Good news...

Judging from how happy I am typing today....
I guess I am feeling better each day...

The moment of sadness...was there everyday ....
but it goes off...and comes back...
on and off everyday...
Like the mosquitoes that bites me...here and there...
sometimes...you feel the itch...sometimes you forget...

I am totally numb...when I was the saddest though...
lost all my senses to hear...to feel...or even to cry...
I was like a zombie...for a couple of days...
and started to cry...and tell all my friends about it...becos I cannot stop myself from crying...
It becomes scary....I feel afraid..
But not sure what I am frightened of...
I just keep crying....


Now...I think I really am recovering...

I hope I could love again.
To love...to fall IN LOVE....
is never a bad thing...

Those who never fall IN love...never loved.
I believe.
Yet...I respect those who thinks that you should never fall in love...
if they don't need to love anybody...

This world...
Too many war has occur becos people do not respect other people's believes...
Liberation or dictatorship...christian or muslim...
When someone insist that their belief is the only truth...
they are no better than anybody they do not agree with...

If you are a man...you see this world as a man...
A woman...you see this world as a woman...
A chinese...as a chinese...
A greek as a greek...

I can tell a blind person the sky is blue...
But blue will not be the blue we know...to a blind person...
Blue could be water...the sea...the sky...someone's eye...the colour of certain flowers...but makes no sense...he need to see it...

I can let a deaf person know that the sound of the rain is beautiful...
but it will not the the sound we know...to a deaf person...
The sound of the rain...could be something that sooth my heart...makes me smile...and put me to sleep....but makes no sense...he needs to hear it..

Then...I wanted to tell someone...
You need to use your heart to love...but to someone...
it makes no sense...he needs to love to understand it...

Of cos...no one is absolutely right...or wrong...
My world may be distorted too...i am no different from a blind...a deaf and anyone...

I feel this world...whatever my senses tells me...
Just like how you feel this world...whatever your senses tells you...

Whatever...as if you care...as if you will read it....

Right now...
I just love the rain outside...
Can you hear it?...can you feel it...?
I doubt ...
but it's alright...
I don't need someone elses to love the rain for me...

I love the rain myself...

Tonight...I think...I am happy.
Good news isn't it.