Yah...that guy like sunshine. Yesterday i did a stupid thing...he ask me to join him and his friends for dinner....I agree...then...change my mind last minute...because i felt too akward to be around....reason being...the group only consist of his girlfriend and 2 other of his personal friend....and not the school mates i know....akward...so I kindly find a stupid reason to change my mind...and say that that place is too far away....and i dun want to go....stupid reason...I know...and i also noe...i should avoid falling in love with him at all cost.
Friday, October 29, 2004
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
I can feel it...
I can feel it...that kind of feeling....that you lost contact with everybody....and some of them....just disapppear in your life...maybe this is life...people will not be forever by ur side....people come and go....or maybe it is just a balance....some people come....some people go....and yes...i can feel that some friends in life is gone.....just gone....while for some...i am the one who left them.
Thursday, October 21, 2004
Autumn is missing!
I know it is getting cold...especially when my hands still feels cold even after I stuff them into my pockets....and I know it feels cold...when I need to wear more than a T-shirt at home...I know it is cold...when I see more leaves on the walk way than on the trees...where have autumn gone...it should be autumn now...but it feels like winter already...autumn only lasted a week....
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
It makes me think...
Someone said this....
Reading a book means thinking through others mind instead of our own.
To me, I think this statement also applys to watching a TV drama or movie....or maybe reading a blog...
That kind of detachment of oneself to become somebody else is relieving...not as if my life is in agony...just that it can be boring to always only be ourself...yah something like this...
Reading a book means thinking through others mind instead of our own.
To me, I think this statement also applys to watching a TV drama or movie....or maybe reading a blog...
That kind of detachment of oneself to become somebody else is relieving...not as if my life is in agony...just that it can be boring to always only be ourself...yah something like this...
This is one of those days....
The wind howls and brollies struggle ...all I can see is ground covered with fallen autumn leaves...and then...the rain...
The rain is not the most irritating thing but irritates when it comes with the wind...
The wind is not irritating as well but becomes nasty when it is cold...
The cold is not so bad but gets miserable when it rains....
The 3 of them in Glasgow...likes to come hand in hand..which sometimes makes Glasgow...
An irritating, nasty and misreable place to be in.
Other than that....each on it's own....the rain, the wind and the cold are quite a nice thing.
This is one of those days....
where I am wet and cold....and my brollies tries to fly away....
This is one of those days...which gives me a weird feeling of tranquility.
The rain is not the most irritating thing but irritates when it comes with the wind...
The wind is not irritating as well but becomes nasty when it is cold...
The cold is not so bad but gets miserable when it rains....
The 3 of them in Glasgow...likes to come hand in hand..which sometimes makes Glasgow...
An irritating, nasty and misreable place to be in.
Other than that....each on it's own....the rain, the wind and the cold are quite a nice thing.
This is one of those days....
where I am wet and cold....and my brollies tries to fly away....
This is one of those days...which gives me a weird feeling of tranquility.
Monday, October 18, 2004
In the mood for words....
Suddenly...when I was reading one of my conversation with Yahui.....I was reminded that I was actually a bit attracted to this guy half a year ago....a guy from some other department... I dun want to mention his name because I suspect the chances of him reading my blog is very high....becos I am announcing my blog to the public soon....the idea of him existing somewhere in my mind is very “slippery”....it’s not like I am crazily infatuated with him.....or secrectly in love with him.. he will be occupying my mind for an instance whenever I see a smile from him...and after that....that’s it...he will not be always on my mind and I will not miss him. I will not look out for him when I am in school or stare at him unconsciously if he is around.....anyway...just nothing...BUT....there is one thing....I feel comfortable whenever I talk to him....he is a nice guy. And I can feel that he is listening when I am talking....like in one presentation...I can sense him listening....I can see from the look in his eye that he is attentive .....and most importantly...I feel comfortable when he is around.
