaps there are reasons for why I love something...
but that reason does not apply to everything that i love...
which means...that is not the reason why i love something...

For instance...I love his smile...
I just like it...he always smile like a boy...
like something amuse him so much...he smile...
Especially the one that he had on his face when he first solve the rubiks cube...
But then...if he dun have such smile...
I still love him...
So it is not his smile...

Becos he change my lightbulb?...i love him before he did so...
Becos he rides a bicycle?...dun think so...

And...thinking so hard...
I actually cannot think of anything concrete why i love him...perhaps too many reasons in the past...
but nothing comes to my mind exactly...
sometimes he reminds me of my father...who like to fix machines...
but if he doesn't...
I still love him...

Sometimes he makes me happy...
but if he doesn't...
I still love him...

sometimes he makes me sad...
but if he does...
I still love him...

sometimes he amuses me...
but if he doesn't...
i still love him...

sometimes he annoys me...
but if he does..
i still love him...

sometimes he makes me laugh...
but if he doesn't...
i still love him...

sometimes he makes me cry...
but if he does...
I still love him...

So...how deep is my love for him...
I cannot guage.
There is no way.

Only time will tell.

But right now...I just love him.
That is how deep.
This deep.

190705

The EuroMillion Rollover!!!!

66 Million Pounds!!!!!...COUNT THE ZEROS BEHIND IT!!!!...what more can I say!

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Love and hate....Happy and sad....

He said...Life needs a big smile...He hate the word sad...
but but...I love it...
It's like...life will not be happy if there is no sadness...
If you know what I mean...in fact...I do enjoy being sad for a while...it is the time...when you become very delicate...and sensitive...laugh and cry at almost everything....feel the slightest of the wind blowing in the air...if life is without any sadness....than happy will not be happy.

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