Thailand-Singapore overland...

At first...I was just trying to save money and check out the websites for train fares from chiangmai to Hat yai....and then take a cheap fare flight from hat yai to singapore...

Then I realise it can be really cheap to do the whole thing overland...
and for a 2nd class-sleeper...chiangmai to singapore...

It only cost about $140 singdollars...

which is only like...£46..

And it will take about roughly 3 days 2 night to reach singapore in all...

while it will take $195 for a direct flight of 3 hours from chiangmai to singapore...

And regarding the matter of time....time is my biggest asset now...compare to money...

And I can stop and travel malaysia and thailand??..
Well...I am tempted...really...

And guess what....
something that i have expected....

My brother had done this chiangmai-singapore overland thingy many years ago already....and nothing new to him....

Actually...if i am from singapore...
I can take the singapore-chinagmai overland....
then by bus...to Laos or burma???..
then can take boat up the mekong river to yunnan...

then within china up tp shanghai....
then take a cruise over to japan....

which again...is something what my brother had done many years ago...

But then...it will only be exciting if I try myself....

So exciting...

Anyway...today's mood rating....6.5...
it was only 6 at first....the 0.5 is extra bonus becos i cook my first dish for the family....and feel proud....

And I still fail...

I search online for solution...

Roughly I get the idea...
that I have to upload the image to a website with an URL...
then using this link to post the image on my blog...

OR...upload the image with dreamweaver...
and blah blah...a bit confused though...

But i will keep learning...

Anyway...

I am happy today becos of the rain...
temperature drops...and my heart lightened...
I would say....I feel so much better then yesterday...
if yesterday mood is rated as 5.5...
then today would be....7.
I am actually looking forward to wake up today...
I actually look forward...
This seems to be a good start...

I have been trying very hard to shake off my desire to talk to him everyday....and though I fail...
but i can see that i am imporving each day...
Hopefully one day...I will only be happy when i think of him...
think of him as a happy memory...

Wish everybody have a nice day...

And I still fail to upload the blinking image...i wonder why...

Let me explain what I am trying to test below...

I am trying out how to make animated image with my Adobe Image ready...

Then...at first i save as psd(photoshop)----->dun work....then I save as html---->fail , then saved as gif...thought will work finally...but turn out to be a still image....

so the below is suppose to be blinking...

BLINKING!!!!!

Urgghhhh...!

Anyway...I will try again...

Wait and see!

testing...

Love da rain...

Yes yes yes!!!!! finally....
Chiangmai is finally raining....
The first ever....since the day I arrived, like 2 months ago....

This could just be my happiest day in Chiangmai...

Love IT!...

Love da rain....

And missed him.

Last photo...for today's photo blog...

One of my favourite pictures...

I was uploading pictures from my digi-cam this afternoon...

realise there are some nice pictures

to "show off" my life here in Chiangmai...

and the things seen from my eyes...

EnJoy...

Many Many photos...

Thapae walk street every sunday night....

On my way walking to Walai...

One of those walks around the neighbourhood...

Bus stop?!?!??!...

MoRe mOre pHotOs...

During the Flower festival...

During the chinese new year....

Man on the street...

MoRe PhOtos!!

Let's go shopping....

This is our shopping basket....

A pick-up full of cabbages...

15 baht per bag of cabbage....

15baht is about $0.60(singdollar)...

£0.20(Sterling pound)...

Look at her smile...

PhOtoS...

Little boy...please look at the sign on top...

The famous...Doi Suthep....

A few days ago..

I was really angry and upset that day...
When my brother and I had a big quarrel...
As usual...it was a case of misjustice...
I wasn't able to rebute...
becos I was too angry and was crying...I couldn't speak...
My brother accuse me of being irresponsible and selfish...
and did not think of the family...


And what was even annoying is that...
The quarrel was started becos I was trying to tell my brother to respect people's choices....
And he start to say nasty things to me...saying that I have been very irresponsible to the family...blah blah...not at home....blah blah...
He was only with the family for half a year...let's say one year...while I am away...
But I have been with the family for the so many years while he is away....
He complains that I am not contributing to the family...
I did...when he is not around...I was the one who pays all the phone bills and electrical bills...
I never complained about him...
I respect his wish to do anything....
BUT HE DID NOT RESPECT ME.

And the only person in the world who can say i am irresponsible is my second brother...becos he is the only one who is always with the family all the while...
BUt he respect ME...and my wishes...

In this case...there is nothing more I can say...
I dun intend to show off like him...and make it a point to annouce that he is working hard for the family...and how noble he is...
I worked hard for the family too...he dun have to know...

But I want to use my own way...