I felt quite alien even until now when I attend school function like openings and lectures....it’s like....even though I already know some of the people, I felt awkward to talk to them....I felt awakward...simply walking around...is like...very alien and unwelcome....but at least when he is around sometimes...I will feel slightly just slightly...at ease....seriously....I dun have any special feelings for this guy....but I like him. You know...like....as in....just like...saying....I like the rainbow....suddenly out of the blue...you see it...and you feel happy...but then it’s either you have to go....or the rainbow....or maybe rainbow is not appropriate enough....becos rainbow actually excites me....perhaps....is like.....the sun in glasgow.....YAH!...that’s it....the sun....becos I never really particularly like the sun usually especially when I was in Singapore....but then....when the sun comes out occasionally in Glasgow...it’s makes you feel warm and comfortable.....might not be there all the time...and I will not miss it....but once it comes out....I can feel it.....and have to like it...becos it’s warm and friendly....that kind kind of feeling.
15/10/2004
2am
I am a DAMN LUCKY girl....today is my final tutorial.....and I am supposed to meet my tutor for a FINAL “SHOWDOWN” for my essay....but I decide to fall asleep yesterday night and not continue what I have not finish....I have my reasons though....because I have just got hold of a new book which is quite crucial to my essay and I intend to make some serious reconstruction...while I am a bit worried on my way to school about how I am going to explain to my tutor about my situation....she throw a ball to me instead...by telling me....she haven read my essay becos I am the last on her list and she din have time to even start reading it....WHAT?.....what kind of ghost luck am I having....I was smiling to myself when she told me this.........heaven is always sooo good to me....so we arrange for a make up tutorial....which gave me another week....meanwhile I told her about my NEW PLAN...and she agree to assess the possibility of an extension for my essay...LIFE is beautiful.....and things happen nicely to you...when you are sincerely cherishing every bit of it!....meanwhile....thanks to my tutor...she has been very encouraging about my research....and patient with my work attitude...because I am a very last minute person...she had been very accommodating.....thanks...
15/10/2004
3am
Today...I spend about less than a minute to decide to end my job in the Chinese buffet restaurant which I have been working for 10 months. This is actually already countless of times I attempt to quit....the last time...was when my boss unscrupulously try to cut my pay by changing her pay scheme from paying me £4/hour to paying me £35 a day. This is scheming because a full day job lasted 10.5 hours....x4 should be £42....but she only offer £35....come on....even a primary school kid can work this simple mathematical sum out....who is she trying to kid!...I am already considered seriously underpaid even when she pay me £4/hour....moreover....NO TIPS IS BEING SHARED AT ALL!!!!!! She keeps all the tips to herself...I really dun noe why I am still working for her until now....but I wont say there is no incentive at all working in her restaurant......becos working in a buffet restaurant entitle you to EAT ALL YOU CAN! Like the customers...that is one thing,..this job feeds me...and makes me fat....another thing is....this job is considered simple....for me now after working for so long...everything becomes mundane, easy, and boring....it was really torturing at first.....but I survive the torture yet ironically can’t stand the fact that I am being exploited....I would say apart from the pay and the boss....the job itself is nice and easy.....During that time when she suggested that stupid new pay scheme....i spend the whole night to figure the pros and cons and told her the next day that my minimum pay rate is £4/hour and NOT ANY LOWER!....she understand what I imply and she just reply that...she will call me when she need me....from then....she never call. About one or two months later....she call me out of the blue and ask me back to work. I just went back. I knew why she call....I know why becos my colleagues told me she is leaving even before my boss call....and my boss is shorthanded...I never say anything...I just went back to work....I thought my boss will be more appreciative in the future becos I din even ask for a pay rise....I went back as £4/hour. Now I am convinced she is hopeless. I told her I can’t work for her on Saturday. I told her frankly that I have other jobs and I am not willing give up my jobs to work for her ONLY. She actually tells me to cancelled my other jobs for her....EXCUSE ME!...on what ground?....my agent pays me £5/hour and that is excluding tips...which I sometimes can get as many as £30 a day of TIPS....and what can she offer?....SHE NEVER SAY A THING!...she actually tells me that I can only give my time to her!.....what her logic was....if I work for her WHOLE HEARTEDLY!....she will give me more hours to work....that will accumulate more pays....IF NOT....she is going to hire a full time...which I will have less hours to work in the future...I got her hint!...and I got her threat....and like I am scared.......WHAT AN ASSHOLE!....I can work less and get the same pay from my agents.....why should I work for her!....AS if she is going to pay me more....I got jobs offer from everywhere in Glasgow....I wont die even if she dun offer me jobs.....That is my limit.......That is why...I have decided...tomolo...I will be working my last shift for her....tomolo evening....I will tell her straight!....that...unless she is going to pay me £5/hour in the future.....or else she can hire whoever full time she wants to hire....none of my business. I am still available to work for her sure....I will never really quit a job...afterall I am just a part time......I will just wait and see when she is going to ask me back as £5/hour....which I doubt she ever will becos we all know her too well that she is a very stingy person...like me...so that is very unlikely that she will ever spend £5/hour on me....she would rather spend £2.50/hour to hire 2 waitress from china....than to spend £5/hour to hire me.....but the situation will be bad.....everytime when good staff are around.....4 is good enough to run the whole restaurant if everybody know what they are doing....but she rather hire 8 people to run around not knowing what to do.......for the whole day....and be paranoid becos everybody dun noe what is going on. Maybe her math is more powerful....you know...like spending the same amount to get more quantity.....but...no quality.....that is her logic. And so.....expressing my fullest sympathy...I hope those who are still working there to be happy. As for me....I don’t see any more reasons for me to stay on....afterall...to be frank...I work...becos I need money...not doing charity.
