THE SHOES.

Remember this posting a few months ago....the pair of strippy shoes i like....
I bought them finally...


I walk past that shop again today and notice a new display....and look at that...the one in the middle...ahhh...I LOVEEE that colour... 

It was a long long story in fact.

A few days ago...I was walking past the shop which is closed....but I noticed that the shop is actually marking down prices for shoes from the previous season....3 month after I have given up hope to buy that pair of shoes...I thought i should
go back and find out....saw both the brown and orange strippy shoes on sale with a £10 discount...which means...it only cost £24.99!!!!....I love the orange one yet i know the brown one will be more pratical to match my clothes...in the end..i ask the shop assisitant to get me size 5 for both colours becos i cannot decided.....she came back and told me the orange dun have any size 5 and the brown one is the last pair left and i bought it....

Reach home....and felt guilty that I have speed a day's pay to buy a pair of shoes....hesitate for 2 days...wear the shoes a couple of time around my room and realise size 5 is size 38....and it is a bit too big...becos i amused to size 37 which is size 4.5.....so i have decided...if am speeing my money...i should spend it on the correct and comoftable pair...and moreover...it is not the orange pair i want...i decided toget it refund....

I went back....thinking i would just change the size....i ask the shop assisitant to check if it has size 4.5 ......then...she came back and say....that there isn't any 4.5 for the brown shoes....BUT!...there is one last pair for the ORANGE PAIR!!!!!!...I am delighted....at first i thought if they dun have size 4.5....i would just refund and be happy ....then i change my mind....and grab the orange pair to the cashier to do the exchange.....

To my surprise...I got another bonus...the last orange pair was further mark down to £19.99....cash cannot be refund...but i was given a £5 cash voucher......

I am now happy with my new orange strippy shoes....will put them on and take a picture to post online next time...

Till then,,,,

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I worked in a bank.

I have been working in a bank for 3 weeks.
It is indeed a boring job.
But i wouldn't say i learn nothing.
Afterall you learn something everyday...

But shit...library is closing soon...
i shall tell you guys about it tomolo!

Take care everyone...including that person who leave the crap comment.

See you!

150805

Crap!

I crave comments...I like to know what people think....BUT...i never did know that JUNK COMMENTS exist...until today!...
just scroll down and see my previous post...i mean the comments...CRAP!

Thanks for the comments...yah...thanks...whoever post it...

Meanwhile...all other comments are still welcome!

Yeah...i am happy today actually.

Happy.

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Rootless cloud...

There are more than one reason why i am holding onto this fragile realtionship...
One of them is because i feel rootless.
I used to have this nightmare of myself floating away uncontrollably...and struggling to get my foot to the ground....
which is DAMN SCARY!...
And i always noe i am a floaty person...
like my chinese name....
the word "yun" means cloud...but my "yun" had a "grass" character attached to it...
signifying adding roots to clouds...so that it is more stable...i guess....
and yes...i need something to hold onto...before i get blown away and lost myself...
I need a base....
I need somewhere to go home to...
I need someone whom i can rest my heart with...
so that whenever...and wherever i go...they is a home for my heart and soul...

I like to wander around the world...but that is provided...my heart is settled...so that my body can wonder in peace..if this make sense to all of you...

it make sense to me at least...

By the way...today is Singapore's national Day...
Count on me singapore!

090805

Who is the ONE?

What happens when you meet the right guy...at the wrong time...?

Yahui's analysis is....he is then...the WRONG ONE.

Or the wrong guy at the right time?...

Still WRONG.

So...it must be the right guy at the right time...

which can be really hard...
that is why...we have to cherish affinity...

er..last queistion...

what happens if he is the wrong guy at the wrong time?..

Ok stupid question....

Just so difficult to find the ONE...where is my NEO...

bless me...

050805

The thing about long hair and man...and me..

Ok...there are 2 issues about long hair and man...
One is their obssession with woman who has long hair(me?)
the other is growing long hair themselves...

The first one...is commonly known.
It seems to me that man like women with long hair...
i din keep my hair becos of that though...
there are statistic to actually shows this...
people me around are solid examples ...
my brother goes crazy when he sees a long hair girl...
but he never did appreciate his own baby sister long hair(me)...
he complains that they are everywhere in the house...
but he likes one whenever he sees one...