He says I am selfish and do not want to work for the family base on the fact that I do not want to stay in thailand...
But the truth is...
I DO NOT WANT TO BE INVOLVE IN ANY OF HIS BUSINESS VENTURE...
BECOS in the point of view of an investor...
he is NOT WORTH INVESTING...
And also...I do not work well with him...
A business partner who do not know simple respect is not worth working with...
Moreover...if it is going to be a family business....
It is only going to make my life miserable...
becos he is only going to be tyranic...and dictating...
His way of doing business DO NOT see eye to eye with my working style.

There are just too many reason for me NOT to stay and be involve in the family business...
yet he do not see all these...
And it is no point for me to stay here anymore...
Let him assume things...
I am not interested to clarify any thing...
becos it will be useless....he will just be unreasonable and start making accusation and say nasty things...that is his way to cover up his own guilty conscience...
everything he did is noble...and everything other people do is SHIT...

So yah...that's all....

I wish everybody is happy....

Dentist!

Today is my last appointment to see the dentist...
It was always scary...even though I always manage to walk out of the dental clinic alive...I couldn't say it was a painless experience...

It was painful.

And scary....

That is why the dentist always put a cloth over my eyes...so that i won't be seeing what kind of tool she is using in my mouth...

But the sound...those drailing sound is enuff to make your imagination run wild...

And worse of all...I always always very tired after every dental appointment becos I was so tense...

All my muscle will ache after the each session...

Even though the pain is really no big deal...

But the fear of pain....is worse than the pain itself...


People who haven't been to a dentist for more than 2 years...
and haven't been brushing and flossing your teeth diligently....
My advice is...see a dentist while your teeth is still healthy and give it a good scrub...dun wait until it start to ache...


Mine was not even aching...and the dentist's head is already shaking...

Yesterday...

Yesterday is one of the rare day that I slept early at around 1am plus...and woke up the next day at 1pm...a whole 12 hours of sleep...and slept again in the afternoon from 5pm plus...till 8pm....

Sleep and sleep...at least it broke the cycle of me not sleeping in the middle of the night...

But i shouldn't be too happy ...
Becos I am wide awake now...

and who knows when i am going to sleep...

And i am also happy that...i slept well becos I am NOt thinking of him...
I am too tired to think of him...

Anyway....
Yah...have a nice day everybody..

Time to let go and leave...

Nothing more to say...
but time to let go and leave...

Nothing to prove,
wish everybody happy.

To the dentist!!!...

Have been visiting the dentist very regularly every Wednesday and Friday....
And actually look forward to every visit...at least it will fill up my day...in such a way that I will wake up earlier than usual...and walk to the dentist...
and spend an hour roughly each time to fix my teeth...

This is already the 4th appointment...

But today...my teeth...is ULtra sensitive after the filling...
fills weird...not painful...
but weird...so weird that i dun have the confident to chew my food properly...

I hope my tooth will get better tomolo...

Dear tooth fairy...please bless me.

and 3 more appointment to go...and i will have a full set of healthy beautiful teeth...can't wait...

Budapest Recap!

This was an article I read on the plane on my way to budapest...thought it was interesting and wanted to share this with you all...
Reminded me of my obsession over the Euromillion rollover craze in my UK days...
But had long forgotten about it until i show this sets of photo to my mum a few days ago...and remember it...

Please comment...

HELLO!!!....everybody out there...

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT...on my blog...say something...
I know I am boring and keeps repeating the same old moaning...
But...let me know you all are out there somewhere...
Scold me...criticise me...laugh at me...watever

SAY SOMETHING!

I feel like I am talking to myself...

Hate this feeling....

HATE IT!

A matter of time....

I was feeling sad again that day....

I have a feeling we will never meet again...
even if we do...I am only a friend to him...and nothing more...

Heart breaking.

Not in the mood anymore...
I need to make myself really busy....

I hate myself for loving him...

Hope time will heal...

SHIT!!

I type and type and accidentally press a wrong key...and lost my entire post...

and i shall just continue what i have writing without filling up the detail that is lost...becos nobody seem to be reading anyway...

*****

I dun noe how to continue and where to go..what to do...
I told them that i plan to study...plan to work overseas...
go back to singapore...go UK...blah blah...

But...JM says...those are maybe just some of the things I try to think of to do...but may not be the real thing I want to do...or else i would have just do it already...

Indeed...What do i want...

Mr Lim says..."if i were you...i would have gone traveling..."
it struck me...becos...yes..i do want to travel....but what comes after that?
i still have to make a choice...

OHHHH!.....


i was actually happy at the end of the night....when i show my mum my work...
i wanted to do art...

my art about my life...but i always hesitate...becos of this question people always ask me..."what makes you think people is interested in your life...you are nobody..."