15/10/2004
4am
Today, I was at the CCA for a book launch. I like particularly a book call...er...i forget the title...something spaghetti...noodles or pasta...anyway...it was just a collections of scribbling on waste paper...about ah-ha! LAsagna...I think the tile is something like a pot of lasagne.....that thing Garfield likes to eat....yah...i like that book...becos...I also keep scribblings...especially notes left by people to tell me something....but I felt a bit sad...becos...the idea of someone is already doing it ...makes me feel like I am copying them which is ridiculous becos I have seen a lot of such things before...so I wont say it it very original...which is not impt...becos it is not about originality...but sincerity and genunity......I have already had this idea in mind to make a book long ago...but dun noe how to start and dun have the budget to do it.....SOB!...and someone else is already doing it....I am especially angry with myself for not doing something I want to do....I AM ANGRY WITH MYSELF actually....I dun noe what is stopping me....afterall I have already done a lot of things that are considered impossible to many people .....why am I hesitating...why am I still complaining...which I really should be doing something...DO SOMETHING!!!!DO SOMETHING!...YOU IDIOT!....STOP DREAMING....JUST DO IT!.GO DO IT!
15/10/2004
4.12am
By the way, at the CCA book launch...yah...that is one of those occasion which I feel very weird to be around....very weird....becos although everybody around me are familiar faces....I really dun noe them well.....I end up just saying bye to one of the artist which I know slightly better....but it still feels weird........weird weird weird....and uncomfortable.
15/10/2004
4.15am
Suddenly...something comes to my mind....another project....you know....the problem....I think I need a crew of people to help me realise my work....while I keep churning my ideas....to keep up the pace....or else my idea keeps accumulate and but not realising....it becomes mentally very unbalance and can be very psychotic....bad for health....oh yah...back to what my idea was....it was the feeling of familiar faces....in BARNES building.....familiar.....but dun noe who is who....very scary.......yet...I felt like telling them how I feel about them....I dun noe how......I have this idea to “stalk” everybody in Barnes building.....especially in EMA....and in the studio....and write something about them.......OHHH.....I like this idea....I LOVE IT!.....like a testimonial for everybody I know here.....YAH....so exciting!
15/10/2004
4.32am
well....time to sleep....shouldn’t be staying up late....but then...so happy that I am writing.....I like the idea that I am writing....I like it.
15/10/2004
4.33am
It is 5am now....and I dun noe why I am still wide awake....I am actually in my TIP TOP FORM and CONDITION to write and think.....usually...this will be the most productive time for me to do my essay but I choose to write diary entry....becos essay is for my degree but diary is for my life...simple logic.
Good night...and go to sleep...tomolo is going to be another hard day....
