Friday, March 30, 2007
The photo I love and hate...
Love it...isn't he cute...
Hate it...this photo is taken by Derrick and NOT me.
What am I doing now?
It is 6.53am in the morning...logically I never wake up this early for no reasons...indeed...I did not.
I am just too wide awake since last night...
Nowadays...I am so lerthergic until I can do NOTHING.
And nothing means practically nothing.
This is the time of my life again...to hate myself.
As the cycle will goes...my productive peroid is coming soon...I look forward to it really...
I am excited myself to see what I am capable of producing...
I really do hope I am doing something...
The only thing I am glad is...I am still blogging...
My mind is still active at least...
Thank buddha for that.
I am just too wide awake since last night...
Nowadays...I am so lerthergic until I can do NOTHING.
And nothing means practically nothing.
This is the time of my life again...to hate myself.
As the cycle will goes...my productive peroid is coming soon...I look forward to it really...
I am excited myself to see what I am capable of producing...
I really do hope I am doing something...
The only thing I am glad is...I am still blogging...
My mind is still active at least...
Thank buddha for that.
10 songs on my current playlist...
1. Let's stay together-Algreen
2. My Cherie Amour- Stevie wonder
3. You make me want to fall in love- F.I.R
4. 关于我们之间的事- 张震岳
5. 失恋学-林宇中
6. 精舞门-罗志祥
7. A man and a woman- U2
8. I think I - Full house soundtrack...
9. I Heard A Rumour- Bananarama
10. I Only Want To Be With You- Dusty springfield
2. My Cherie Amour- Stevie wonder
3. You make me want to fall in love- F.I.R
4. 关于我们之间的事- 张震岳
5. 失恋学-林宇中
6. 精舞门-罗志祥
7. A man and a woman- U2
8. I think I - Full house soundtrack...
9. I Heard A Rumour- Bananarama
10. I Only Want To Be With You- Dusty springfield
Thursday, March 29, 2007
I should be a BELGIAN!
RS, my friend proudly declared that she should be a SWISS! on her blog...according to the quiz "Which european nationality should you have?"that she had taken online and this trigger my curiosity...
How about me?
I should be a BELGIAN...
Yes...I took the test too.
I have got a high score of 88% for having a high potiential of being a belgian if I am a european...and followed by 75%, a tie between Irish, Swiss, Danish,Italian and German(in no particular order)...63% for Spanish, russian, British Dutch....then in decending order...French, Polish, turkish...
I wonder what makes me a belgian...I really hate chocolate by the way.
Anyway,
here is the test---> http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=198104
How about me?
I should be a BELGIAN...
Yes...I took the test too.
I have got a high score of 88% for having a high potiential of being a belgian if I am a european...and followed by 75%, a tie between Irish, Swiss, Danish,Italian and German(in no particular order)...63% for Spanish, russian, British Dutch....then in decending order...French, Polish, turkish...
I wonder what makes me a belgian...I really hate chocolate by the way.
Anyway,
here is the test---> http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=198104
Saturday, March 24, 2007
The hurtest of a breakup...
After seeing too many...
I realise the hurtest part of a breakup...is not when he says we are still friends...or watever shit they may offer after the breakup...
but to tell you they are attached again...
or worse getting married...
Not that we are so selfish to deny other people of searching for their own happiness...but you will start to think...how can this person who claimed that he loves you so much and how much one moment can love someone else so quickly...
It takes time. Of course maybe after some odds years if someone I used to love tells me he is getting married finally...I will be happy for him...but I definitely do not wish to know that he had YET another fling after he hurt me and someone is going to be hurt again...
For those who are so hurt, BE STRONG!
MEanwhile, if you happen to be NOT hurt during a breakup...then be smart to realise you could be the person who might have hurt somebody...in that case...
At least be considerate to the person you once claimed you have loved...
Please.
I realise the hurtest part of a breakup...is not when he says we are still friends...or watever shit they may offer after the breakup...
but to tell you they are attached again...
or worse getting married...
Not that we are so selfish to deny other people of searching for their own happiness...but you will start to think...how can this person who claimed that he loves you so much and how much one moment can love someone else so quickly...
It takes time. Of course maybe after some odds years if someone I used to love tells me he is getting married finally...I will be happy for him...but I definitely do not wish to know that he had YET another fling after he hurt me and someone is going to be hurt again...
For those who are so hurt, BE STRONG!
MEanwhile, if you happen to be NOT hurt during a breakup...then be smart to realise you could be the person who might have hurt somebody...in that case...
At least be considerate to the person you once claimed you have loved...
Please.
Left on the shelf again...