By the way....there is something i really want to do....
I want to see him....

can this be considered as what i want??


oh well...

have a nice day everyone.

SIZE MATTER!

OF COURSE SIZE MATTER...

For a woman living in this distorted world...
Being fat, plump or simply voluptious is a SIN.

Then I made a discovery while traveling between UK, singapore and thailand...
And I call it....The relativity of SIZE.

Ladies out there...
It is time to learn the truth...

Size is relative.

Which means...being a S(small), M(medium), L(large) is NOT definite.

Singapore Size

I am a Medium-Large(M-L) in Singapore...
My boobs will sometimes be M or L depending on the cutting of the clothes or dress...
and my bums is always L...so basically I am a PEAR SHAPE...my friend once commented I am quite "voluptious"...which erm...thanks...I know you all are just being kind...

My bra size(ok folks...just keep this to yourself...)
In singapore...I will buy 80-B(usually)...and QX actually asked me once if I have ever considered a breast-reduction...a WHAT?....no no no...no thanks
I love myself..whatever I am.


UK size

Sorry UK gals...
It is a FACT...that all of you UK girls out there are generally BIGGER in size..
and hence the clothing industry have to adjust to the market trend and produce bigger-size clothes but with undersize label...
Also...they have different labelling system...like size 8, size 10, size 12...size 14..up to size 20 and more...

Size 8 is small...10-12 is medium...14-16 is LARGE..

I am always around size 10-12...
and can wear a size 10 confortably...but sometimes will choose a size 12 becos I like loose clothing...
In UK...I am considered...small-build...
and my boobs are just average or even less than average..

Bra size..
I was a bit surprised that I fit into an 80-A...and 80-B is erm...a bit loose...



Thailand size

Shopping for clothes can be a very traumatising experience...
Or...WORST than traumatising...
it kills all your hopes and joys and destroy you confident...

Yes...they can be DAMN CHEAP...
but what is the point when you can buy as many as you want...
but none of them is your size...

I was shopping one day...saw a nice T-shirt...
but thought it was too tiny...
It was size S...fair enough...S is suppose to be tiny...
fumble about and saw size M...
And...er...still to small...
Size L....something is not right...even though L is larger...but...still SMALL...
and eventually...I tight-fittingly fit into an X-L(extra-large)
which i suspect it's X-L is UK size 8.

DAMN!

And the few embaressing moments...

Once i was at a night market...saw a blouse...was told it was a free size..
try it on...and couldn't button up...

Went into a shop and wanted to buy a dress....
and their shop...DUN HAVE MY SIZE....
The worst of all...
Only the foreign import shops from UK, France and Italy have my size...
which sells clothes as expensive as you can find in UK...in THAI BAHT..which one blouse can cost as expensive as a Thai's one month pay.

while ALL thai-operated shops...DO NOT HAVE MY SIZE...
the only two thai shops with clothes that I can fit into...
One is a shop that specially sell big size clothes for big woman...
the other...IS A MATERNITY CLOTHES SHOP...

I walked into a shop naively and saw a size 38...and thought that is my size...
BUT...size 38 in Thailand is actually a SMALL in singapore...
The lady SHAKE HER HEAD...and say to me in broken-english.."too big"
and took out her measuring tape...to measure my bustline..."too big..."
and measure the dress to show me I was indeed too big for all the dress in her shop...

I gave up shopping for clothes in Thailand...
It is even more depressing than doing nothing in thailand...

Thai girls are generally very slim..VERY VERY SLIM...
my size..is like the size of a married woman with a lot of kids to them...
In another words...I AM FAT HERE.


My Bra size...expectedly...
80-C.


I wish I am in Africa now...

Maybe they will think I am TOO SKINNY...


So folks...

SIZE...DOES MATTER.
In the sense...your size is you...
and be proud of who you are...
Or....should I say...size Doesn't matter...
becos they are relative....
wherever you go....
as long as you learn to love yourself...

Although I constantly say i wanted to go on diet...
that is really for health purposes and
I know I can be healthier by controlling my weight...
also becos so that I can look more proportion and pleasant...


But I am always proud of my 80-A-B-C...
wherever it goes...
and my size S-M-L-XL...
becos that is me.

Root canal treatment....

I have this tooth with quite a deep hole...which needs filling I thought...
and went to the dentist...
thinking if it is cheap...I will do a full clean up as I haven't been to adentist for years and years...

But my plan was ruin...
when the doctor say...

