This is joyce.

She is my student.
She is an artist.
Her work is expressive and powerful.
Not only visually...but also physically.
She produces her artwork with fast and hard brushstrokes...
often with a lot of strength...(spoiling the markers tips)
Her subject matters are wild, random and full of imagination!
Her work may look messy and unconventional.
But every bit a masterpiece!
And I love it!

Juicy..!

Have not painted still life for a long time...
was so tempted to paint one last week...
that I join in the fun and painted this.
I am happy.

Erm...

Seriously talented girls - Haig Girls.

Comic drawing exercise.

Look...I am serious when I say they can't spell my name.

By the way...thanks girls!

I think my students love me...but somehow...

They always spell my name wrongly..?!??!

100種生活 Lyrics.

100種生活
作詞:鍾成虎 作曲:盧廣仲

整個世界 停止 不轉動 很寂寞
走在海邊 數著 螢火蟲 好困惑
想要的生活怎麼有一百種
不想掉進這深深 漩渦

整個海洋 擺動 柔軟地 舉起我
孤獨給我 自由 猶豫得 好感動
想要的生活怎麼有一百種
該怎麼走 誰來告訴我 wow

每當我背對星空
抱著地球
發現自己其實脆弱 不敢說
當我背對星空
孤獨摸索
愛情漸漸萎縮 我猜不透
無邊的宇宙 哪裡有我要的生活

整個海洋 擺動 柔軟地 舉起我
孤獨給我 自由 猶豫得 好感動
想要的生活怎麼有一百種
該怎麼走 誰來告訴我 wow

每當我背對星空
抱著地球
發現自己其實脆弱 不敢說
當我背對星空
孤獨摸索
愛情漸漸萎縮 我猜不透
無邊的宇宙 哪裡有我(想)要的生活

每當我背對星空
抱著地球
發現自己其實脆弱 不敢說
當我背對星空
孤獨摸索
愛情漸漸萎縮 我猜不透
無邊的宇宙 哪裡有我要的生活
原來一百分之一
要在很久很久以後才會懂

盧廣仲 100種生活

This guy...he decided to pick up his guitar to start singing after a traffic accident.
Maybe in life, you have to be brave enough to embrace passion..
Or you might just die in regrets.

For me, I am simply too afraid that being a full time artist will earn myself nothing.
Hence I am nowhere...hanging on as a part time artist...
Yet, did not achieve anything....in my art practice and my career.

If I can be brave enough to choose and do something totally...
WITHOUT REGRETS.

Maybe I should give up something altogether and do something totally.

If I am brave enough like him.
Maybe I can create something as beautiful as this song like him.

Meanwhile, ENJOY THIS SONG.
A GREAT SONG!

Youtube below!

盧廣仲 100種生活-ON REPEAT MODE NOW!

The place call home.

It has become very clear to me where is home for me now.
Home is where I feel the most comfortable, most relax and safe.
Home is where I do not feel restricted.
And be myself.

Singapore is the place I grew up in with many friends and memory.
However, that home with my parents in it...
is the only place I feel safe and relax...without restriction.

This place that I am staying in now in Singapore...
is my temporary home...
As comfortable as I try to make myself feel...
I still always do not feel totally comfortable.
And somehow on many occassion...
I was being reminded that this is not my own home.

My home now...is the home where my parents are staying now in Chiang Mai.
Not Thailand.
But that home.
The home with my family around.

That is my home.
Nowadays...I will tell my friend..."I am going home.."
when I am going "back" to Chiang Mai...

That kind of feeling..
If you know what I mean.

But then...
I am always proud to be a Singaporean.

A singaporean who is proud to be one...
But no longer feels at home.

Sadly.

This thing call friendship.

I realise...

Different kind of friends play different role in your life.
While u play different role to your friends' lives.


Some friends...are those you call up every few days...to update your life.
Since they already know what is going on in your life.
Or Even if there is nothing going on in your life...
However, if there is a lagged in updating information or delay for too long.
Interaction level will drop if communication is always initiated one-sidedly.


Some friends...are those...you see once in a while...
or some... once in a blue moon.
Yet, it seems perfectly alright to you.
You just need to catch up and move on.


Some friends, you just know they will call you.
And you don't have to call them.
However, if they do not call you,
you will only call them when you remember to.


Some friends, you will only remember when you meet them in gatherings.
And the next meeting is the next wedding dinner perhaps.

Some, are those you can call in the middle of the night at 3am and they will not get angry...

Some, strangely likes to calls you at 12 midnight...