Sorry, it's the same old boring issue regarding being left on the shelf...
But I want to highlight the real reason why I hope I am off the shelf.
Not that I need a man so badly. But I need a baby.
My maternal instinct is so strong that I suspect I have a high tendency for kidnapping somebody's baby...and really hopes to have one myself one fine day, if not, many.
I think I told too many about this...and it is nothing new already...
If I am still single by 40(initially it was 35...but I reckon...i should give myself more years), I probably will adopt one...or even have one artificially.
Seriously, I mean it.
But I want to highlight the real reason why I hope I am off the shelf.
Not that I need a man so badly. But I need a baby.
My maternal instinct is so strong that I suspect I have a high tendency for kidnapping somebody's baby...and really hopes to have one myself one fine day, if not, many.
I think I told too many about this...and it is nothing new already...
If I am still single by 40(initially it was 35...but I reckon...i should give myself more years), I probably will adopt one...or even have one artificially.
Seriously, I mean it.
Left on the shelf...
Today I was chatting with CQ regarding my worries for not able to find someone to spend the rest of my life with...and he commented that he can imagine the scenerio of a sad old lonely woman having a lot of cats and dogs at home...and feeds pigeons in the park during the weekends...which is supposed to be me.
Scare the shit out of me...I didn't tell him.
In sort, I am worry about being left on the shelf.
However, it becomes a mixed feeling when RS told me the statistics for divorce rates in Singapore is actually one third. Meaning out of 3 happily married couples we see walking out of the registry of marriage...1 will end up divorced.
How sad...meaning, even if you are married, it does not garuantee that there will be someone to spend the rest of the life with you...
Then, ladies and gentlemen, what is the point?
Let's analyse this... because of this depressing lost of faith in marriage, more and more people choose to be single rather than marriage which means...there are now more on the shelf then what we initially picture as "LEFT" on the shelf...not to mention those which are back on the shelf...
People who are OFF the shelf in the beginning could ended up as refund items and put back on the shelf...while people still on the shelf seems to be plenty.
So what does left on the shelf means now?
It only means that it is rather HAPPENING now on the shelf.
Plenty are on the shelf and no one is LEFT out.
Everybody has everybody.
Worse come to worst....
Just imagine...bunches of old single happy ladies forming a nice humble community who can support themselves...adopts some children and have some cats and dogs running in the garden...do cooking ,knitting, goes shopping or watch DVDs together...
Not a bad thing...
Do you get what I mean?
Are you with me?
Scare the shit out of me...I didn't tell him.
In sort, I am worry about being left on the shelf.
However, it becomes a mixed feeling when RS told me the statistics for divorce rates in Singapore is actually one third. Meaning out of 3 happily married couples we see walking out of the registry of marriage...1 will end up divorced.
How sad...meaning, even if you are married, it does not garuantee that there will be someone to spend the rest of the life with you...
Then, ladies and gentlemen, what is the point?
Let's analyse this... because of this depressing lost of faith in marriage, more and more people choose to be single rather than marriage which means...there are now more on the shelf then what we initially picture as "LEFT" on the shelf...not to mention those which are back on the shelf...
People who are OFF the shelf in the beginning could ended up as refund items and put back on the shelf...while people still on the shelf seems to be plenty.
So what does left on the shelf means now?
It only means that it is rather HAPPENING now on the shelf.
Plenty are on the shelf and no one is LEFT out.
Everybody has everybody.
Worse come to worst....
Just imagine...bunches of old single happy ladies forming a nice humble community who can support themselves...adopts some children and have some cats and dogs running in the garden...do cooking ,knitting, goes shopping or watch DVDs together...
Not a bad thing...
Do you get what I mean?
Are you with me?
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Wear your heart on your sleeve...
Saw this line from a credit card commercial...
Trigger a lot of interest in me and went to do a search online on this phrase...
http://www.goenglish.com/WearYourHeartOnYourSleeve.asp
"People who wear their heart on their sleeve express their emotions freely and openly, for all to see."
http://www.answers.com/topic/wear-your-heart-on-your-sleeve
"Also, pin one's heart on one's sleeve. Openly show one's feelings, especially amorous ones.
For example, You can't help but see how he feels about her; he wears his heart on his sleeve. This expression alludes to the former custom of tying a woman's favor to her lover's sleeve, thereby announcing their attachment.
Shakespeare had it in Othello (1:1): "But I will wear my heart upon my sleeve for daws to peck at." "
Ah such a nice feeling...how poetic...
Do you wear you heart on your sleeve?