He is unable to perform simple filling up becoe my tooth is in such a bad condition that only a ROOT CANAL treatment can solve the bad tooth...

and he also pointed out I have other teeth which also need filling...and my teeth doesn't look healthy...

he shakes his head while digging out all the cavities...
as if he saw worms crawling in and out the teeth...

I am determine to FIX my teeth and make them perfect...
so that I can eat as many food in the future...

and be more confident if i were to kiss anyone in the future...

Beautiful life begans with healthy teeth....
Ah...sounds like a good slogan for dentist...
But but....according to some of my friends...
root canal treatment...HURTS!

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3 things that bites...

There are basically 3 things that bites in my family...

1. The most irritating...

are the mosquitoes...
They are simply everywhere...
According to my experience...

Active area

around the basin...
the toilets...
behind the curtain...
and on the mirrors...
I notice they love kissing themselves on mirrors...

Active time ...

is around at night , most active between 2am till 7am...
The most irritating is that they will hover around you...
regardless of whether they wanna bite you...
and finally...when opportunity struck...
They bite you and leave you an itchy mark for days...
Not something too serious...
BUT DEFINITELY IRRITATING...

Solution

YOU KILL THEM before they SUCK UP YOUR BLOOD!
With the help of an electro-racket which will electrify and kills mosquitoes...
my family owns 2 of such power tool...and kills mosquito like TERMINATORS!...
My father and I will take turns to RAID their hideout and WIPE OUT!
That is one of my favourite activity here...my most ruthless hobby so far.



2. The most annoying...

are the ants...
they are everywhere like the mosquitoes but in a less obvious way...
they will only be visible when food is around...
they will queue up and form a long long queue....

Active areas are...kitchen table...

living-room table...
basin bin...
cups,bowls,...


Active time...

when they accidentally landed on you...
while you pick up a ant-infested item...
they will crawl all over you....
and bites you
and the bite...
is more deadly...than the mosquitoes...
which takes a longer time to heal and so much more itchy and PAINFUL...
and ANNOYING!Could be active ANYTIME. Sometimes found crawling alone on sofas and chairs...was once found in a bag of rice...

Solution

But the good thing is...they will disappear when you clear up the food...
and they disappear as fast as they appear...
Is a good way to force us to clean up the mess and get rid of them..
For cases when found in bas of rice...open up the rice to sun....and ants will disperse...for lone cases...smash them with ur thumb when they BITE!


3. The third and most disgusting

is...my family dog...
Oh yeah...he BITES...
and he chews...

Active area...

In terms of indoor...toilet...
and under the kitchen table...
and living room sofa...

Outdoor..around the cooking area
the car parking area...
at the gate...
clothes drying area...
at night...
he works like a sercurity guard and do guard duty around the house...


Active time...

Definitely during the enter and exit time between the gate...
when my father drive home and he will FOR SURE STAND AT THE GATE....
to stand by...whoever opens the gate....he will attack...
his style...
is to stand on two legs and and scratches you, bite you, chew you...
during free hours...he will loiter around ur work area...and huant you, bite away your tools...
steal clothes from the drying area...when you finish hanging clothes...
steal food when you dun notice...
sneak into the house and lay on the sofa to watch TV...
sneak into the toilet to drink water from the toliet bowl..
hide under the table and snatch food from the table...


Solution...

Close kitchen back door and house side door...
to prevent him from entering the house to prevent him creating havoc indoor..
If unfortunately he manage to sneak in...

Close the toliet door..
Lift trashbin to prevent him for chewing rubbish
came home with food...and lure him away when opening gate...
so that he will not attack the person who closes the gate...but follows the person with food...

His bite is not deadly...scratch might leave scars...
but could be disgusting when he chews your hair right after he lick up the water from the toilet bowl....VERY VERY DISGUSTING!

Finally...it is important to TRAIN HIM....WHACK HIM! and feed him properly so that he dun steal food. ANd play with him so that he won't feel bored and disturb you..

Be careful what you wish for...

Yes yes yes...Please be VERY CAREFUL...


For instance...

I wish to DO NOTHING.
That was my well-known wish...
And now...I DO NOTHING....
But I am depressed...

I wish to be in loved...
And I was...
But suffer a broken heart...

I wish to have internet access...
But in the end...
I get more depress when i dun see anyone else one online...

I wish to have a lot of free time...
I end up wasting my time...
And feels guilty...

I wish that I lose weight...
In the end...
I got food poisoning and lost a lot of weight...

I wish I wish...
Maybe I should be more specific...
Like wish that I am carefree and healthy and do the things I love and be happy and motivated spending time happily with the man I love who also loves me...living in our own house and do not have to worry about money...

Ahh....maybe i shouldn't wish for anything...

If I want something...I WORKED FOR IT!