Some, are those who share the same taste as you when it comes to watching movies.

Some, you will not want to travel with though they are your good friends.

Some, share most of the mahjong session of your life.

Some, are your best KTV mates.

Some, are good to go shopping with.

Some, likes the same kind of food.

Some, goes to the late night weekend sales with you...

Some, wake up early in the morning and go to the library sales with you...

Some, always meet you at Kinokuniya...

Some, you talk to them about politics...

Some, you share your dreams...

Some, you pour your woes....

Some, you share your philosophy in life...

Some, you talk about man....

Some, you may want to keep a distance because you are afraid of getting hurt .

Some, keep a distance from you, because they do not want to hurt you.

Some, automatically drift away because of time and distance.

Some, will always buy you something when they go abroad...

Some, will remember your birthday.

Some, you are just contented not to keep in contact until you have to.

Some, if you do not keep in contact, you will lose them.

Some, will correct your grammar mistakes...

Some, like to point out your typo.

Some, are those who have known you for more than half of you life so far...

Some, reads your blog...

Some, did not know you have a blog...

Some, simply understand why you like to watch K-drama...

Some, have been waiting for you to cut your hair for a long long time ...


Which one are you?

You play the role you play as a friend.

I was complaining to RS about my best friend, YH.
As usual, I was complaining that I am being neglected since she get married.
Then RS said..."you also never call me when I was abroad."
Yes, I dun have the habit to call RS as she will call me most of the time.

And so...I realise....

Different friends fill up different aspect of your life.

YH is never the person to call me
but the one always there waiting for my call.
And the reason for me feeling neglected was due to the fact that
I feel bad disturbing her new found married life...
and stop calling her.

So it was not her fault.

It was mine.

So, I sent her an sms.

And she replied.

:)

I like my current job.

Yes, the time flexibity and reasonably pay...
Is one of the reason why I like my current job.
But the most satisfying of all....
Are my students.
I am teaching them to grow up.
While they teach me to be like a child again.

I am thankful.

Pissed.

As always...I am pissed helping people who take me for granted.
I don't want to say who.
They probably don't know they are.
That is the scary part.

Buddha forbids.
Arh mi tuo fu.

The annual library book sales!

Opps...forget to take photos.
Too busy to.
Bought 15 books altogether.
$2 each :)
But felt guilty.
Afterall, I only want to read them, with no intention to keep some of them.
But...I always end up with a lot of overdue books without reading them.
That is why i decided to buy.
I hope I can finish reading some of them...and gave them away after reading.

Maybe, I did try my best.

I have been thinking if I am capable of stopping myself
from falling in love with someone
whom I know will hurt me.
Maybe, I did try my best back then.
But I failed.
Because, I am me.

Even if I was given the same scenario ...
Knowing I will be hurt...
I probably will still choose to love him...
But maybe in a different way.
I will keep my distance and love him quietly.

This is just me.
I am just silly.

Boys! They love machines! Part 3

This time round.
His job is to draw trees that looks like a palm.
Once again, this good boy drew as he was instructed.
He came and ask me if he can draw someone chopping off the tree.
With plenty of his own creative initiative, as always.
I give him my consent.
And he drew the robot to do the job.
WELL DONE! DOUGLAS!

Boys! They love machines! Part 2

This time, Doug was instructed to draw mice.
I wanted at least 2 mice.
He did.
One of them is a robot one.
And they are fighting.
Nice one!

Boys! They love machines! Part 1

Douglas, my primary one student.
He was suppose to draw a dog.
And he did.
But he added a tank!
Attacking the poor dog.
Good try!

Some memories.

Talking to RS lately remind me of my past.
So many...too many.
There were times that I was happy.
There were times...I was sad.

I claimed that I have get over him long ago.
But the scar will always be there.
It is not painful anymore.
But it reminded me of how painful it was.

While giving advice to relationship matters now...
I can only say...
Leave it as it is...at it's best.
And not overdoing it to regret later in life.

Finally,

Let nature takes it course.

To everybody.

Oh...another abstract expressionist drawing.

Life, as it is.

Life, as it is.
40 inch x 50 inch

Yet another of my recent work.

Life, a simple one.

"Life, a simple one."
20 cm x 20 cm

Yes. I have pick up painting again.
It has been a while since I painted something properly.
This is my recent work.

Just a leaf...with water droplets.

Miss Sha is ME!

We were drawing turtle for that day...and the students drew me.
And the tiny square object the turtle me was holding was a camera.
Because I always carry a camera during lesson to take photos.
And yah...my students always spell my name wrongly...