15/10/2004
5am
I felt quite alien even until now when I attend school function like openings and lectures....it’s like....even though I already know some of the people, I felt awkward to talk to them....I felt awakward...simply walking around...is like...very alien and unwelcome....but at least when he is around sometimes...I will feel slightly just slightly...at ease....seriously....I dun have any special feelings for this guy....but I like him. You know...like....as in....just like...saying....I like the rainbow....suddenly out of the blue...you see it...and you feel happy...but then it’s either you have to go....or the rainbow....or maybe rainbow is not appropriate enough....becos rainbow actually excites me....perhaps....is like.....the sun in glasgow.....YAH!...that’s it....the sun....becos I never really particularly like the sun usually especially when I was in Singapore....but then....when the sun comes out occasionally in Glasgow...it’s makes you feel warm and comfortable.....might not be there all the time...and I will not miss it....but once it comes out....I can feel it.....and have to like it...becos it’s warm and friendly....that kind kind of feeling.
15/10/2004
2am
I am a DAMN LUCKY girl....today is my final tutorial.....and I am supposed to meet my tutor for a FINAL “SHOWDOWN” for my essay....but I decide to fall asleep yesterday night and not continue what I have not finish....I have my reasons though....because I have just got hold of a new book which is quite crucial to my essay and I intend to make some serious reconstruction...while I am a bit worried on my way to school about how I am going to explain to my tutor about my situation....she throw a ball to me instead...by telling me....she haven read my essay becos I am the last on her list and she din have time to even start reading it....WHAT?.....what kind of ghost luck am I having....I was smiling to myself when she told me this.........heaven is always sooo good to me....so we arrange for a make up tutorial....which gave me another week....meanwhile I told her about my NEW PLAN...and she agree to assess the possibility of an extension for my essay...LIFE is beautiful.....and things happen nicely to you...when you are sincerely cherishing every bit of it!....meanwhile....thanks to my tutor...she has been very encouraging about my research....and patient with my work attitude...because I am a very last minute person...she had been very accommodating.....thanks...
15/10/2004
3am
Today...I spend about less than a minute to decide to end my job in the Chinese buffet restaurant which I have been working for 10 months. This is actually already countless of times I attempt to quit....the last time...was when my boss unscrupulously try to cut my pay by changing her pay scheme from paying me £4/hour to paying me £35 a day. This is scheming because a full day job lasted 10.5 hours....x4 should be £42....but she only offer £35....come on....even a primary school kid can work this simple mathematical sum out....who is she trying to kid!...I am already considered seriously underpaid even when she pay me £4/hour....moreover....NO TIPS IS BEING SHARED AT ALL!!!!!! She keeps all the tips to herself...I really dun noe why I am still working for her until now....but I wont say there is no incentive at all working in her restaurant......becos working in a buffet restaurant entitle you to EAT ALL YOU CAN! Like the customers...that is one thing,..this job feeds me...and makes me fat....another thing is....this job is considered simple....for me now after working for so long...everything becomes mundane, easy, and boring....it was really torturing at first.....but I survive the torture yet ironically can’t stand the fact that I am being exploited....I would say apart from the pay and the boss....the job itself is nice and easy.....During that time when she suggested that stupid new pay scheme....i spend the whole night to figure the pros and cons and told her the next day that my minimum pay rate is £4/hour and NOT ANY LOWER!....she understand what I imply and she just reply that...she will call me when she need me....from then....she never call. About one or two months later....she call me out of the blue and ask me back to work. I just went back. I knew why she call....I know why becos my colleagues told me she is leaving even before my boss call....and my boss is shorthanded...I never say anything...I just went back to work....I thought my boss will be more appreciative in the future becos I din even ask for a pay rise....I went back as £4/hour. Now I am convinced she is hopeless. I told her I can’t work for her on Saturday. I told her frankly that I have other jobs and I am not willing give up my jobs to work for her ONLY. She actually tells me to cancelled my other jobs for her....EXCUSE ME!...on what ground?....my agent pays me £5/hour and that is excluding tips...which I sometimes can get as many as £30 a day of TIPS....and what can she offer?....SHE NEVER SAY A THING!...she actually tells me that I can only give my time to her!.....what her logic was....if I work for her WHOLE HEARTEDLY!....she will give me more hours to work....that will accumulate more pays....IF NOT....she is going to hire a full time...which I will have less hours to work in the future...I got her hint!...and I got her threat....and like I am scared.......WHAT AN ASSHOLE!....I can work less and get the same pay from my agents.....why should I work for her!....AS if she is going to pay me more....I got jobs offer from everywhere in Glasgow....I wont die even if she dun offer me jobs.....That is my limit.......That is why...I have decided...tomolo...I will be working my last shift for her....tomolo evening....I will tell her straight!....that...unless she is going to pay me £5/hour in the future.....or else she can hire whoever full time she wants to hire....none of my business. I am still available to work for her sure....I will never really quit a job...afterall I am just a part time......I will just wait and see when she is going to ask me back as £5/hour....which I doubt she ever will becos we all know her too well that she is a very stingy person...like me...so that is very unlikely that she will ever spend £5/hour on me....she would rather spend £2.50/hour to hire 2 waitress from china....than to spend £5/hour to hire me.....but the situation will be bad.....everytime when good staff are around.....4 is good enough to run the whole restaurant if everybody know what they are doing....but she rather hire 8 people to run around not knowing what to do.......for the whole day....and be paranoid becos everybody dun noe what is going on. Maybe her math is more powerful....you know...like spending the same amount to get more quantity.....but...no quality.....that is her logic. And so.....expressing my fullest sympathy...I hope those who are still working there to be happy. As for me....I don’t see any more reasons for me to stay on....afterall...to be frank...I work...becos I need money...not doing charity.
