Kid's writing...

My handwriting has become "naive" lately...
As in...messy and childish looking...
Because I have been writing less and less...
Instead...
my writing ability is being replaced by the tapping speed of my fingers on the keyboard...
You gain something...u lose some...

And so...I thought maybe I should stop typing...
and post pictures of my handwriting journals...
to preserve my ability to WRITE.

Or...i will only be able to tap fingers in the future to express I LOVE YOU...
and not even able to write that properly with my fingers...

It is quite a freaky though...but if u have seen my handwriting lately...
You will know I am not joking...

Even worse...
because of infotechnology technology...
my chinese deteoriate...because typing chinese is so troublesome...and SLOW...
my mind is already jetting off with thoughts that my fingers cannot catch up...
Typing did speed up expressing sometimes...
BUT If i were to type chinese...i will go crazy...
Can you imagine a few chinese words for my previous posting is taking a lifetime for me...
I could have just write them on a piece of paper in a few minutes...

It does make a different in the choice of medium of expressing...
In this case...typing...EASE AND HINDRANCE expression at the same time...

you gain some you lose some...


This is life....

用手写字的心情．．．

用手写字的心情．．．

因为用了电脑的关系
近来连字都不用写了
从脑子里出来的思绪
被手指打在键盘上
化成文字
变成了

手打在键盘上的动作

发出的噪音…

每一个字
就只是文字而已

少了… …

时而蜿蜒曲折

时而整齐有序

少了… …

零乱心情

不奈烦的情绪…

少了… …

用手写字的心情．．．

Utterly blank...

Today is the deadline for Golden point award.

More than enough time for me to write something...
Or even compile something and submit.

I actually gave up.

Because I am not in the mood to struggle.

I feel so weak lately.

All the competitions I participated goes down to drain.

The more i want to achieve something lately...I simply fail.

So I was thinking...maybe I should just do things to please myself...
Instead of pleasing judges who are going to judge my work...
I should go ahead and do my own work...
Write my own stiff...
Do my own art...

Forget about those competitions...
Write something I love...
Compile a nice little journal...

Go make some art...
To heal myself...
Do a mini solo show..

For myself...
For myself...

A few more hours...

I got to feel guilty for another few more hours before I can tell myself it is over.

I hate the feeling I am giving up though...

The recurring question...

"What makes you think that your work is worth people buyin, if you only do that work for yourself...?"

Because of this question, it makes me want to make my art even more...

An artist only need to be true to himself.

I Only need to be TRUE TO MYSELF.

Practicing artist...

Yes, practice.

Like anything and everything in life.
If you want to be good at it...
YOu need to practice.

Including art.