Soduku and life...

I like playing soduku...
I like the feeling of completing a task...

I have always been playing this number game alone...
afterall this is quite a self absorb game...
Hence, I never know how good I am or how fast compare to others...

Yesterday, after a little competition with my friend LQ...
I realise...
I am extremely slow...and actually the worst kind of player...
Completely systemless...and impatient...

So she show me her trick...

1. Start from the top box...and go thru number by number from 1 to 9
2. Every new number filled up will give clue to more number
3. If some area is stuck...MOVE on and go to other numbers...dun waste time thinking...
4. Always scan thru and repeat scanning process of possibility from 1 to 9 again...

Very systematic and orderly and efficient.

While me, my style is...

1. Stare at the block of numbers...randomly
2. Here and there and everywhere...to check for number to be filled up...in no particular orders
3. Gets frustrated if i am stuck, and at some point will STARE at the numbers as if I am thinking...and waste time.
4. After the idling...I resume my task...and go thru all the inefficient way all over again until all the boxes are filled up.


I realise the way I solve soduku is the same as how I live life...
I am distracted and do not follow a system.
I do things spontaneously and randomly...
And this actually makes me horribly inefficient...

But the good thing is...though I am really slow...I enjoy this game as much as those who finish this in 5 minutes...

Like life...it is not about the quantity...but how much I enjoy while I am solving it.

10 things I learn this week...

Hey!...it is time for my weekly report...

1. My JVC digital camcorder records videos and save it as .mod files

2. I have learn that digital video files can come in varies forms, such as .MOD, .MPEG2, .avi.... and not all video editing software can support all of them...for instance...the FREE window movie maker from XP cannot support .mod file.

3. Other brands of camcorder also have their unique video files format...like .VOB and .IFO for sony...

4. .MOD files can be converted to .MPG simply by renaming the files...becos .MOD is actually Mpeg2.

5. Window movie maker do not support mpeg2 as well...wait wait WAIT!...is .MPG the same as mpeg2????? mpg, mp2 and mpeg2 the same thing or different? what is the diff??

6. I have learn that the more I learn the more confuse I am.

7. I have also learn that the more difficult it is to learn the more I want to learn...Yet, It is slowing me down and frustrating me A LOT.

8. I have learn that being HUMBLE is REALLY A GREAT VIRTUE.

9. I have learn that EVERY APPLICATION COMES WITH AN APPLICATION FORM.

10. I have learn to take a straight bus from marina square to somerset and that the $5 Char siew rice at KENJI RAMEN(near somerset MRT)...is OIISHI!

That's all.

:)

I was telling JM...

I was telling JM...about my frustration for not making art...
He suggested that it could be because I am not experiencing any extreme emotions now...

Indeed, such an enlightenment for me...

This one year plus to me is quite a void.
But it doesn't mean I am unhappy.

I have concluded that the reason for my unproductivity is due to the fact that I am feeling too carefree now...
Too contented...
No extreme emotions and feelings..
Which is unhealthy for an artist...

Haha...what an irony...

And so...should I continue to be feeling neutral and peaceful with life...and be UNPRODUCTIVE
OR...make myself miserable to make art...

I really don't know.

What do I really want?

Mahjong philosophy II

It is about Skill, luck, probability, flexibiliy, adaptability and maybe...the colour of the bra you are wearing for the day...

To be continue...

Conversational topic of the day with KY

Yesterday KY and I had some interesting discussion about

-video codec
-video editing softwares
-computer technology
-movie critic
-gender stereotying issue
-computer history
-Ada Lovelace, a beautiful lady with nice hairdo who is the first computer programmer?
-X-men and why it is a good movie
-Batman, a bad movie
-Sociology, gender issues
-Cyberfeminism
-Art media and technology, interactive technology
-Robots which read facial gesture?
-Science fiction
-Men in Black
-Alien
-Time travel concept
-Back to the future
-Virus, human as virus
-Men are from Mars and Women from Venus
-Website design
-Audio terms
-Jap drama theme song
-Amelie and Billy Elliot are good movies
-Matrix
-Man and woman are the same?

More or less...any thing else to add KY?

All about RS and me.

And so, since I have been having VERY LONG chats with RS recently late in the night...
I shall write down a list of things I come to conclude from our recent topics...