15/10/2004
4am
Today, I was at the CCA for a book launch. I like particularly a book call...er...i forget the title...something spaghetti...noodles or pasta...anyway...it was just a collections of scribbling on waste paper...about ah-ha! LAsagna...I think the tile is something like a pot of lasagne.....that thing Garfield likes to eat....yah...i like that book...becos...I also keep scribblings...especially notes left by people to tell me something....but I felt a bit sad...becos...the idea of someone is already doing it ...makes me feel like I am copying them which is ridiculous becos I have seen a lot of such things before...so I wont say it it very original...which is not impt...becos it is not about originality...but sincerity and genunity......I have already had this idea in mind to make a book long ago...but dun noe how to start and dun have the budget to do it.....SOB!...and someone else is already doing it....I am especially angry with myself for not doing something I want to do....I AM ANGRY WITH MYSELF actually....I dun noe what is stopping me....afterall I have already done a lot of things that are considered impossible to many people .....why am I hesitating...why am I still complaining...which I really should be doing something...DO SOMETHING!!!!DO SOMETHING!...YOU IDIOT!....STOP DREAMING....JUST DO IT!.GO DO IT!
15/10/2004
4.12am
By the way, at the CCA book launch...yah...that is one of those occasion which I feel very weird to be around....very weird....becos although everybody around me are familiar faces....I really dun noe them well.....I end up just saying bye to one of the artist which I know slightly better....but it still feels weird........weird weird weird....and uncomfortable.
15/10/2004
4.15am
Suddenly...something comes to my mind....another project....you know....the problem....I think I need a crew of people to help me realise my work....while I keep churning my ideas....to keep up the pace....or else my idea keeps accumulate and but not realising....it becomes mentally very unbalance and can be very psychotic....bad for health....oh yah...back to what my idea was....it was the feeling of familiar faces....in BARNES building.....familiar.....but dun noe who is who....very scary.......yet...I felt like telling them how I feel about them....I dun noe how......I have this idea to “stalk” everybody in Barnes building.....especially in EMA....and in the studio....and write something about them.......OHHH.....I like this idea....I LOVE IT!.....like a testimonial for everybody I know here.....YAH....so exciting!
15/10/2004
4.32am
well....time to sleep....shouldn’t be staying up late....but then...so happy that I am writing.....I like the idea that I am writing....I like it.
15/10/2004
4.33am
It is 5am now....and I dun noe why I am still wide awake....I am actually in my TIP TOP FORM and CONDITION to write and think.....usually...this will be the most productive time for me to do my essay but I choose to write diary entry....becos essay is for my degree but diary is for my life...simple logic.
Good night...and go to sleep...tomolo is going to be another hard day....
15/10/2004
5am
Monday, October 11, 2004
Unwilling...
This is a lesson for everybody.
Never help someone unwillingly...
for my case....I am extremely unwilling when I help my friends here.
