How deep is your love...or mine...?

Love da feeling that i am writing again..technically...typing to be precise.
The intense feeling of love fades away as time goes by...but that doesn't mean i dun love him anymore...
it only means I can see this relationship with a clearer mind...and calmer heart...

Too tired to ask how deep is his love for me...
Maybe for a girl...we always like to noe this...
But now...What i am trying to access is how deep is my love..for him...

First of all...most certainly... I know...I love him.
Then...the question is how much.
Love means a million things to me.
I love the view from my window...
i love the walkway along the end of Sauchiehall street...
I love the rain...when I am sleeping in my bed...
I love the sun occassionally...
I love eating pipping hot food...
I love muching cold salad...
I love to cook...
I love to voice my feelings...

So many love...no particular reasons most of the time...
So how deep is my love for him...
I cannot guage.

There is no way I can...
becos most of the time...I dun know why I love certain things...
perhaps there are reasons for why I love something...
but that reason does not apply to everything that i love...
which means...that is not the reason why i love something...

For instance...I love his smile...
I just like it...he always smile like a boy...
like something amuse him so much...he smile...
Especially the one that he had on his face when he first solve the rubiks cube...
But then...if he dun have such smile...
I still love him...
So it is not his smile...

Becos he change my lightbulb?...i love him before he did so...
Becos he rides a bicycle?...dun think so...

And...thinking so hard...
I actually cannot think of anything concrete why i love him...perhaps too many reasons in the past...
but nothing comes to my mind exactly...
sometimes he reminds me of my father...who like to fix machines...
but if he doesn't...
I still love him...

Sometimes he makes me happy...
but if he doesn't...
I still love him...

sometimes he makes me sad...
but if he does...
I still love him...

sometimes he amuses me...
but if he doesn't...
i still love him...

sometimes he annoys me...
but if he does..
i still love him...

sometimes he makes me laugh...
but if he doesn't...
i still love him...

sometimes he makes me cry...
but if he does...
I still love him...

So...how deep is my love for him...
I cannot guage.
There is no way.

Only time will tell.

But right now...I just love him.
That is how deep.
This deep.

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