1. Guys who are well-travelled and open-minded are attractive to us.
2. We have special feelings for UK.
3. We want to go aboard someday.
4. Typical singaporean man do not attract us.
5. I will not convert and become a christian and she understand that.
6. We love KLUNCH!
7. We are proud of our chinese standard.
8. She is having headaches from friends who tries to matchmake her to any guys available...
9. We both agree that the singlehood retirement plan is brilliant if we are left on the shelf.

Yah..that's about it.
Anything else to add RS?

Bear with me.

There have been conflicting ideas going on for my art.
And lots of confusion in fact.

Yet there is something very clear.
I need to MAKE SOMETHING NOW.

I have enough of looking at other people's work and feel
miserable about NOT PRODUCING.

Feel sick when I know I can do it but not doing anything.

Angry when I keep finding excuse not to work.

Hence, I was telling RS that I plan to use my ART itself as a self-check
to motivate myself to produce art.

My art, used to be a source of ventilation for my exploding thoughts...
And a record of my daily life...
Now has an additional function...
As a self-check and motivation...
Also, I always wish my art to be a window for people to see what I saw...

This beautiful world...my beautiful life.

Bear with me...

It's coming soon...

PROMISE!

Girls talk...

If you wonder what we girls talk about....
These are some of the topics I have explore so far...

- Boys
- Men
- History
- Politics
- Economics
- Travel
- Arts
- Technology
- Family
- Siblings
- Work stress
- Gossip
- Geography
- Literature
- Book reviews
- Music
- Religion
- Fashion
- Korean drama/Tv programme
- Environmental Issues
- Household DIY
- Computers
- Craftworks

Hmm...more or less like dat...

Sarcasm.

This is something everybody can do it...
but not everyone can do it beautifully...
For instance me, I can never be good with this because I am too kind and most of the time too soft hearted to be sarcastic.

To perform it with grace, you need to be ruthless.
A fair bit of humour is required to ease the tension of being rude.
You also need a certain amount of reference and wits to give your sarcasm content. Finally, you just need a silly statement from your victim to trigger your talent.

CQ is an expert with this. He flaunt his sarcasm like composing poems...and overwhelm you with awe...especially when his sarcasm reaches a point of mattter of fact... Until I was almost always..taken in.
However, to reach this kind of standard of being sarcastic is not easy.
I realise he himself suffer from occasional confusion in expressing himself in order to perform sarcasm to perfection.

Finally, some words of advice...
Do not attempt sarcasm if you cannot handle conseqences...
A bit of sarcasm can be entertaining but too much can be annoying...
For guys, wrong kind of sarcasm makes you look ugly,
and wrong kind of sarcasm from gals makes you look bitchy.
So BEware!

Mahjong philosophy

The following only makes sense if you know how to play mahjong.

Different people have different experience in playing every mahjong game. Just like different people goes through different kind of life.
A game of mahjong is just like life itself.

You may have a good start but doesn't mean you will win.

You may have a bad start but doesn't mean you will lose.

You may have a strong front, but could be really weak inside...

You may have nothing in front but a strong formation inside...

You will not know who wins until the very end.

To be continued...

10 things I learn this week.

1. Thanks to the instruction manual...I learn to set up a Canon colour bubble jet printer and install the driver successfully at second attempt. The first time fail because I forget to test print and got to uninstall and install all over again.

2. If you couldn't find something that is suppose to be on the table...then it must be under it. That is my mobile...it took me 2 days to decide to look underneath the table and found it!..before that i ransack my entire room to no avail.Thanks to my nanny who insist I lift the table.

3. Rainy days can ruin swimming plan. That was an excuse, but a valid one. The real reason was because I was lazy and it happens to rain. This is a realisation after self accessment.

4. Teaching children drawing pays you about $16 per hour. I was given an offer to teach by my art agent...It cost about $16 per hour. I rejected it because it was in Queenstown. My agent told me.

5. Keri Keri is a city up north in New Zealand. CQ told me.

6. Auckland is in New Zealand. CQ sarcastically says "No, it is in africa"...which means "YES, it is in NZ"...if you know how to interpret his sarcasm.

