I am 28 now.

Time is running out.
For my art practice.
I need to establish myself before I reach 35.
Before I can start my stable life as an artist.
If I settle for stability now, it could mean compromising my art.
I have to give up my stable now...
So that art can be with me for the rest of my life...
with a stable life.

If i practice now...with my BA...
my part time will be low paid..
And my work will not be well funded.
And I have to struggle...and
cannot make both ends meet.

If i finish my MFA,
my part time will be better paid...
and my work will have a higher chances of getting funded.
Until I am independent and
finally practice full time eventually.

What I want is really simple.
Find someone I love who also love me...
to live the rest of my life with...
have a place I call home to live and work in...
have many kids...
share my life in the form of art...
Do what I love and make a living out of it...until I die.

Maybe...not so simple afterall.