They are from Malaysia...a couple and they need to rent a flat....so I let them use my name to rent that flat...and they pay for the rent themself....I regret TREMEMDOUSLY not becos they will run away or watever so....becos even if they do...their deposit is paid by themself and got nothing to do with me....but then...I dun like the idea that someone is using my name to do something....and I had to sign the rent agreement....I just dun like it....and I WILL NEVER DO THIs KIND OF THING AGAIN!...NEVER!...unless of cos..if there are other reasons for doing so...or else..NEVER!
Just wanted to tell everybody about this.
That's all.
Never help someone unwillingly...
for my case....I am extremely unwilling when I help my friends here.
They are from Malaysia...a couple and they need to rent a flat....so I let them use my name to rent that flat...and they pay for the rent themself....I regret TREMEMDOUSLY not becos they will run away or watever so....becos even if they do...their deposit is paid by themself and got nothing to do with me....but then...I dun like the idea that someone is using my name to do something....and I had to sign the rent agreement....I just dun like it....and I WILL NEVER DO THIs KIND OF THING AGAIN!...NEVER!...unless of cos..if there are other reasons for doing so...or else..NEVER!
Just wanted to tell everybody about this.
That's all.
Bad day...
I am feeling so and so and so miserable right NOW...this very moment and I suspect for the rest of my night....that I will feel VERY SICK!...because of the dinner I ate 4 hours ago....that stupid beef and cheese...I COOKED!....yes...it was my own fault...but it has got nothing to do with my culinary skill....it was the beef....it was in the fridge for weeks...and I have no time to cook them.....until today....I suspect it was bad already...but I just thought maybe if I cook them properly.....it should be ok....but...it turn out to be NOT OK at all....halfway thru my eating....I decided not to eat the beef anymore and throw all away.....they taste really funny....and 4 hours later....I felt like vomiting and my tummy felt horrible.....I tried to make myself vomit....stay at the sink and wait for myself to puke....drink a lot of water...hoping that it will help...but my tummy just bloated...and makes things worse....now I felt so miserable I felt like crying.....worse...I am having a headache induced by my food-poisoning.....SOMEBODY.....HELP ME!
But SHIT!....I am all alone and I am not connected...this blog will only be publish next Monday when I have access...hopefully by then I will be pink and healthy again...and will not be eating any beef probably for a long time until I get over it....
This reminds me of fishballs.....I remember when I was very young....I became very sick after eating some fishballs...and yah...I vomited....after that...I did not eat fishballs for a long long time....until one day....out of the blue...I start to eat them again....I actually crave for fishcakes nowadays....the Angmohs here will not understand what is fishcake....anyway...singaporean should noe .......
OUCH!....just 10 seconds ago...while I was typing in pain groaning about my food poisoning....and fishball phobia....I lost balance and slip off my bed.....luckily my laptop is still on the table....but my thigh hit the bench and my back hit the bedside.....and the pain on my thigh and back was sooo intense that.....I....no longer feel the tummy aching....I guess that is what people call.. “distraction”.....but just as I recover from that silly fall.....with very very minor fat injury(I got fatty thighs)...my tummy ache and vomitty sensation came back.....
What a day.....just not right for me.....
09/10/2004
1.37am
But SHIT!....I am all alone and I am not connected...this blog will only be publish next Monday when I have access...hopefully by then I will be pink and healthy again...and will not be eating any beef probably for a long time until I get over it....
This reminds me of fishballs.....I remember when I was very young....I became very sick after eating some fishballs...and yah...I vomited....after that...I did not eat fishballs for a long long time....until one day....out of the blue...I start to eat them again....I actually crave for fishcakes nowadays....the Angmohs here will not understand what is fishcake....anyway...singaporean should noe .......
OUCH!....just 10 seconds ago...while I was typing in pain groaning about my food poisoning....and fishball phobia....I lost balance and slip off my bed.....luckily my laptop is still on the table....but my thigh hit the bench and my back hit the bedside.....and the pain on my thigh and back was sooo intense that.....I....no longer feel the tummy aching....I guess that is what people call.. “distraction”.....but just as I recover from that silly fall.....with very very minor fat injury(I got fatty thighs)...my tummy ache and vomitty sensation came back.....
What a day.....just not right for me.....
09/10/2004
1.37am
Friday, October 08, 2004
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Confession of a confused stalker...