7. The shops in New Zealand also closes at 5pm like UK.

8. The staff canteen in changi airport closes at 8pm.

9. This year's sakura blooming season in Tokyo is NOT as beautiful as previous...because it bloom too early and die prematurely...YQ told me.

10. You have to submit your thesis in Japanese if you study MA in Japan...again YQ told me.

Quite a nice song...

Lovely voice from Sheila Majid and Lin Yu Zhong....

Melodi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Md56h8gwPDw

Go watch it bah!

Hey!...MOVE YOUR ASS, BITCH!

Yah MAN!

MOVE your FAt ASS LEh...

StOP YouR DAMn LAmE LiFE aNd do YOur STuFf !

FoR buddHA SakE!

ArH mi TUo FuO.....

sHan zAi ShAn Zai....

Off to meet the hobbits!

HEy!...off to meet the hobbits...

Ohh...I wish I can go...
DAMN!..CQ is already on his way for a 4 months trip...
Not envy at all...BUT FULL OF JEALOUS!

I wonder how pissed I will be when he came back to show off his holiday pics...of course I still look forward to look at them...

Nevertheless... all the best and enjoy the trip!

Take care yo!

STOP BEING LAZY!

EH!...STOP BEING LAZY GIRL!
YOU SHOULD BE DOING SOME WORK NOW.
SINCE YOU ARE SO FREE AND ALWAYS COMPLAINING ABOUT NOT HAVING ENOUGH TIME TO PRACTICE AS A FULL TIME ARTIST...YOU SHOULD BE DOING SOMETHING NOW SINCE YOU ARE SO FUCKING FREE!!!!!

WAKE UP! MOVE YOU BUTT!

START DOING SOMETHING!

BORED!

I AM SO BORED!!!!!

Something I learn in 2004...

You learn something everyday. If you ever notice it.

Today, I learn something in less than 5 minutes.

My lesson today teach me NOT to wear sandals in WINTER even for 2 minutes.

It is 12.45am.

I am one of those people that make the mama shop along the street outside my house decide to operate 24 hour like a 7-eleven. By the way Glasgow does not have 7-eleven.

It was 12.30am..and I am going to start my journey to burn midnight oils for my essay writing. I saw the pathetic left over toilet paper on the table and foresee that I am going to run out of it before daybreak...I decided that it is not going to helpful especially when you will pee a lot in winter...and I am going to drink a lot of green tea tonight to keep myself fully awake. I decided to risk the freezing winter to run out and buy toilet rolls. Afterall, the shops are just 2 minutes away my house...how cold can I get.

I put on my bubble jacket and slip into my SANDALS....and ran out of the house....

First 10 seconds...fine...not very cold..still can tahan...then 30 seconds past...I saw the shop....my hands stuff in pockets....one minute past...er..not so fine...

I realise my toes are feeling tingling....1 minute 30 second later....where are my toes....?...i cant feel a thing...and 2 minutes later...I reach the shop.

Ah....thawing session begins...as I busied myself choosing which colour I should buy for my toilet paper...the ang moh here like their toilet papers to be coloured....although eventually it will be flush away with shit.....I just wonder which one will give a better colour combination with it.

In the end...after some struggle...I choose pink instead of green. That is becos I reckon pink will feel softer although they are both the same...just something psychological...then comes the 2 minutes ordeal again...this time was much tougher than the first run out of my room...becos back than I was nice and warm in my own room....first 10 seconds...not good already...freezing....why in the world did I wear sandals in winter...stupid....1 minute past...toes painfully losing senses....as I did not fully thaw when I was in the shop...hence refreezing becomes much more difficult to bear...1 minute 30 seconds.....I will NEVER wear sandals in winter ever again...as I speed past the trash collection area ...and then...my apartment....open the door frantically as if someone is behind following me....step into my room...

and AHHHH......thawing....

(This was written in November 2004, Glasgow, during winter. I am doing housekeeping with my old word files and found this...nothing is too late to share...)

Split ends...

While I was trimming my split-end...which I always do...I suddenly have this urge to snip off more than that tiny bit of my hair...

I am fed up with myself for not cutting my hair...

