Friday, September 23, 2005

To die a broken heart...

Yes...I am broken hearted.
And the worst thing is...I cannt bring myself blame him or hate him...because I can understand why...
There are too many obstacle...too many questions all along as to how this can continue...
maybe i should thank him.....that it is over now...and I am set free again....into the open water...as a fish....
However...i cannot see him again...
i suspect I will just cry and cry...even by starting to think about how i should even reply his email...
Hence i cannot see him anymore...
Though he did say that he hope to see me again...and we can still be friends....
I guess it is no harm still having a friend....but i just cannot see him anymore...
Not that I am angry or cannot forgive him.
Just that It is too painful....
We can still be friends...but things will never be the same again...
will never be like what our friendship had started to be...
and at this moment at least...
I think I just need to run away from him...and never speak to him again...
until I can get over him...
which will probably take a long long long time.....

Now...i am just broken hearted.
Now...I just want to cry and cry...until I am too tired...and fall asleep.

Hopefully the next morning...the sun will shine again...but ohh...I love the rain...
what a mix feeling...

230905

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Did he break up with you via email?!??

Wei

Anonymous said...

the end is just a new begining... u like him cos u r horny rite.. haha.. ok.. put it better cos u r lonely. hmm... kinda understand humans cant live alone,(ya got,only hermits)we need ppl to love us care for us. see the person u can relate to and have heart thobbing feelings is defintely a wondeful experience of a lifetime. Ah... human nature. do we love from our hearts or our brains? or u love him for his looks or character. do u love him cos he loves u. aw... me so sad.. sad to say all these..

hope to see u soon in singapore and i just got to noe tt yr whole family had moved to thailand. Wat a holy place... go there mediate lo. btw.. i feel like goin thailand oneday.. bring us walk walk around there when u become a Pr there.. OR u wont even thinking abt movin to thailand..? hah... is kinda weird place rite. Girls look like girls but are not girls. guys who are guys act like girls. Hai... i dont noe la. i nd to go back camp alrady. sry tt time.. really cant see wat u r typing using yr invisible ink. (Really..) i oso dont no wat to say tt time cos i don no wat to say and wat to do la... aO.. go watch some comedy and laugh or can.. go sleep. Ciaociaociaociao.. good bye

Anonymous said...

Hugz hugz.... yanni

Anonymous said...

Everything that does not kill us...makes us stronger.