Trigger a lot of interest in me and went to do a search online on this phrase...
http://www.goenglish.com/WearYourHeartOnYourSleeve.asp
"People who wear their heart on their sleeve express their emotions freely and openly, for all to see."
http://www.answers.com/topic/wear-your-heart-on-your-sleeve
"Also, pin one's heart on one's sleeve. Openly show one's feelings, especially amorous ones.
For example, You can't help but see how he feels about her; he wears his heart on his sleeve. This expression alludes to the former custom of tying a woman's favor to her lover's sleeve, thereby announcing their attachment.
Shakespeare had it in Othello (1:1): "But I will wear my heart upon my sleeve for daws to peck at." "
Ah such a nice feeling...how poetic...
Do you wear you heart on your sleeve?
Makes life more bearable...
It is not the first time...and it will not be the last time someone said that I am childish.
I do not intend to deny this as I am well aware that I actually am.
In fact, I am proud of it.
As an artist, childishness is a gift.
If growing up means losing the ability to express your happiness or sadness freely and being true to yourself...I rather be childish.
The strong front that many put up just to prove that they have grown up simply makes life more miserable...
In another words, a quote from ZJ,
"(Childishness)....makes life more bearable..."
Indeed.
I do not intend to deny this as I am well aware that I actually am.
In fact, I am proud of it.
As an artist, childishness is a gift.
If growing up means losing the ability to express your happiness or sadness freely and being true to yourself...I rather be childish.
The strong front that many put up just to prove that they have grown up simply makes life more miserable...
In another words, a quote from ZJ,
"(Childishness)....makes life more bearable..."
Indeed.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Heart, brain and body matter
It is about decicision making...and making something happen...
Often the case...your brain tells you to do something...but your heart is reluctant...
Or...your heart wants to do something...your body is reluctant....
And so....in reality....to make watever decsion and do watever in the end...
It really is a heart, brain and body thing to make it happen...
Heart, brain and body matter...
Often the case...your brain tells you to do something...but your heart is reluctant...
Or...your heart wants to do something...your body is reluctant....
And so....in reality....to make watever decsion and do watever in the end...
It really is a heart, brain and body thing to make it happen...
Heart, brain and body matter...
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
No hard feelings....please.
Below is a posting about religious issue which might be offensive. If you think you will be mad after reading it...and shall never speak to me again because of this posting...PLEASE DO NOT READ IT. I do NOT want to lost a friend. However, I still choose to post it...because I want to be honest. And if you choose to read beyond this line, I take it as a promise that you will not be angry.
I was strongly contested when I mention "going to heaven is all an illusion"...when I was watching a movie which involves christianity...
It was a wrong move...because i was watching the movie with 2 christians friends.
I was critisize for making irresponsible remarks simply by the fact that if I do not know about what it really is...then i have no rights to make such remarks. Of course...I understand the logic behind if you wanna rebute something...you got to understand it before u rebute it. So it was my fault for making such remarks ALOUD. I should have say that loudly DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART to avoid the tongue-slashing.
Ok, my greatest apology.
I choose not to defence myself then was because I did not want to start an arguement. It could be hurting to argue about religion.
It could jeopardise friendship. And I do not want anything like this to happen. And I am in no position to win this arguement , not because I think they are right but because I dread the part where they can throw a giant bible to me and demand me to read it before I want to start the arguement. Which in the first place, I DO NOT WISH TO KNOW WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT. This issue in no longer about how you can prove something...if it is not relevant in your life..then it is NOT relevant.
Let's put it this way.
I am simply NOT INTERESTED.
While I am appreciate my friends intention when my christian friends say GOD bless you to me...I hope they understand why I say "I think it is all an illusion" It's like...they simply have the rights to impose their religious believe into my world...and I cannot share my free-thinker view to them.
Religious issue are forever sensitive...and we all know this long ago...
I shall remind myself to shut up next time if i want to make any comments on religious reference...but then..I hope our friendship can stand the test of religous seperation...while I do not have to practice censorship to myself even in front of my closest friends....
Not trying to pick a fight or start an arguement here friends.
Just want to let you know how I feel honestly.
And please spare me the agony...
NO hard feelings!
ok?
LOVE AND PEACE.
I was strongly contested when I mention "going to heaven is all an illusion"...when I was watching a movie which involves christianity...
It was a wrong move...because i was watching the movie with 2 christians friends.
I was critisize for making irresponsible remarks simply by the fact that if I do not know about what it really is...then i have no rights to make such remarks. Of course...I understand the logic behind if you wanna rebute something...you got to understand it before u rebute it. So it was my fault for making such remarks ALOUD. I should have say that loudly DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART to avoid the tongue-slashing.