Nothing happened since that night after I return him the bulb....
Absolutely nothing.
Oh...but I made another astonishing discovery!!!
There are 2 Johns in this apartment!!!!
I know becos I saw a new mail addressing to John C. Morrison a few days ago.
Whichever he is....I am too confuse to conclude...and whatever, he is still john.
However...it is not important now as nothing is going to happen until my next lightbulb blows off....
Which I suspect will take another 5 mth....till then....
Who knows who is going to live downstairs...or even best..next door!
Yah...perhaps I shall call an end to this beautiful love story which is still beautiful because it never happens.
Meanwhile...I look forward to someone knocking on my door the next time....anyone....EXCEPT my landlord!
04/10/04
Absolutely nothing.
Oh...but I made another astonishing discovery!!!
There are 2 Johns in this apartment!!!!
I know becos I saw a new mail addressing to John C. Morrison a few days ago.
Whichever he is....I am too confuse to conclude...and whatever, he is still john.
However...it is not important now as nothing is going to happen until my next lightbulb blows off....
Which I suspect will take another 5 mth....till then....
Who knows who is going to live downstairs...or even best..next door!
Yah...perhaps I shall call an end to this beautiful love story which is still beautiful because it never happens.
Meanwhile...I look forward to someone knocking on my door the next time....anyone....EXCEPT my landlord!
04/10/04
Operation “Destroy”!
I have decided to be merciless this time.
As I have realise the true meaning of... “being kind to others is being cruel to myself”
This is applicable...when I am referring to my pest friends...xiao hei
the beetle cockroach family that populate my room like Chinese populate china!!!!
The only difference which makes it scarier...is that they have more than one child in a family!
Which I am not even sure how many family I am actually housing....
I have decided to treat this “problem” seriously when I was casually sweeping off
2 or 3 visible ones with my broom off into my bin....and when I took a closer look.....
there are actually more than 2...but 5 or 6 smaller ones wriggling....EEEEEEE!!!!
I FREAK OUT!
That means I might be stepping on one anytime I walk around my room!
Though they are tiny.....BUT with my almost perfect eye-sight...
I CAN SEE THEM!!!!!
I decided that this is it.
It has reach my limit!
My policy is always as long as I dun see them...I am fine...
But since I can see them CLEARLY now...TOO LATE!
I have began to sweep very frequently everyday...
Whenever I reach home....first thing...I will sweep the floor...
The irritating thing is really the carpet...which I find it extremely unhygienic...
But the angmoh like it...becos it will be warm in the winter....but crap....
The carpet is the dirtiest thing you can put in ur room...I rather wear feel cold than to walk on dirty carpet.
And I swear I will never carpet my floor in my future home...maybe those small decorative ones...
But never the whole floor...stupid siah.....like if you spill something on the carpet...that’s it....
And you dun noe how many dust mites are growing...and for my case...beetle cockroach...
But I can be sure that it is not the fault that they breed here....but they are simply everywhere in this building.
They just exist.
Though I might not be able to eliminate them totally...
I am determine to sweep them up....as many as I could....
and throw them in bin bags and trash them out 100 metres away from my apartment across the road.
So far..I lost count how many I have actually sweep away...probably more than 20(larve form-wriggling and not crawling)
It is the most traumatising thing that is happening...
but everyday....the number is getting less...
but it still creeps a bit to think of it.
One more reason nowadays for me to move....
But not yet.......not yet.
04/10/04
As I have realise the true meaning of... “being kind to others is being cruel to myself”
This is applicable...when I am referring to my pest friends...xiao hei
the beetle cockroach family that populate my room like Chinese populate china!!!!
The only difference which makes it scarier...is that they have more than one child in a family!
Which I am not even sure how many family I am actually housing....
I have decided to treat this “problem” seriously when I was casually sweeping off
2 or 3 visible ones with my broom off into my bin....and when I took a closer look.....
there are actually more than 2...but 5 or 6 smaller ones wriggling....EEEEEEE!!!!
I FREAK OUT!
That means I might be stepping on one anytime I walk around my room!
Though they are tiny.....BUT with my almost perfect eye-sight...
I CAN SEE THEM!!!!!
I decided that this is it.