I push my luck further by cutting off...a few more centimetres upwards...and not one hair...but a tiny few strands...many more than ten strands....whahaha....that is nothing..because it makes no difference to my bushy long hair...I won’t miss that tiny bit of hair being cut off...in a spur of moment...

yet...i felt a tiny weeny bit of pain...in the slightest sensation of pain from somewhere in my heart when I hear the snipping sound of the scissors cutting those pathetic few strands of hair....and...the weirdiest of all....though I felt the pain...I am sure there is...I am actually very excited about it...that I have cut it.

SO what does it mean?


(This was something I typed and saved in my computer in 2005 but forget to post on my blog...thought it was nice..)

Spare me the agony

It was one of those casual moments when I type in my blogspot URL...and I enter this site instead...

http://www.frillyobject.blogpsot.com/

It was a typo.

I suspect when RS click on this URL and see what I saw now...she would be secretly be smiling to herself and tell me "SEE!...It's your fate...blah blah...this is a hint!"

While I am thinking...why in the world would a christian website has such a URL as frillyobject??? Funny, ha.

Scan through..concluded yet again...well...sorry folks to disappoint you...


NO, THANK YOU.

Let's put it in this way...like what I told RS...

I see this religious issue like chocolate.

Something a lot of people around love...CRAVE...
But to me...I just hate it.
I am also aware that people who offer me chocolate meant well..because eating chocolate really make them very happy...
However, personally, please do not try to offer me chocolate again.
I really don't like it.

Spare me the agony...

Show me mercy...

FOR YOUR GOD SAKE.

Please.

:)

MY LAPTOP CRASH!

First time.
This is his first time.
There had been times when i can feel it coming but never came.
But just 3 days ago...it crashed.

It appears to be normal all the while.
I was still watching youtube...and perform the usual various task such as listening to music...blogging, and msn-ing...everything seems too normal...no symtoms...

Then I shut down the normal ways...

Yet, 2 hours later when i try to start up....

I realise how hell look like for me for that moment. It flashes and reboot on and off...but couldn't start up....then it hits the blue screen and declare DEAD.

I was pulling my hair off...and felt like crying...

But there is no tears...

3.30am.

I mass SMS a few friends for SOS...it felt as if it was my baby running a high fever and i would have knock on someone's door crying for help in the middle of the night if i knew anyone can cure him. Someone save my baby pleaseeeee...

The first to reply was my brother at 4am.

I was touched. He left me 2 numbers to call for technical assistance as he is leaving singapore the next morning to CHINA.

Another was LQ. I am well aware that she can't help my baby...but her concern...HELPS ME. that is 4.20am already.

There are just people you can call at 4am. Those are people dearest to you most of the time. The last time I did that was when there was a rat in my room in Glasgow...I called my Bro.

2 other friends reply my sms the next morning..special thanks to them, SY and YH.

Next day, CQ was kind enough to ask me to bring my baby along to meet him and try fix it while we are at KTV. But it din work. Thanks anyway.

As I was already tight on my deadline, Ah guan offer his desktop at home for me to do my work...it was the only solution then as anyway his sis, my best friend was at home too...

The best part came unexpectedly when Kiat, ah guan's brother in the end SAVE MY BABY! I ask him to take a look and see if he can save it...worse come to worst reformat it so that at least i can start working on it....while fixing...I was served yummy supper of kaya toast and scramble eggs by guan...which I want to thank him by the way...

With the help on KY who sent me a link online to try out...Kiat finally manage to start up my computer on save mode...and fix up the problem...and even help me do a clean up...until 4 am at night...I really am more than grateful...THANK YOU SO MUCH!

In the end...MY BABY SURVIVED!

And not only that....this event also makes me realise yet again that life is beautiful and so are people around you....

So beautiful...

Thank you.

Yes...another sleepless night.

Yes...it is another sleepness night for me.
I am not surprise.

6.17am.
Another morning.

I made a wow discovery just a few days ago...
I found out that the sunrise from the back of my flat is lovely...
Not any less stunning compared to the sunrises I have seen in other countries...afterall it is the same sun...of course it is not the best...
but it is beautiful enough for you to stare at it...in awe.

Borrowed a rather interesting book today.
"The accidental Masterpiece-On the Art of Life and Vice Versa"

Inside...at the end page of the book..it says " art can be found almost anywhere and everywhere, if only our eyes are trained to see it...to do so is something of an art itself..."

And so my point is...

Yes, I lost my sleep...but I gain a beautiful morning.