Writing to happiness....

I was checking out JM' blog...and I realise he wasn't blogging that much lately....he said...he is out of depression that is why...
which means the more depress he is...the more he writes...

For me, It is the opposite...though i already knew we are opposite in many ways...this is yet another thing...

I write when I am happy...
I am happy when i write...
the cycle goes on...the happier i am the more i write...
the more i write...the happier i am...

That is why you see me flood the columns when I am falling in love....
and see the lines disappearing when my heart is broken....

When I am happy...i want the whole world to know...
when i am sad...I just want to disappear in thin air...

the sadder i am...the quieter i become...both mentally and physically....
i will shut down and stop talking...I will keep so quiet that people will not realise that i even exist...

And so...i am not that sad to keep too quiet...
but have got nothing to say really becos i am not too happy as well...
at this point...
I am just waiting...

for something to come to an end...

If this is ever going to end...

It is so painful now...i wish he can just say he dun love me anymore....

So that i can just put a fullstop to this.

Uncertainty is beautiful....yet so painful...

Then JM reminded me...there is nothing to wait for actually...
nothing has happen in the first place.
Nothing...
I got his point eventually...
Totally.

I guess i shall be very quiet for a while...

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