Not at home

He likes me...
He likes me not...
He likes me...
He likes me not...
He likes me...
He likes me not...

Actually..I am not interested anymore.

Not that I dun like him anymore.
But it has come to that point of saturation
where the the sensation has make me too numb...
So numb that I am no longer excited.
So numb that I can jump out of myself and see the whole situation as a third party.
That is the advantage of someone who has schizophrenia tendency...
Or..my friends would probably be mumbling
"Not that serious lah..maybe just split personality"

And...it is back to normal for me actually.
I know I am normal when I start to think.
And when I think...I will make my point clear.

Yesterday, we had our first disagreement.
We are arguing for the first time about something.
Couldn't even remember what it was...but i remember the actual conversation.

It goes...

"Could be."he said.

"It is."I said insistingly.

"Could be"he said again.

"It is."...I said firmly.

And he said finally..."yah..it is. "
"Good."...I rest my case.

It was a silly disagreement I know.
But it only shows that i am not agreeing with watever he says now.
At least now...some of the things he did might be wrong.
LAst week...everything he did was right.
Can you people out there see my point.

I am no longer obsess with him.
Affirmative.

I am myself again.

Nice feeling.

250505