Then it is about man having long hair...
Once heard a friend say...that a man will have long hair at least once in their life time...
It's like...they want to know what it's like...sort of experimenting with their potential of having a long hair look..
and effects...or want to feel wild at some point of their life...usually when they are young...
and when they had enough of it...is satisfy with the experiment or had drawn enough conclusion from their attempt...they will just cut it off....and keep short..becos they are too lazy to really take care of it...
My brothers...both of them had long hair when they are much younger...
now...they just couldn't be bother...
my love...he used to have long curly hair....which i find it look rather amusing...not bad though...
now..he just like to shave it whenever he finds it annoying...
the conclusion is...once they have grown out of it...
the actual word is...mature enough...
they will just cut it.
Was talking about this in the office today with a colleague...
saw an application with the applicants sending in IDs for verifications...one had a "before" and the other the "after look" long hair and short haired....he looks really good with long hair...like those hunk in romance stories...short hair...he looks good too...but definitely more down to earth and real...
both nevertheless...my colleague and i both agree he is gorgeous...

haha...anyway...so much for the hair issue...
for girl...i am not sure if I am ever enough of my long hair...
somehow it is more like a cycle...
i will had enough one day and decide to cut it really short or even shave it...
and grow it all over again...for years...and cut again.....
dun noe...maybe when i am older...
i will just keep it short like my mum...
hmm...so..maybe it is not only a guy's mentality...
maybe...when i had enough....that is it...
i just dun noe when that is...
we shall see...

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Artist Residencies...

Is hoping to survive as a practicing artist thru artist residencies...
and is on top of all my agendas including my love...
Travel and practice art is a dream...love is something that will come by if it does....
practice is practrice...art is art...

and so...my next stop...regardless of watever...is MANCHESTER CHINESE ART CENTRE..I hope.

040805

My horoscope for the day tells me this...

"THERE IS NO point in wondering when all you have to do is ask? Instead of staring wistfully out the window why don't you knock on someone's door and see if they answer it or not? Venus is guiding you, is that a big enough hint?"

Maybe I should just ask...yah...

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Enough.

Spend the whole time thinking...and thinking....
I have decided to believe in him.
Woman are stupid not because we are, but we choose to be.
For me, I choose to believe.

It is just too easy to have doubts...
and you need to be very very brave to believe...
To doubt just makes you more miserable...
To believe is to have hope...
The most is just to be very hurt...at least then i know i really had loved...

I believe him.
This is enough.

030805

Again and again...

I have been telling you people that things is coming to an end...blah blah...
so many times....i guess everyone is yawning already....
apparently...I don't want things to really end....

I guess I need more time then i think I would need...
not to forget...but to put him somewhere in my heart so remote that it won't be able to trigger any senses in my heart...

I am not sure if i can face him when he comes back...

maybe i think too much...

maybe he did love me.

Ok..there i go again...

I shut up.

020805

The mysterious girlfriend...

The mystery of whether that lovely girl is his girlfriend or not, is never solved.
I am sure she was...but I don't know if she still is...not even sure if she is when she came for the degree show..and after....

It was never answered...that is because i never did ask him.

Now...It is not important anymore....

yet...i am still very bothered by it.

Is she or is she not?

Can you tell me, please?

020805

Writing to happiness....

I was checking out JM' blog...and I realise he wasn't blogging that much lately....he said...he is out of depression that is why...
which means the more depress he is...the more he writes...

For me, It is the opposite...though i already knew we are opposite in many ways...this is yet another thing...

I write when I am happy...
I am happy when i write...
the cycle goes on...the happier i am the more i write...
the more i write...the happier i am...

That is why you see me flood the columns when I am falling in love....
and see the lines disappearing when my heart is broken....

When I am happy...i want the whole world to know...
when i am sad...I just want to disappear in thin air...

the sadder i am...the quieter i become...both mentally and physically....
i will shut down and stop talking...I will keep so quiet that people will not realise that i even exist...

And so...i am not that sad to keep too quiet...
but have got nothing to say really becos i am not too happy as well...
at this point...
I am just waiting...

for something to come to an end...

If this is ever going to end...

It is so painful now...i wish he can just say he dun love me anymore....

So that i can just put a fullstop to this.

Uncertainty is beautiful....yet so painful...

Then JM reminded me...there is nothing to wait for actually...
nothing has happen in the first place.
Nothing...
I got his point eventually...
Totally.

I guess i shall be very quiet for a while...

020805

Being a woman is not easy...

Indeed...ladies out there...nodding your heads aready???..
We have too much to think about....not as if the man dun...but you see...it is easy for a man...to pursue whatever...and assume the woman they love will always be by their side wherever they go...but for woman....is it logical if i say...i hope my man will be by my side wherever i go?..i mean..give up his dreams and follow me...it would be ridiculous...and i won't want that to happen either...and so...how will it work...?
I dun believe in long distance relationship...too painful and impractical....

So...if i want to do what i want to do...

What do i really want?
ok...I am not speaking logically already...am I?

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