Good afternoon!

By the way, they spelled my name wrongly.

Haig Girls! painting roses...

Hello! Mr Grasshopper!

Spotted at Haig Girls while waiting for the girls to start lesson.

My eye for abstract expressionist.

Please correct my grammer.

Eh eh...XN was saying my blog got plenty of grammer error.
Issit?
PLEASE.
IF YOU SEE ANY,
comment and correct me ON THE SPOT.
So that I know I made a mistake.
Or else I will assume there is nothing wrong.

Thank you.

Chinese song lyrics appreciation - 2

Yet another good song...
A song by Xiao Jing Teng.

原諒我


作詞：阿沁 & 陳天佑 & 吳易緯 作曲：阿沁


請不要分了以後 還記得親吻過的承諾
你的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭 那時我很多話哽在喉嚨

你的笑 你的快樂 不是我愛太多 想太多
我能感受他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠 比你先說分手

請原諒我 原諒我不成熟
不愛你是藉口 好讓你離開我
請原諒我 好想自私將你佔有
一個寂寞就給我承受 換你過更好的生活

請不要分了以後 還記得親吻過的承諾
你的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭 那時我很多話哽在喉嚨

你的笑 你的快樂 不是我愛太多 想太多
我能感受他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠 比你先說分手

請原諒我 原諒我不成熟
不愛你是藉口 好讓你離開我
請原諒我 好想自私將你佔有
一個寂寞就給我承受 換你過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過你的脆弱 其實我比誰都要懦弱

原諒我 必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間倒流 我怕說不出口
原諒我 沒有解釋太多心痛
別無所求 徹底忘了我 愛原來要捨得

我難過 我才懂

Chinese song lyrics appreciation - 1

I am not a fan of Sun Yanzi.
But this is a very good song that I came across one day.
Was impressed by the lyrics and found out that
it was written by my all time favourite lyricist...
accompanied by my favourite chinese instrument-Er-hu.

眼淚成詩

词:林夕

我已經 已經把我傷口化作玫瑰

我的淚水 已經變成雨水早已輪迴

我已經 已經把對白留成了永遠

忘了天色 究竟是黑是灰

　

分手傷了誰 誰把它變美

我的眼淚寫成了詩 已無所謂

讓你再回味 字不醉人人自醉

因為回憶 總是美

　

我已經 已經把絕情變成了恭維

因為不配 你就忽然自卑說聲失陪

我已經 已經把沉默變成了懺悔

無路可退 只能無言以對

分手傷了誰 誰把它變美

我的眼淚寫成了詩 一首 無所謂

讓你再回味 字不醉人人自醉

你的品味 總是美

By the way...

As much as I hate to do funding application.
I am proud that I completed one and learn many things during the process.

GOOD JOB GAL!

And many thanks to JM, LW and YQ for helping.

Yet another friend...attaching soon.

Found out that a friend is soon to be attached.
Feeling a bit low...
Not that I have any special feelings for him..but
Because I know...this friend will soon disappear from my life.
One by one..like all others...

I am still happy for them.
But I am just feeling sad for myself.
I can't be wishing everybody to be left on the shelf like me.
I can only wish I am not the only left.

Or best...get off the shelf myself.

Another someone.

Met another friend of 10 years recently.
He was a schoolmate.
10 years ago...I also had a tiny winy crush on him
Ok ok...I am someone who falls in love too easily.
I can't help it.

Nothing happen 10 years ago.
We are just friends in the end.

We met up on and off every few years...
He is a very eligible guy i have to admit,
but somehow, we are too different.
Our meeting always end with a thought...
"Hmm....there is a reason why we are just friends until now."

And yah...that's all.

All the best to him too.

Someone.

He is a junior of mine 10 years ago.
I used to have a tiny crush on him.
Met him in a gathering just weeks ago...
heard that he is getting married soon.

My heart...felt a tiny winy pinch...just a little...
not enough to cause any pain...
But is enough to cause an unknown sensation of "hmm".

I am trying to remember why I like him in the past.
I remember he seldom smile...
And i like his quiet and cool image.
But I just found out...he did not smile...becos...of his teeth.
He has braces on now...and full of smile now...

Met him again on a bus just a few days ago on a bus with his mum and future wife...

Agree to play mahjong one of these days...
He is moving to my neighbourhood soon.

Hmm....

What can I say.

All the best to him.

Sad.

Once again, I did not win any UOB award.
Although I do understand that not winning does not mean my art is not good.
I am just disappointed that my effort are wasted.