It has reach my limit!
My policy is always as long as I dun see them...I am fine...
But since I can see them CLEARLY now...TOO LATE!
I have began to sweep very frequently everyday...
Whenever I reach home....first thing...I will sweep the floor...
The irritating thing is really the carpet...which I find it extremely unhygienic...
But the angmoh like it...becos it will be warm in the winter....but crap....
The carpet is the dirtiest thing you can put in ur room...I rather wear feel cold than to walk on dirty carpet.
And I swear I will never carpet my floor in my future home...maybe those small decorative ones...
But never the whole floor...stupid siah.....like if you spill something on the carpet...that’s it....
And you dun noe how many dust mites are growing...and for my case...beetle cockroach...
But I can be sure that it is not the fault that they breed here....but they are simply everywhere in this building.
They just exist.
Though I might not be able to eliminate them totally...
I am determine to sweep them up....as many as I could....
and throw them in bin bags and trash them out 100 metres away from my apartment across the road.
So far..I lost count how many I have actually sweep away...probably more than 20(larve form-wriggling and not crawling)
It is the most traumatising thing that is happening...
but everyday....the number is getting less...
but it still creeps a bit to think of it.
One more reason nowadays for me to move....
But not yet.......not yet.
04/10/04
Shhh...!
I seriously dun like guys who talks a lot.
Though I have interesting “talk-a lot” guy friends....
And I do enjoy arguing with them....
But I really do prefer guys to talk when necessary.
This conclusion was made when I work in a hotel function yesterday.
This guy that I had to work in pair with talk NON-STOP!
That worse thing is....he is extremely unprofessionally because we are actually working...
Though we are just standing around to wait for the people to finish their food before we clear and serve the next course....
We are suppose to be standing at the side and keep an eye on their needs...but this guy....he just keep talking....
And talking and talking......I din reply him and thought he might get the hint and SHUT UP!....instead he ask me why I am so quiet...
DUR!...I told him we are working.....and I dun like to talk when I am working......
Then he ask me what I am thinking when I am not talking...
I told him....I am not thinking of anything.
And he keep asking me question.....
Like where I live and who do I live with....
When I say I dun live with anyone he look as if I am bluffing him!!!!
I am sooo annoyed!
I ask myself if he happens to some cute guy trying to chat me up....will I be equally annoyed?
My answer should be still the same....simply becos
he choose the wrong time, wrong place and ask the wrong question!
Oh well....that is it....
At least I should be thankful to him that he did help me a lot when we are serving...after all we work in pairs...
we have to be professional...and he burn his hands while carrying some hot plates which I felt sorry for him...
oh oh...and he made great contribution to making me realise I dun like guys who are talkative!
For his case...talk without thinking!
Meanwhile...quiet guys always works for me....!
04/10/04
Though I have interesting “talk-a lot” guy friends....
And I do enjoy arguing with them....
But I really do prefer guys to talk when necessary.
This conclusion was made when I work in a hotel function yesterday.
This guy that I had to work in pair with talk NON-STOP!
That worse thing is....he is extremely unprofessionally because we are actually working...
Though we are just standing around to wait for the people to finish their food before we clear and serve the next course....
We are suppose to be standing at the side and keep an eye on their needs...but this guy....he just keep talking....
And talking and talking......I din reply him and thought he might get the hint and SHUT UP!....instead he ask me why I am so quiet...
DUR!...I told him we are working.....and I dun like to talk when I am working......
Then he ask me what I am thinking when I am not talking...
I told him....I am not thinking of anything.
And he keep asking me question.....
Like where I live and who do I live with....
When I say I dun live with anyone he look as if I am bluffing him!!!!
I am sooo annoyed!
I ask myself if he happens to some cute guy trying to chat me up....will I be equally annoyed?
My answer should be still the same....simply becos
he choose the wrong time, wrong place and ask the wrong question!
Oh well....that is it....
At least I should be thankful to him that he did help me a lot when we are serving...after all we work in pairs...
we have to be professional...and he burn his hands while carrying some hot plates which I felt sorry for him...
oh oh...and he made great contribution to making me realise I dun like guys who are talkative!
For his case...talk without thinking!
Meanwhile...quiet guys always works for me....!
04/10/04
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