Ok, my greatest apology.
I choose not to defence myself then was because I did not want to start an arguement. It could be hurting to argue about religion.
It could jeopardise friendship. And I do not want anything like this to happen. And I am in no position to win this arguement , not because I think they are right but because I dread the part where they can throw a giant bible to me and demand me to read it before I want to start the arguement. Which in the first place, I DO NOT WISH TO KNOW WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT. This issue in no longer about how you can prove something...if it is not relevant in your life..then it is NOT relevant.
Let's put it this way.
I am simply NOT INTERESTED.
While I am appreciate my friends intention when my christian friends say GOD bless you to me...I hope they understand why I say "I think it is all an illusion" It's like...they simply have the rights to impose their religious believe into my world...and I cannot share my free-thinker view to them.
Religious issue are forever sensitive...and we all know this long ago...
I shall remind myself to shut up next time if i want to make any comments on religious reference...but then..I hope our friendship can stand the test of religous seperation...while I do not have to practice censorship to myself even in front of my closest friends....
Not trying to pick a fight or start an arguement here friends.
Just want to let you know how I feel honestly.
And please spare me the agony...
NO hard feelings!
ok?
LOVE AND PEACE.
Wadever belongs to me....
The below posting is inspired by CQ.
He mentioned to me one day that " Wadever belongs to me shall be female." Eg. His bike's a lady...which he rides on everyday...
And so...I was inspired....decide to do some genderlisation for my properties...
For example...
My lip balm shall be MALE...kiss him all the time whenever I like...
My Pillow .....I sleep with him all night...
Comfy Shoes are female....go shopping with me...
As for gay...are those clothes and shoes which looks nice on display...
bought it but can't wear and doesn't fit....
Or never have the occassion to put on...
So much for the crap....
but so interestingly appropriate...
Don'cha think?
He mentioned to me one day that " Wadever belongs to me shall be female." Eg. His bike's a lady...which he rides on everyday...
And so...I was inspired....decide to do some genderlisation for my properties...
For example...
My lip balm shall be MALE...kiss him all the time whenever I like...
My Pillow .....I sleep with him all night...
Comfy Shoes are female....go shopping with me...
As for gay...are those clothes and shoes which looks nice on display...
bought it but can't wear and doesn't fit....
Or never have the occassion to put on...
So much for the crap....
but so interestingly appropriate...
Don'cha think?
钓鱼 VS 撒网
Was telling the girls about my travel encounters during the gathering last sunday....
And one of my friend KS ask me if i gave the guys i met overseas my contact....
I tried to recall....I only gave out one name card despite the fact that i have a dozen in my bag...
And she point out to me...."不可以钓鱼...要撒网才行..."
She meant...I shouldn't be fishing with one bait and wait...I should be casting my net into the sea and trowl the whole school for one....
That is wisdom of the day for me.
It enlightens me the reason why I am still left on the shelf until now.
It struck me that I haven't been fishing at all...
I don't even have a bait...in the first place...
And the worst thing is...I should be casting a net now if i really want a catch...
But I do know what is stopping me...
I have been observing the fishes around me...
and none give me the urge to cast my fishing line...
not to mention I should be casting a net by now...judging from the urgency...3 years from now and I will be 30...
BUT, I don't want to catch a fish for the sake of catching it...
Meanhwhile...i reckon what i am doing now...is more like putting my legs into the water...and let fishes swim by to tickle me.... and see if I like that feeling...
No net...no bait...no catch...
Yet,
I am happy...and so is the fish.
I believe.
And one of my friend KS ask me if i gave the guys i met overseas my contact....
I tried to recall....I only gave out one name card despite the fact that i have a dozen in my bag...
And she point out to me...."不可以钓鱼...要撒网才行..."
She meant...I shouldn't be fishing with one bait and wait...I should be casting my net into the sea and trowl the whole school for one....
That is wisdom of the day for me.
It enlightens me the reason why I am still left on the shelf until now.
It struck me that I haven't been fishing at all...
I don't even have a bait...in the first place...
And the worst thing is...I should be casting a net now if i really want a catch...
But I do know what is stopping me...
I have been observing the fishes around me...
and none give me the urge to cast my fishing line...
not to mention I should be casting a net by now...judging from the urgency...3 years from now and I will be 30...
BUT, I don't want to catch a fish for the sake of catching it...
Meanhwhile...i reckon what i am doing now...is more like putting my legs into the water...and let fishes swim by to tickle me.... and see if I like that feeling...
No net...no bait...no catch...
Yet,
I am happy...and so is the fish.
I believe.
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