I just don't know what to do with myself...

I think I am confused.
First of all...I am not so sure now if he really has a gf...
or maybe he did have one...

But...he never mention to me about the existence of a "her" at all...
all the while.

I presume...or maybe I hope...
I have made a mistake.
But...I have been thinking...
regardless...
he is leaving...
I am leaving...
nothing can happen...
how sad.

Just cherish the moment....
and remember...

That is all I can do...really.
Really.
I just don't know what to do with myself now...

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